torn asunder

you think global warming is threatening the earth now, trying fucking with the tides like that! talk about destroying ourselves...

cold, still isolated... maybe i'll go out for breakfast (lunch now!?)

in soviet russia, asteriod knocks *YOU* of your path!

required? nah... my house was 55deg. this morning, didn't stop me...

depends on the ass, honestly.

well now, we can't have that, can we!?

my new year's resolution is to not make any new year's resolutions!! wait... damnit!!

mini-article... fitting that such a special occasion will likely be a solitary one for me.

trying to convince myself that i'm not really the only person in the world right now, and that this all isn't just some elaborate computer program or hoax of some sort...

last night, i had no less than 20 "matrix" glitches happen after i got home from work. literally, youtube videos, tv, even when i looked around the house, everything would reset/flip back maybe a half- to one second only. it really made me start to question reality. tonight, it's just the isolation. the only interaction i had after work was online, and that (after the "glitches" last night) only seems to be 'computer-generated' and not real. hell, it even feels like this is a rerun of something i wrote/did before. i need something unique to happen tonight... !?

i'm glad someone said it before i did...

i used to have "mirror conspiracy" several years ago - loaned it to someone, never got it back. thanks for reminding me, i need to pick it up again, i really dug it!

heh, i'm thinking that it's weird that i'm at work right now, working for a company that fired me two weeks ago!?

not necessarily true - one can recognize/acknowledge a period of time wherein bad things happened, without pre-judging the time to come. if you really knew zen, you'd know that attachment to outcome is one of the main problems people face. expectation creates disappointment - accepting that which happens without prejudgement is one of the big concepts of zen, if i'm recalling correctly. (for those interested, here are the five moral precepts and philosophical tenets of zen buddhism...) for me, i've had many "really bad" years, and while i'm sure i've had some really good ones, they're so far back in the past that i can't remember them. this year, i lost the longest "relationship" i've ever had (outside of family) when my little buddy, my cat max, died, and i lost my job this year, and still overall, this has been an "ok" year. i suppose any year i can say "meh, i've had worse", can't really be that bad, right? the new year is a blank slate, waiting for us to make of it what we will. choose your path, then follow it.

wanna know one of the big reasons this shit is happening? evolution, due to overuse of disinfectants and hand sanitizers. when a sanitizer says it "kills 99.9% of bacteria" what do you think happens with that other 0.01%? it multiplies and voila! new, resistant, extra-strength bacteria, sucker! i refuse to use any of them, and only use disinfectants when absolutely necessary. i figure, the more often i'm exposed to germs, the more likely i am to develop antibodies/what-have-you to make me stronger and fight them off. we're creating our own demise, imo...

who is shade everdark? is he even still a member here!? happy b-day, bud!

trying to get tired enough to go to bed, as i have to work tomorrow at the same fucking place that fired me two weeks ago. i'm just too nice of a guy - they're really in a major bind, and i can't bring myself to tell them to fuck off. i may need them eventually for references. after these two (three day) jobs for them, though, i'm tripling my pay rate. if they want my help after that, they're gonna have to pay for it!

happy b-day, bud! so, how many times is it you've turned 40 now!? :

not sure if you meant it this way, but this came across as a bit smart-assed, and i'm not really in the mood for that. i want to make a monthly repeating donation, but there's no way i'm mailing cash or a check every month. i wanted to have it directly taken out of my account, but i'm not about to jump through hoops to do it, so i'll wait until it actually works.

i'm feeling a bit... um...let down? - i never expect much from holidays, even wishing to avoid them, but after spending so much time around people, being home alone is a bit of a bummer. at least i can go back to work tomorrow for a couple days.

You Are Blue You believe the key to living a good life is simple. Be as honest with yourself and others as possible. You value the truth over everything else. You will remain loyal to those who are honest with you, even if their honesty hurts. Compared to most people, you handle the truth well. You take every event in stride. You are the calm spot in a sea of chaos. You think the solution to most problems is open communication. You wish that people would be more real with each other. What Color of the Rainbow Are You? The First Rule of Blogthings Is: You Don't Talk About Blogthings

yeah, but isn't that fun!?

troy, to be honest, i'm sick of trying to donate and getting rerouted back to the original page. i wanted to donate a different amount than the standard options offered, but i can't. i've tried, maybe 15 times - unless/until i can either figure it out or it gets fixed, i can't/won't be donating. makes me sad, but i'm tired of fucking around with it.

cooking lunch after a 2.7 mile run... trying to avoid calling the fam back.

heh...