A-sexual Humans

[Medea]

I have considered the help part. I think I just need time to collect my thoughts and stuff before I make any moves. I have been working alot of hours lately, and in doing so I have lost some "me" time.

I am not exactly sure why I want to go back ... other than I just feel it calling me... hard to explain. I have nothing against going back to Astan or Iraq... it's just the part about leaving here again and putting my family under the stress. I have alot of friends that are still in, and a few that are still over there. I almost feel a bit of guilt for them being there and I am safe at home... I don't mean to have a pity party for myself... thats not my aim... I just feel as though I am letting them down not being there.

I can understand about worrying about friends that are still in the service, but you shouldn't make decisions like that based on solely that. Do you really think that most of them wouldn't be happy to be at home and with family and friends? Enjoy yourself, and use some of that wonderful government provided health care to deal with whatever issues may be causing your lack of sleep and libido.

[Steven]

I have considered the help part. I think I just need time to collect my thoughts and stuff before I make any moves. I have been working alot of hours lately, and in doing so I have lost some "me" time.

I am not exactly sure why I want to go back ... other than I just feel it calling me... hard to explain. I have nothing against going back to Astan or Iraq... it's just the part about leaving here again and putting my family under the stress. I have alot of friends that are still in, and a few that are still over there. I almost feel a bit of guilt for them being there and I am safe at home... I don't mean to have a pity party for myself... thats not my aim... I just feel as though I am letting them down not being there.

Although your tour was different from mine, I understand the soldier to soldier loyalty you speak of. your family is out there, and your back here.

the sad reality though is that the machine itself will always be bigger than you, there will always be someone left over there for whom you have an affinity for. there is also the chance that they look back at you as a hopeful reminder of the way home, you made it back, therefore you are a beacon of sorts - its important.

honestly Bro, I would not wait on getting help.

you wouldent do that if you had cancer.

you need to value your life where it is right now - you need to reinvest back into it to bring some balance to it. Sometimes we need a little "help" collecting our thoughts....that too, I can relate to.

I hope you think about it a little more.

[Homicidalheathen]

Hell, don't feel guilty. If everyone did their part and served 4 yrs we would not need to worry.

I really respect soldiers, just hate this war. You did your time and now its ok to move on and be safe and comfortable.

I have considered the help part. I think I just need time to collect my thoughts and stuff before I make any moves. I have been working alot of hours lately, and in doing so I have lost some "me" time.

I am not exactly sure why I want to go back ... other than I just feel it calling me... hard to explain. I have nothing against going back to Astan or Iraq... it's just the part about leaving here again and putting my family under the stress. I have alot of friends that are still in, and a few that are still over there. I almost feel a bit of guilt for them being there and I am safe at home... I don't mean to have a pity party for myself... thats not my aim... I just feel as though I am letting them down not being there.

[pomba gira]

honestly Bro, I would not wait on getting help.

you wouldent do that if you had cancer.

you need to value your life where it is right now - you need to reinvest back into it to bring some balance to it. Sometimes we need a little "help" collecting our thoughts....that too, I can relate to.

I hope you think about it a little more.

I agree... the additional info you've given since my first post changes my opinion of your situation... Rayne is right, sounds like clinical depression to me too. Get help, this is not something that is just going to go away or that you can just tough your way through... there is help available to you so take advantage of it.