torn asunder

nah, why bother with clothes!?

i can think of several things that beat that, but i won't go there!

i have two words for our weather right now... FUCK MICHIGAN!!!!

kinda wish i had friends like that...

grey - they match my world...

solitude - i haven't seen anyone i actually know, friend-wise, in a week, but it really is seeming like more 'cuz it felt like 3 days, on the first day; the 2nd day, felt like 2 days; the 3rd day felt like a week; the 4th day only felt like a day, cuz i worked on my truck; the fifth day felt like 2 days going into a third day so that on the sixth day, it felt like 4 days... (sorry - i got lost on a tangent while writing - bonus points to anyone who gets where that is stolen from!) anyway, i'm feeling really secluded and alone and i'm missing friendly human contact. i'm really starting to feel like i'm actually the only person on earth, and everything i'm seeing online is something that's being fabricated by my mind, or maybe something like the matrix. i hate this feeling - i'm weirded out enough by it to want to go out, but we've had so much snow, i can't get out of my driveway. this sucks!

you know, since nobody bothered to list the actual names of what they've posted, and since i don't have time to watch every single one of these, i'm just going to post this anyway... dead man's party, by oingo boingo!!!

company, of a specific and particular nature. (get your minds out of the gutter!)

THIS is the Monkey King!!

steppin over to the weight rack to get my workout in...

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happy i got to spend some time with a friend i haven't really talked with in a while... bored outta my skull, cuz i still don't have a tv... torn between deciding to stay in again tonight, or go out for a bit... and i'm really fucking irritated/irritable for no apparent reason!?

back scra-TCHA!! BACK scratcha!!

conflicted, because part of me feels really antisocial, yet another part is lonely & wants to be able to hang out with people...

tried that too many times - there's no point anymore. i give...

it's almost a relief to finally give up completely - sad, but a relief...

so tired of trying to be someone i'm not, and tired of thinking i'll be letting people down if i don't keep trying. but i don't want to try anymore...

really awake, kinda hyper, but pissed off at my cycle - i put a new battery in it a couple months ago, and it's completely dead. i mean, completely, as in, turn the key, and not even the neutral light comes on. i'm not even sure it's taking a charge yet. and i was gonna ride tonight... *frown*

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sometimes, you have no say in the choice... at least, it seems that way, at times...

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i've been home alone all day, and now (although i know there isn't a chance in hell) i'm gonna drive around & see if anything's open, so i can say i had a thanksgiving dinner, even if it's chinese food. then i'm coming back home to either read or watch a movie i've seen several times... aren't you all jealous!?!?