Being apart from my b/f

[Nerdcore]

well as you all know I was looking for a place to stay . I found a place. A room to rent out in hamtramck. I moved in on the 7th .

well now I am away from marco.

see ever sinced I moved in with him 2 yrs hes helped me so much he has been a sucurity blanket

and now i have been ripeed away from him and its tearing me apart. Yea we can talk on the phone and internet but i physicly miss him ever night. I dont like being alone. I was so content where I was living ( never really being on my own) now I am , and I miss him ever night , I cry and get upset and even when i get to see him i dont wanna let go. Im trying really harrd to be strong and all after we have to say good bye and I have to go home to my own place, but I cry Ive even have become sad., angry and furious at this . Is this bad to be atticted to someone and cannot let go . I have been ripped out of the house durring a time when I cannot handle being alone and need him the most.. though Ive always needed him , I dont know how else to say this. its like a cigerette u wanna try to stop but cant , I know we are still together we are still bf and gf but we are apart and I cannot handle it . its like an obsesion..... am I crazy .. weak .. or losing it? how does he feel. He understands but he tells me i need to be on my own , and I know that and now i am. I just miss his smell presents and not being able to sleep with him at night in bed..

and im still on probation and he wants to go to vegas to get a better job

ill tottally lose it then ......

I have never loved someone like marco , what do I do here? how do I handle this ??

[Onyx]

It really is hard. I only see my boyfriend on weekends and I find it very difficult too, but that's the way it has to be for now. I don't really know of anything to make it easier, but just know that you aren't the only one in this sort of situation.

(((hugs)))

[fallennon]

Just be thankful that you have someone...even if you don't get to see him as often as you like.