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Feeling extremely confused...as much of a recluse as I am, I feel I may be too social for DGN.

I am not sure how this is supposed to work, but with every attempt I have made to hang with members here, there are forces that mark the contrary...

I either leave a place too soon or DGN members seem afraid to approach members on a dance floor or timing and money always seem to be an issue.

I figured that offering to buy someone a drink would make them more open to seeking me out...boy was that ever a miss.

I don't have outside friends...

I don't drink...

I don't smoke...

I don't do drugs...

I don't have a relationship...

Standing on the outside looking in, my life pretty much sucks.

I always thought it would be cool to find and hang out with like minded individuals...I guess I didn't think that through.

If I'm a recluse anti-social outcast looking for a recluse anti-social outcast the outcome would dictate that neither the two shall meet. Likewise, given a social outcast seeking an anti-social outcast yields the same results.

sou to itte mo, dou sureba ii deshou ka...

Wow, you've actually tried meeting other people in person on multiple occasions??? Yes, you are wayyyyyyyyyyyy too social for the gothic subculture. You mine as well give away all your black clothes, start wearing pink, and put Katie Perry's entire setlist on your Mp3 Player.

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I feel I have a dry throat from karaoke online all night. I feel the urge to drink water.

What site do you Karaoke...I need to go there.

My favorite Karaoke spot "Jina Box Karaoke" finally closed its doors so now I'm limited.

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Wow, you've actually tried meeting other people in person on multiple occasions??? Yes, you are wayyyyyyyyyyyy too social for the gothic subculture. You mine as well give away all your black clothes, start wearing pink, and put Katie Perry's entire setlist on your Mp3 Player.

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Don't get me wrong, the people I meet at the clubs are very social...my message was about meeting and hanging with members of DGN.

I have gotten so use to conversing and reading about them in the forums, it was just nice to finally put true faces to some of the names.

Also, with respect to your comments:

It's a good thing I don't wear all black else I'd be naked...

I only wear pink as a last resort...

What's wrong with listening to Katy Perry...

And I broke my MP3 player...

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Feeling kind of silly for not doing my usual Saturday hang out just because of some drunken idiots at CC last weekend.

I think it's going to take a bit for me to get over that weirdness...

This is only the second weekend I have not been there since I started going in August...oh well...

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I feel that sometimes the cat groans when she sleeps like she's having bad dreams, indigestion, or bad dreams about indigestion.. so knowing that I have given her bits of potato chips in the distant past, I pet her until she generally stops making demon noises, which should be reserved for my black mini-fridge.

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In no particular order:

Unattractive

Ugly

Disgusting

Alone

Unwanted

Sad

hateful

depressed

Your a successful, beautiful strong woman and guys can't handle it. Fuck em, if they don't love you for you, holistically they were never worth it anyway..I love u, lets go dance Saturday.

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Feeling extremely confused...as much of a recluse as I am, I feel I may be too social for DGN.

I am not sure how this is supposed to work, but with every attempt I have made to hang with members here, there are forces that mark the contrary...

I either leave a place too soon or DGN members seem afraid to approach members on a dance floor or timing and money always seem to be an issue.

I figured that offering to buy someone a drink would make them more open to seeking me out...boy was that ever a miss.

I don't have outside friends...

I don't drink...

I don't smoke...

I don't do drugs...

I don't have a relationship...

Standing on the outside looking in, my life pretty much sucks.

I always thought it would be cool to find and hang out with like minded individuals...I guess I didn't think that through.

If I'm a recluse anti-social outcast looking for a recluse anti-social outcast the outcome would dictate that neither the two shall meet. Likewise, given a social outcast seeking an anti-social outcast yields the same results.

sou to itte mo, dou sureba ii deshou ka...

I know what you mean. I've been off and on here for a couple years now and the only person I know enough to consider a friend is Troy. I've met most of the city club crowd and can pick a few of them out (though not all) so I'd be happy to point them out. I doubt if most of them remember who I am though. I usually don't leave much of an impression unless I talk to someone one on one for a while. If your there tonight I'll be dressed as waldo (I was lazy), feel free to say something.

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I know what you mean. I've been off and on here for a couple years now and the only person I know enough to consider a friend is Troy. I've met most of the city club crowd and can pick a few of them out (though not all) so I'd be happy to point them out. I doubt if most of them remember who I am though. I usually don't leave much of an impression unless I talk to someone one on one for a while. If your there tonight I'll be dressed as waldo (I was lazy), feel free to say something.

shaun, i think i'd be able to pick you out, because i remember the hat picture you posted a while back in the "fave pic of yourself" thread. tronrp, i could probably pick you out too, based on your descriptions & pic.

city is a great place to be introduced to people, but if you want to get to know any of them, it's best to be a part of a group meet up elsewhere so conversation can be had. unfortunately, i'm a couple hrs away so i rarely get to CC, nor do i get to any of the few meetups i've heard about.

keep at it though - the more regularly people see you, the more open they tend to be.

"patience, daniel-san!"

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