torn asunder

i'm classified as obese as well, and truly, it's nobody's business, as long as the individual is happy as they are. thing is, most of the people banging the "big is beautiful" gong that i've interacted with, i've found have decided that accepting being unhealthily fat is easier than doing something about it. as for the "don't have time to worry" about being healthy? you either take the time now, or you likely die years (or even decades) early. just because you can't afford healthy food doesn't mean you can't slim down a bit. eat less of the junk, move more, etc. going to mcdonald's? just get a small hamburger, small fry... you know? there are so many little steps. well, not my place to say either way, just trying to express my opinions. i'll shut up now...

it's true that there are a lot of different "builds" and that we should embrace all of them, but what's also true is that, no matter your frame, once you get to the point of having more than 30% (or so) of your body weight in fat, you're unhealthy, (or 'less healthy', if you prefer). and i'm sorry, but if you get to 40-50% BW in fat? there should be no accepting of that as a "status quo". i do agree with accepting yourself as you are in the current moment, but that shouldn't preclude you from taking steps to better your health. once you get down to 25-28% BF, then i'm all for people accepting themselves as they're built, and embracing it. apologies if i offend anyone.

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this thread honestly irritates me a bit - if you don't label/classify music to some extent how do you ever discuss it? i mean, sonmeone asks you what style of music a band is and you say "i don't categorize musicians by label, so i can't/won't answer you"!? i mean, c'mon... you want to talk about a new band, you need something to offer by way of comparison so that people will know in which direction the music lies. genres, subgenres, are necessary, otherwise you end up with this... "so i heard this great band last night!" "yeah? what do they sound like?" "ever heard 'chilled monkey's brians'?" "nope..." "how about 'the ugly dionysus'?" "nope..." "how about 'your mother's combat boots'?" "nope..." "how about 'over the enders' maw'?" "nope..." "how about 'primal estrangement'?" "nope..." "how about ..."

right, but kids don't want anything to do with pot...

hmm... that explains a lot.

ditto, except for the preferred age. it also depends on what kind of relationship one is looking for, as to how big a deal the age difference is...

thinking that going thru the motions is getting really fucking lame.

two words... "spray paint"!

damn, how many times have i thought this!?

i thought the same, on both counts...

isolated - i want to go out, but i don't want to drink, or be around a bunch of drunk people... what to do!?

i miss my buddy...

if i were to drive over to that side of the state, i might as well have dinner with my family. no, i think i'm supposed to be alone today. thanks anyway, guys...

very, very alone.

max passed on this morning about 9:30. condensed version: upper resp. infection, led to not eating/drinking, which led to other complications, and ultimately renal (kidney) failure. the vet was with him, but i didn't get to say goodbye. third holiday with a death on it now, only x-mas & i'll have the complete set. at least i'll now be able to bury his & his sister's ashes together. happy thanksgiving. bye max...

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... sorry - i was teh sad last night...

what am i doing right now? feeling sorry for ever being a part of anyone's life, as i just tend to bring misery and sadness to them. i'm fairly consistent that way...

to quote simon and garfunkle, "i am a rock... i am an island..." i cannot be broken, i will never give in. it's best that way, trust me.

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thanks gang - i stopped in to see him tonight, and he's not doing very well yet. hopefully by friday he'll be better. i'm trying to be positive, but it's hard. the house really seems empty. i need to go out for a bit...

sad