torn asunder

one comment - if it does have actual "black" mold (the toxic kind) it will likely be inside the walls as well. if you can, find a section of wall in an area that has the mold, and open it up to the studs, just to be sure. if it's back there, you'll likely have to tear out the walls & scrub the studs as well. of course, i'm no expert, but i looked at a place recently that actually had all of the walls, *and* ceilings, removed to expose all of the mold. better safe than sorry, ya know? anyway, congrats on the purchase!

i'm thinking, OMG, that sounds good! time to go to the store!

i'm thinking that allowing my logical side to rule my life will be my eventual undoing, however, i'm also thinking that logic is more comforting than the whimsical, transient, fickle nature of emotions...

i would like to say that, just because the average weight of people is going up, that doesn't mean that it changes what constitutes being fat. i mean, if the entire world go to the point of having 50% body fat, would that mean that someone with only 40% is not fat? i don't think so... there is a range for how much extra fat one can carry and still be healthy. just because "fat" is becoming normal, that doesn't make it "not fat", if you follow. (and i'm not trying to cast aspersions, as i fall into this "fat" category as well) that being said, i'm glad to see people's self-esteem growing enough to accept themselves as they are. my only concern is that as a society, we're coming to accept a standard that isn't physically healthy, and will (for most) shorten our lives considerably, and degrade our quality of life. i apologize if i've phrased this in such a way as to offend anyone - i'm just trying to share my opinion.

disagree - one can't fall in love with someone unless one allows oneself to do so. agree somewhat, although lust, too, seems a waste of time to me. short-term satisfaction which leads to more emptiness, because once the fun runs out/dries up, what is one left with? a big bag of empty... love no longer exists as it once did. today's society has made people fickle; they come and go as they please, they look for whatever's easiest, and if things become difficult, they bail. if you find another to walk life's path with, accept it for what it is, be grateful, but don't be surprised when those paths diverge again. it's the way of the "new" world... god, what a gloomy-gus!!

i feel like chuckling, because every time i see/hear the above, i think of the cheese shop sketch from monty python - also relieved that the day-long migraine i had thursday finally decided to go away. only the third time i've had one, but it laid me out for almost 8hrs...

this...

yeah - put speakers out the window and blast some barry manilow!!

it's down, then across...

quite serious!

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i'm thinking that you have no idea, whatsoever...

soon to be eating homemade chili...

lift, then run, then go out to eat, cuz i haven't been to the store in well over a month...

coffee & beta-alanine - i need to workout...

Your Defense Mechanism is Isolation When life gets to be too much to handle, you just withdraw. You rather not deal with things. You tend to be a very isolated person. You want to connect to others, but you don't know where to start. The problem with withdrawing from the world is that it's hard to reintegrate yourself when you're ready. Instead of pulling back when you have problems, it would be better for you to reach out. What's Your Defense Mechanism? no, really!?

disagree... and i feel like i'm learning to make peace with a recent decision, though it makes me very sad.

here's another one...

i'm thinking that, no matter how hard i've tried to be a good person, i've brought far more pain than pleasure to the people who have entered my life...

following your love would rfequire finding love in the first place. yeah, right...

unsuccessfully...

sad, confused as to what it is i do to make things the way they are & wondering how i am ever going to learn to change them... & wondering if it's even worth it to try.

HA! i totally forgot to post here! night started out a bit slow, i almost decided to go home early but i finally ran into stormknight. we hung out for a bit, and eventually he pointed out a few others. over the course of the night, i met/talked to spook, taysteewonderbunny, ice queen, prick, xillatoxic, mean salley, dark metallion, and saw rambo & saechlyn. (i think that was it!? did i miss anyone?) spent most of the night hanging out & talking with ice queen, as she mentioned. (btw, i had a great time "keeping an eye" on you! and, were you drunk? i had *no* idea!! ) overall, turned out to be one of the better nights i've had at cc - will have to come back out soon! hopefully, we can get more dgn'ers out next time!

still tired, but overall feeling a bit more positive.