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I don't know if a cure is the right thing. I love my brain. It's exciting to me to think in the nonlinear way that I do. I don't like how it affects my personal relationships. I don't like how society wasn't made for a brain like that. I don't like how I forget to do / can't do care tasks. I'm optimistic that seeking treatment will let me preserve the parts I like and mitigate the things I don't.

Also batteries themselves are bad for the environment. Lithium mining? Heavy industry required to manufacture them? Infrastructure to support the changeover? The current methods we use to generate electricity to charge them? It's a slippery slope, and yeah it's hard not to spiral thinking about it. Not to say "the Unabomber was correct," but I agree with him that the industrial revolution has had catastrophic effect. We haven't had the temperance or patience to do things in a balanced way. (I disagree with the Unabomber in that killing people is pretty fucking terrible).

Just like Libby?

I'm new here actually, I joined about two weeks ago. But if there in the archive, I could probably find them lmao

Great, I won't put up a fight and you can have it. I'l get to be ~somebody else~ But I'm going to keep my cat, thank you very much 😤

Oh that was the case, then? Thanks for digging, I'm not as connected to them as you are, though I'd like to be. Maybe there were co-organizers and she is the only one on Facebook.

Got a pit in my stomach and a hole in my brain but the feeling in the cards is optimistic.

Story time? What happened?

Oh God there's so many silly things I could say for this. They're hauling... ... my rancid personality ...my dirty socks ...the radiation that Andrew Eldritch is going to roll around in later ...my cat's stinky feet ...the 2024 republican presidential candidates ...uranium glassware for the local antique store ...taco bell aftermath ...actual uranium rods

It's my real birthday. I appreciate the kind thoughts, it's been a challenging week and there's still more of it to come. 😅

It's me, your niece 😁 They're popular these days. IMO better than a regular gym. I'm assuming she was not at the one in Holland?

I am not at liberty to either confirm nor deny such alleged accusations. I am not aware nor have I been aware of any current former or planned operation or operations to eliminate potential political opposition, nor have I been involved in any such alleged operation if it were to exist... which it doesn't. Hmm.... is this suspicious...? Nah, this checks out, not suspicious at all! 😁 I definitely feel like I won't be labeled a political dissident for the crime of not being a political dissident

Yeah this honestly made me a little suspicious but we were going to split one four ways. But also I'm not sure who was actually organizing it, which in hindsight should have made me more suspicious. 🤔 The person promoting it on Facebook where I saw it was not the organizer. I know this is a Detroit-centered forum but does anyone know the goth leaders in GR?

I'm there in a heartbeat. I haven't been camping in a while and I'm itching to go. But the end of August is pretty general - I was planning to go to a camping event hosted by another group on Aug 25th-27th. I'd love to go to both.

I'm at the climbing gym and it is crowded today. Not bad for a hot day, usually it's emptier when it's this hot out.

This is so specific I can't help but think it's happened before. Is there something you're not telling us, WL? 😳 Has Tron killed before?

Hi! We haven't met yet but I'm glad you came back.

Of diagnosed issues, I have none. I want to put that out there, Undiagnosed issues, I have ADHD. It's just too likely at this point. It's kinda been a major stickler in my life lately. Too much of my personal turmoils can be traced back to shame or guilt or just bad effects from how I cope or fail to cope with it. It used to not affect me as much but now that I'm an adult on my own without structure my life has kinda just... gotten messy? My brain is always racing, I can't sit still, I'm not noticing *really* obvious things, and my executive dysfunction is off the charts. It's to the point where I feel like I've become stupider than I ever have been and like my brain literally has a hole in it. I'm basing my experience from personal anecdotes compared to symptom lists and also to conversations with other people with ADHD. As far as I can tell, it's either the inattentive type or the combined inattentive-hyperactive type - my symptoms align more with not focusing or hyperfocusing first and foremost though I'm realizing the anxiety and restlessness are probably more in line with the hyperactivity. But I have an assessment scheduled to get to the bottom of this (side note, I think my current hyperfixation is getting help for ADHD so that's a fun and useful alignment). The ADHD is unhappily existing alongside (or causing?) anxiety and mild depression. Also there's some gender dysphoria but we don't need to get into that. I also had midline development problems as a kid. I also thought it might be DCD, but I talked with my mom who confirmed it wasn't that. Midline development problems are essentially where a child has trouble crossing over the left/right midline when doing tasks. When I would write, I would switch hands and I had some hand dominance issues. Thankfully I don't think I have any major lingering issues, I just have poor handwriting and a little bit of a lack of body awareness. I want to say that I've accepted my issues into my life - but I haven't. I really hate my symptoms and they're not me. I feel more like myself when I have coping mechanisms and I feel like i'm in control of my life. And this does happen, there are times when my dopamine and serotonin receptors are happy and I can live a fine life and I'm in the driver's seat. It's happened enough that I feel like I haven't needed to seek a diagnosis. But over the last year in general and the last month in particular it's gotten *really* bad.

We've gotta stop pulling this into unrelated threads. I appreciate the advice though, maybe there's a different thread that's more suited for this or we could move to DMs? I actually really appreciate your advice on this but we're derailing threads too often...

I know what you're going to say 😅 but I checked with my mom. This is not what I had, I had midline development problems (which might be related idk).

Oh you have hairless cats! They're so wrinkly, I love them.

Holy fuck. I have this. I never knew there was a name for it and I only ever knew it as the time I had motor control issues as a kid. Thank God I've resolved the bigger issues but I still have some small lingering things I think I can attribute to that. I should check if I got a formal diagnosis.

Got a pretty firm headache so I'm just resting and trying not to feel it. Trying to get my cat to hang out but it's a little hot and he's not having it.

Oh are they actually siblings or do you call them that because they're adopted? I'd believe they're siblings, I've seen littermates look very different

Aww. Sometimes I want to get a second cat so Ed can have someone to chase around but I don't want to take on the second responsibility at the moment. He seems pretty happy being a single cat though. Not every cat is. Ashton and Buddy seem like they have a friendly rivalry if they're playing like that