torn asunder

i hate you...

i'm thinking that they're always too far away...

wiped out...

best of luck to you...

like i'm in no mood to lift tonight, but i'm going to force myself to anyway...

for god's sake, whatever you do, *don't* give anyone a piece of gum - the whole restaurant infrastructure will collapse!!

you see, i can't stand this kind of attitude - this is the kind of negativity that becomes self-fulfilling, and just spirals down out of control into depression. so why is it, then, that it makes so much sense? and if it makes so much sense, how does one get away from that kind of thinking? life is frustrating...

too depressed to work out - this past weekend sucked...

i'm currently feeling utterly defeated. that is subject to change without notice...

not short enough - and so one spends the next 40 years "enjoying life" and never finds someone, and one day they're lying on their death bed with absolutely noone around them... doesn't that seem a little hollow to anyone? so for example, i'm sitting there doing something, enjoying it, and then i turn and say, "hey, cat, isn't this cool!? what's that? 'meow'!? I don't get it, what are you saying... 'meow'? no, that's not what i... oh, nevermind." seriously, what's the point of enjoying life if it's not to be shared with another? what's the point of doing anything if the only thing you have to share the experience with is a wall? i don't get it. i really don't.

true, but after a point, one's own company is no longer enough and life becomes a hollow shell, bereft of joy and happiness. times like those are when just avoiding being alone seems a welcome distraction.

i don't know whether to feel happy & uplifted by this, or disappointed and discouraged...

i was down 2# today, from my recent avg. but then again, i can vary that much from morning to night, so i'm not too excited... all of my lifts have gone up, though, so that's a positive!

di - tto...

i'm a bit worried? (concerned) that my neck issue hasn't cleared up yet, and it's been a few weeks...

hope you're having a great day!

i'll be doing this pretty soon - 2-4 cups a day now, plus the occasional energy drink or two. i need to get rid of this caffeine need...

watching batman begins, and lamenting the fact that my neck/back still isn't improving, even after yet another chiro. visit... no lifting for me tonight... *pout*

yep, still got a few... nope, still not sayin...

*raises hand*

weight staying the same, but i even got a positive comment from the guy i buy my supplements from (he's literally built like the incredible hulk/lou ferigno!) i mentioned that i was feeling pretty good about my lifting, but that my diet really needed some work/sucked. he said, "yeah, i can see that your diet sucks, but it looks like you're putting on some (upper body) mass!" it was really cool to find that a serious/seriously big lifter like him noticed the (what i consider) little growth i've been experiencing! i'm going to lift in about a half hour, and then a friend is coming over around 4p & we're gonna "train" together for the 5k race we plan on running in june. she's never run hills before, and the only routes i have, have hills, so we'll see how it goes! anyone else!? how goes the glorious rebellion?

sorry it's late, but hope you had a good day!