How Are You Feeling?

[kat (1)]

  On 10/10/2016 at 6:06 AM, zurgous said:

Please don't! Your kids need you! You are an amazing person and you're loved. You told me I was ruinning your life and I was afraid you were right. I love you and I hate seeing you suffer.

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I would just end up fucking that up too.

[Troy Spiral (13)]

  On 10/10/2016 at 1:28 AM, kat said:

I feel like fucking hanging myself. 

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  On 10/10/2016 at 6:06 AM, zurgous said:

Please don't! Your kids need you! You are an amazing person and you're loved. 

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What Zurg said.

 

Also *huuugs*   been there some ludicrous amount of times.  

[Troy Spiral (13)]

  On 10/9/2016 at 2:45 AM, TronRP said:

Still wrestling with that feeling of being taken for granted and that I am some sort of caffeine superhero that needs no sleep or something. 

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Horrible feeling.  Can just "suck it up" sometimes, but not ALL the time.  Very isolating.  :(   *hugs*

[Troy Spiral (13)]

  On 10/3/2016 at 10:46 PM, Draco1958 said:

Feel like my head wants to explode.  Stupid cold.  Have a nasty sinus headache, body feels like I was hit by a truck.  And no, I can't just cough, I hack until I almost pass out because I can't inhale and coughing fit lasts long enough to make me gasp for air when it stops.

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Was right there a week ago.  Doctor actually gave me a prescription for an inhailer, could never get a full breath.  (never got it cuz the insurance still had a 50 dollar co-pay and I knew I'd only be using it for like a few days) It suuuuucks.  

[Draco1958]

  On 10/11/2016 at 12:44 AM, Troy Spiral said:

Was right there a week ago.  Doctor actually gave me a prescription for an inhailer, could never get a full breath.  (never got it cuz the insurance still had a 50 dollar co-pay and I knew I'd only be using it for like a few days) It suuuuucks.  

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My insurance covers it fully.   I just need to get set up with a primary care doctor which I haven't done yet.  Haven't felt bad enough to justify going to an urgent care facility.  Otherwise I could get a script for one.  Luckily for me, 2 of my roommates get the same inhaler that I use so when they get a refill they don't need, they give it to me.  What really sucks is that I don't have much of a cough issue until I lay down.  Then it's a coughing frenzy for 30 mins to an hour.  Then a fight to get my breathing controlled so I can relax enough to fall asleep.  Because of having chronic bronchitis, any cold moves into my lungs and can last for 3 or more months.

[kat (1)]

  On 10/11/2016 at 12:41 AM, Troy Spiral said:

 

What Zurg said.

 

Also *huuugs*   been there some ludicrous amount of times.  

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I am sorry.  My emotions are dysregulated...maybe Nate Dogg and Warren G can come and 

 

Edited October 12, 2016 by kat

[TronRP]

Feels like I'm spiraling down a slide of mental exhaustion and yet, not...

[TronRP]

Feels like I'm back to burning the candle at both ends again.

[phee]

I feel that every day, it gets a little further away from possible.

[kat (1)]

I feel like I should be reading not watching Deadpool but I am not.

[Draco1958]

  On 10/14/2016 at 1:06 AM, kat said:

I feel like I should be reading not watching Deadpool but I am not.

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Deadpool is a good movie.  Nothing wrong with watching a movie to clear the mind to take a break from reading.

[kat (1)]

My body hurts from undoing my laziness and getting off my ass and exercising and stopping tramadol and even muscle relaxers, my legs look awesome! All them meds made me fat and lazy but I've lost about  40 lbs so far. Yay me.

Edited October 14, 2016 by kat

[TronRP]

After all this work, feels like I need a nap now, but I'm so hungry. Maybe I can sleep-eat. 

[kat (1)]

Emotionally weak. I don't have the strength anymore to handle shit. Where did it go? What happened to me? I'm trying to find a solution to this feeling asking even God, the universe,  I don't know how to be anymore. 

Edited October 14, 2016 by kat

[kat (1)]

I feel like if I could reach deep inside myself and find the source of this pain, I don't know where it hurts but I know if I could open my mouth and go scream it out, the scream would be so deafening  that it could silence hell.  I don't know why I hurt inside so terribly but I know that it feels like a buildup like having sex but not actually getting off, magnified over and over again. I don't know what it is where it is but its there and it's killing me not being able to let it go! How do I release something  I cannot even locate? 

Edited October 14, 2016 by kat

[kat (1)]

I feel like I need to be out enjoying the weather and also what do I get my daughter for her 20th bday on Tuesday?  I can't believe I been posting here since she was 13. 😱 

[TronRP]

Feels like it's going to be another sleepless night. I hope the little sickies can get some real sleep tonight. My niece is acting as little helper and assisting me with everyone's care. Thank goodness for small favors. 

[kat (1)]

"I'm a crepe....I'm a weirdo.......

What the hell am I doing here...."

[Draco1958]

  On 10/16/2016 at 7:04 AM, kat said:

"I'm a crepe....I'm a weirdo.......

What the hell am I doing here...."

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You're here because you found a place you fit in with like minded people.  Welcome to the darkside.  Whips to the left, chains to the right and straight down the hall is where the party begins.

[TronRP]

  On 10/16/2016 at 7:04 AM, kat said:

"I'm a crepe....I'm a weirdo.......

What the hell am I doing here...."

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 Nice substitution...parody n'est pas?

 

[phee]

I feel that there is a disparaging difference in the ratio pf good news vs bad news. 

[TronRP]

Feeling happy to finally be up. Been suffering from acid stomach and multiple waves of Charlie Horses all morning.

[sekhmet2002]

Tired

[phee]

Annoyed at myself for having anxiety over things I cannot change.

[kat (1)]

I have a lot of gratitude for the people I have encountered.  Everyone has value and will teach you lessons and deliver messages right when you need to get them if you look at things completely and openly without judgement.