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Okay, for real... I think I probably have a daddy fetish or something similiar, I need to feel protected or looked out for...I don't really think that is a fetish, I think it's normal considering I am very independent and have always been since I was a kid, I was forced to be the mother and take care of my siblings, I was forced to take care of my little cousins, all before I was old enough to even think about sex. Not to analyze or justify my fetishs or my perversions but fuck it, that's what I do, I over analyze, so sue me. Anyway, when you go your entire life as the one in charge, the mom, the dad, the eldest as well, everyone has always looked up to you and depended on you for everything....but you yourself lacked anyone to depend on as there was noone there, well guess what, you have to find that in which you lack somewhere, it's like the reason you crave chocolate, because you lack magnesium, or a better example...back in the day, a woman, the story I heard goes somehow like Bathory had a servant who had gotten cut and the blood had dripped onto Bathory's finger, well, she looked at her finger and out of curiousity she tasted the blood of her servant..and liked it. It is said that after incident she began killing men, like over 100 I think they said, by I think poisoning them after she accepted a date with them as she was beautiful and single, so she would have a dinner date set up, poison their food with I believe either cyinide or arsenic I can't remember which one, and than drink their blood, she even would take literal blood baths in the blood. Well, the food supply back in the day was low in iron, low iron causes anemia, iron supplements did not exist back in the day and woman and anemia is very common, especially of childbearing age and back in those days, so drinking blood "vampirism" would make sense that it would feed the need for what Vera or anyone low in iron intake and immediately give them what they need for their body. Well that's kinda what happens I think with fetishes. That need is still there, it has to be fulfilled and for me, some people have physical lackings like the need for blood, others have emotional lackings, the need to be controlled, Mine rears its ugly little head in my relationships/sexual life...(but I like it that way, I can take care of myself financially, and any other way,, I don't need anyone to depend on for anything other than the ability to feel controlled, at times, and it's fun. So, what theories can you discuss, things you have heard, ties you can make, connections to our inner workings...facing your stuff is the first step to integrating yourself back to reality.