torn asunder

damn, how many times have i thought this!?

i thought the same, on both counts...

isolated - i want to go out, but i don't want to drink, or be around a bunch of drunk people... what to do!?

i miss my buddy...

if i were to drive over to that side of the state, i might as well have dinner with my family. no, i think i'm supposed to be alone today. thanks anyway, guys...

very, very alone.

max passed on this morning about 9:30. condensed version: upper resp. infection, led to not eating/drinking, which led to other complications, and ultimately renal (kidney) failure. the vet was with him, but i didn't get to say goodbye. third holiday with a death on it now, only x-mas & i'll have the complete set. at least i'll now be able to bury his & his sister's ashes together. happy thanksgiving. bye max...

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... sorry - i was teh sad last night...

what am i doing right now? feeling sorry for ever being a part of anyone's life, as i just tend to bring misery and sadness to them. i'm fairly consistent that way...

to quote simon and garfunkle, "i am a rock... i am an island..." i cannot be broken, i will never give in. it's best that way, trust me.

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thanks gang - i stopped in to see him tonight, and he's not doing very well yet. hopefully by friday he'll be better. i'm trying to be positive, but it's hard. the house really seems empty. i need to go out for a bit...

sad

sure, then we can ban the bible, because, you know, it has rape, and incest, and murder in it... wait! i know! nobody is allowed to speak in public again, on the off-chance that they might offend someone.

i'm a bit uncomfortable with this, as i don't usually like to ask for help with things, but if you'd care to, i could really use some good, healing thoughts for my buddy max. he's not doing so well, and if the treatments they're trying don't work, i'm likely going to have to put him down this friday. he's the last "person" i really have in the world right now, he's been with me over fourteen years, and i don't want to have to make this choice. i already had to put his sister down a few years ago, and that was too hard. like i said, this is making me really uncomfortable, but i don't have anyone else to ask. thanks.

yeah, but the ones who were open to admitting their crushes already have, and the ones who won't likely never will... *coughmecough*

well, that was a really quick change from positive to negative... nice job everyone!

in no way does that even remotely count... :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lcu7OCIqlqE

usually the idea, but rarely the result...:

uhh... i have no idea what you're talking about... this is who i really am!?

whew, my secret's safe!! wait...