Sadness.....

[WishesSheWasDead]

Well as of recently, i haven't been me.....I have been more depressed now more then ever......and i seem to have to put a front on for people, so they don't get upset or anything else......I mean i am really only happy when i am with my boyfriend....But sometimes it is just like no one "gets" me........And i know that i will finally find someone who does, other then the best friend who isn't anymore........But whatever we won't go there.........

[Msterbeau]

Well as of recently, i haven't been me.....I have been more depressed now more then ever......and i seem to have to put a front on for people, so they don't get upset or anything else......I mean i am really only happy when i am with my boyfriend....But sometimes it is just like no one "gets" me........And i know that i will finally find someone who does, other then the best friend who isn't anymore........But whatever we won't go there.........

Not to lecture or anything... But there's a difference between depression and not being true to yourself. Depression is quite possibly a chemical thing.. and treating it may involve meds... or ir could be all in your head, caused by a lifetime of unhealthy stuff... much of which you can't or couldn't control.

Being true means you live life to you inner voice , not the outside worlds. There are times when keeping certain info from others is prudent, but in general, it makes sense to live life openly and do the things that make you happy and that feel right for you. Listen for the inner voice that tells us what's OK and not OK...for us. I think as the blacksheep of the world...there will always be a lot less people out there who "get" us.... be patient and grow comfortable with yourself. Try to get to the root causes of what's bugging you and then figure out what it will take to make it well. It takes time... It's taken me a long time...and I still have work to do to get to a healthy place. I'd also get help if you think you'll benfit from it.. An experienced outside perspective can shed light on things in a way you may never have thought of. Find the right person for this. Not just anyone. I'd be happy to give you a name if you want one.

*More hugs*

[Morbid Side]

Hey I just stumbled across this topic and wanted to tell you that 'fitting with the in crowd' is stupid and will bring you let downs, if you allow ppl too. As to your frame of mind at CC. Well, I understand babe I mean hell I've been going for nearly a year and as the famous Rodney Dangerfield so fluently said “I don’t get no respect." Everytime I go now it's definately not to pick up any girls, or look for one night stands or try to be cooler than anyone else. But to meet different ppl apart from what I see in my everyday life. Thats what makes it so great, theres so many different ppl there. All walks of life. It's like one big melting pot inside. So yea..I'm not the best at this kind of stuff but sure what else to say other then do what your heart desires, and feel free to call me anytime, you have my number right? Don't call to late I'm usually stripping in the evenings... JK

Keep on rockin' the freeworld!

-Chas

[DisturbedMania]

Normally, I'd just go attempt to find ya at CC and turn you into a social freak, but I haven't been up there in a few weeks. Job switching issues and all. But, that feeling alone in a room of friends thing- I used to get that. I'd be in a room full of my sorority sisters and feel utterly alone or out with friends and feel alone. It boils down to not seeing the similarites between yourself and the people around you, so you feel like you can't relate to them and vice versa. That took a really long time for me to figure out. My original theories involved details like blank canvas and filler space, but it was a relatively early theory. If all else fails you can hang with me and Jeremy. I'll teach ya all that social stuff.

[Homicidalheathen]

Allot of times if your an attractive single female people are just to intimidated. I go up and say hi first allot now. Some people don't talk to me but it is their loss eh?

Sometimes i just feel so alone when i am on DGN.......I mean, i just seems like everyone else has some sort of close bond with people but i just don't fell like i am in on it, bc when i do go to CC, it kinda just seems like no one really likes to talk to me.......and that makes me sad, but i still keep on going........ :tear  :tear  :tear  :tear  :tear     

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[Homicidalheathen]

And me thinks not being true to yourself can lead to depression if the situation goes on long enough.

I always feel alone. I am a scorp though. I have been at city with a group of freinds and WISHED I was alone at times....then other times I don't want to be alone. I do have a tendancy to wander off by myself when hanging with people and they totally take it the wrong way.

Not to lecture or anything...  But there's a difference between depression and not being true to yourself.  Depression is quite possibly a chemical thing..  and treating it may involve meds... or ir could be all in your head, caused by a lifetime of unhealthy stuff... much of which you can't or couldn't control. 

Being true means you live life to you inner voice , not the outside worlds.  There are times when keeping certain info from others is prudent, but in general, it makes sense to live life openly and do the things that make you happy and that feel right for you.  Listen for the inner voice that tells us what's OK and not OK...for us.  I think as the blacksheep of the world...there will always be a lot less people out there who "get" us.... be patient and grow comfortable with yourself.  Try to get to the root causes of what's bugging you and then figure out what it will take to make it well.  It takes time...  It's taken me a long time...and I still have work to do to get to a healthy place.    I'd also get help if you think you'll benfit from it..  An  experienced outside perspective can shed light on things in a way you may never have thought of.  Find the right person for this.  Not just anyone.  I'd be happy to give you a name if you want one.

*More hugs*

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