My Fucked Up Night

[crunchy_pickle (5)]

Inhale

Exhale

Stop

Breathe!

Just breathe!

Gurgle.

Eyes rolling back.

Kevin

Save me.

I just want to see my kids one more time.

Keep Breathing!

Exhale.

Exhale.

Exhale.

Breathe!

Eyes flash.

Inhale.

Exhale.

Stop.

Don't you do this!

Hang on there.

Check the airway.

Exhale again.

Exhale again.

Exhale again.

She closes her eyes.

Exhale again.

Exhale again.

Exhale again.

She inhales.

Ihale

Exhale

Getting closer.

Knowing someone's precious life is in your hands.

Is terrifying.

But when you save her.

It makes it all worth it.

[know_buddy_kares]

woah.. now that's some intense shit, mega kudos

[crunchy_pickle (5)]

oops double post....

[crunchy_pickle (5)]

This is the 2nd time I've been responsible for someone's life since my Father passed holding my hand. While there was obviously nothing I could do to save him (stage 4 cancer he as only holding on so he could see me one last time knowing I was on my way), being that close to death so many times is a bit terrifying.

Life is fragile sometimes. When I was a child, I saw a bird that had been attacked by my cat. I chased him off, but the bird was barely alive. I was so young though at the time though. I poked him with a stick with nothing but curiosity on my mind. I watched as life fled from him. I cried, thinking that I'd killed him, but looking back on it, he was a goner. Sometimes, I blame myself for my Father's death. I know it's ridiculous, but perhaps if I had not said we'd look out for mom and that we loved him very much, he would've kept fighting. I know that nothing could save him though. I know this, yet I still feel responsible like my love for him killed him in comfort.

Though, no drugs turned up in her bloodstream, I think someone dosed her at the bar. If I was not there, she would not be here. It was only by random chance that I even ended up there, since we have only run into each other twice since high school, and these encounters were both at the bar. I don't care what anyone thinks, but in the few opportunities I've had in life to save another, I felt something very spiritual at work. I would never cheat on my girlfriend, so me being at her house, because she wanted me to be there was very random....

Also of note, she didn't appear to have anything wrong with her, nor did she even appear drunk at the bar or at her home.... She didn't have much alcohol in her bloodstream, but she did black out . This is why I also think she may have been dosed aside from her physical reaction later on.

[Homicidalheathen]

Though, no drugs turned up in her bloodstream, I think someone dosed her at the bar

I have been drugged 6x. I AM going to invent the first adult sippy cup....beer mug size.....no room to slip shit in it.

With cool designs on it.....

I dont doubt this happened......I have been drugged so bad I lost all bodily functions......at CC, Mephistos and Necto.....and yes, I did stupid shit like except a drink from a stranger......leave my drink alone......

But your right its good to have a guy like you around in case some shit happens.

Your tops Crunchy.

I know once I was drugged at a party last year.......Everyone here knows I can handle more than 2 beers right? Not that night.....

And I have had this happen with 2 shots and I can usually handle 4 so there is no question. This world is getting so fucked up I just want to stay home.

[crunchy_pickle (5)]

Though, no drugs turned up in her bloodstream, I think someone dosed her at the bar

I have been drugged 6x. I AM going to invent the first adult sippy cup....beer mug size.....no room to slip shit in it.

With cool designs on it.....

I dont doubt this happened......I have been drugged so bad I lost all bodily functions......at CC, Mephistos and Necto.....and yes, I did stupid shit like except a drink from a stranger......leave my drink alone......

But your right its good to have a guy like you around in case some shit happens.

Your tops Crunchy.

I know once I was drugged at a party last year.......Everyone here knows I can handle more than 2 beers right? Not that night.....

And I have had this happen with 2 shots and I can usually handle 4 so there is no question. This world is getting so fucked up I just want to stay home.

I kinda miss living above the club for this reason alone. It's kinda bizarre, but I've made friends out of strangers that I'm friends with to this day for this reason alone. One such friend may be driving down from Lansing to see me at the club this weekend. She's a good friend. I've held her when she needed to be held, washed her clothes, cleaned her puke, babysat her at the club, etc. Ironically, a similar incident got me kicked out. It was the last time I had to do CPR, except in her case it was heroin overdose from shit she did in the car before she came up with some friends.