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If you find any positivity it sounds like you should hold onto it! I can scrounge up some more I'm sure

Congrats on the stability!

this is so not funny, BUT I laughed out loud and I'm pretty sure I smell bbq and sulfur XD

OK. it sounds like I may have been right in assuming this wasn't a great situation. tom's apartment is lovely, hes a very neat person and has a sweet cat. I can also ask my roommates about you coming to stay for a week to breathe if you need space. (house full on introverts and cats, and me) I'm dog sitting atm, but tomorrow I can leave the doggo for 6 hours and can come help if you need to remove stuff from a shared space ( I had to do that alone and it Sucked) I don't want to overwhelm you with things I could potentaly do that MIGHT be helpful in your situation. But they exist and I'm pretty willing. I'm sorry to hear that your mom isn't respectng boundries. I had to change my number and cut my mom off around the time I left Jax. It was horrible. I wish I had some kind of advice or a way to make that hurt less but there really isn't any? it does get better, I don't think there was a way someone could have said that to me that I would have belived when I was here. But it got better.

this is exactly who I want to be when I'm 90

So, I'm trying to think of a clean way to do signups and organize cars. (Who has one available, who's looking ect) BUT this community is small enough that we can probably get away with a forum post and a hand kept Excel sheet XD So we don't really have to use a fancy self filling Google form and corresponding sheet in a sharable drive XD Ugh I really should learn coding so I can back away from Google more.

@Scary Guy I found the perfect hearse for you

So when I moved to MI it was to flee domestic violence. I don't really talk about it much because I'm in therapy and pay someone well to have to hear about that bs. But I think that experience is a bit relevant here. If someone in your life is making you feel, regularly like you are a problem and even getting upset at you for trying to understand yourself better and painting THAT like a problem I don't think I have a title to put on that behavior that doesn't involve the A word. I know how these situations go, so I'm not going to try and convince you you need help you don't want or tell you something you don't need to hear but the one thing I will say is this. I didn't think anyone would love me aside from the person I had to cross state lines to get away from. I didn't think I deserved someone who wouldn't control me because I genuinely believed that I was somehow so bad I had to be controlled. This was bs. People told me in so many ways that it was bs and I couldn't tell you what made me see that I deserved more but once I did and got help (specifically intensive treatment for C-ptsd) I was actually like happy being myself. When you don't have someone constantly kicking you while you're down and bringing a microscope to your flaws you have a much better chance at finding peace and stability. Like I said, this is the only time I will ever say this or anything like it. You deserve to be happy in your own skin. No one has the right to treat you this way. This sounds like psychological abuse to me. And you deserve better. I don't have a spare room to offer, I wish I did. And I can't really help you get on your own feet financially as I'm recovering from a divorce myself, but if you need/want a recommendation for a good therapist I've got you covered. And if you need or want someone to tell you that no one has the right to discourage you from trying to understand, accommodate or celebrate yourself I will be the first one to do it. Whatever you decide to do I still will respect you and think you're cool as shit. And like I said, I'm not going to bring this up again I hope things get a little easier for you

I didn't want to volunteer YOUR car though lol But no she's got a great trunk and a massive backseat. The perfect mom van XD

It is a bit bible belt, but there's some people who are nice still. A bit few and far between but im finding where they hide (apparently its the skatepark lol)

Is it anything like the laundry soap commercial that rob zombie shot? Lol

Oh we 100% can set something like this up. Even just a lil forum post and a Google form would be manageable for me. My current car is ass but I can still kinda contribute

I had two local to Holland people show up to the goth event yesterday. Pretty sure I made friends, and they allready make semi regular trips to Detroit where all of the things and people are. So now I have a carpool group 🥳 So even if there are only 4 alternative party people in all of Holland it's someone to travel with

It is almost time to do the worst part of doing the laundry. The folding. 🫠

I hope the good out weighs the bad for you!

In an hour and a half I teach a sewing class. And I am so nervous no one is going to show XD 3 people are rsvp'd as "going" and I have a slew of "maybes" So we shall see! Worst case scenario I eat cookies in the park by myself XD

Caffeine makes my heart hurt lol I think I'm too high energy sans caffeine so with it my body just VIBRATES But 100% the worse a job is as far as work life balance the more people are going to me taking energy pills and drinking monster.

Anyone who works in manual labor has just nothing outside of work. I dated a construction worker for a brief period and I was working full time in a clothing store and part time supporting him basically, that crash at the end of a shift is brutal (and it happens all over again tomorow!) Insanity.

There's a book on this that @et-novumkeeps suggesting that I keep forgetting the name of! Haha but a lot of people are having this problem.

I just watched a train go by with all kinds of nice graffiti on it and it made me so so nostalgic for my hometown. It also made me wonder what the bridge tunnels murals look like now! Last time I went some new kids had painted over a memorial and I realized just how old I am now! A while new batch of teens who didn't even know the story had something new to say and that was more important than a wiggly figure that was supposed to represent someone who they had never met and would never know the name of. It's bittersweet to think that there could be like whole new stories there now.

XD becuase I went on a rant about Rusty Shipp pretending his audio slave cover wasn't a cover.

I think anyone with a clean house has more than one person maintaining it tbh. My roommates both work full time and I work part time and do a lot of the cleaning, (basement, hallways, bathroom living room and the perpetual void of the kitchen) and we still have someone come deep clean twice a month and the house is still rarely actually clean. At the very least the laundry is never kept up.

The only difference between this and the cool crochet spider web tops is the removable nature of the knot style. If you called it "macrame" it wouldn't be Kinky or really anything other than textile art. Super well done btw!

I made this linin corset cover for a 1910's event coming up, and I made it a little longer that one would typically be so that I can wear it as a sundress. Lace was in my stash, and the blue satin ribbon has been kicking around, and the yard of linin was a scrap my friend wasn't going to use I'm more than a liiiitle obsessed becuase its like a comfy goth potato sack!

I like painting the mini's, but the lore, the rule system and game politics all stress me out. But painting the lil guys and coming up with cute lil names is fun XD