How Are You Feeling?

[TronRP]

Feeling like I should be wearing a sign saying "Caution, Doofus Learning Slowly"

[kat (1)]

Like a demented, twisted, sick, little freak that needs to stay off of this damn board for good.

[TronRP]

Feels like meds are kicking in...

[TronRP]

Like a demented, twisted, sick, little freak that needs to stay off of this damn board for good.

Don't you know, that's what this site is for...without the "demented, twisted, sick, little freak" it's just "Dear Abby" for the socially introverted...

[TronRP]

It's kinda making me feel crazy that I need to take a break and it's still 54 degrees outside right now, but my body is spent. However, I did manage to get front and back steps in place before 3pm.

[Soulrev]

Excuse my derogatory language here..

I feel like I wanna slap a fuckin bitch.

But I won't .. Cuz I don't hit women

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OfAC77jWgzs

[TronRP]

AND...my case in point...

You never know what viewpoint someone is going to share on here...that's what keeps DGN interesting...

[Soulrev]

AND...my case in point...

You never know what viewpoint someone is going to share on here...that's what keeps DGN interesting...

[TronRP]

Feels like things are about to start moving very fast really quick...

[TronRP]

Feeling mentally capable, but physically stagnate...basically a walking...uh sitting...contradiction at the moment...

[TronRP]

Feeling physically crappy....I had been using dancing at CC as therapy, but since I have not had the chance to go in quite a while, my body is beginning to rebel...

[EagleRose]

Like I did when I had the mumps. My jaw hurts.

[kat (1)]

A bit more at ease as I pretty much know I am not getting let go since my six month anniversary at work is Tuesday, they did however terminate the woman I was hired in with. I believe they broke it to her this afternoon that they would be making a decision at the end of the day and she was called into the office by the Program Manager and she's been crying all day and she basically was tying up her loose ends today, I am not even going to text or call her to verify any of this but I was told on the low key that I should not worry about being let go and that I have passed my probationary period, however, not everyone has..she was the only one that was at her six month mark with me...she's gone..and I feel bad for her but that job is very difficult and she doesn't get it and, unfortunately, they hire specific people with specific skill sets where I work...you have to stand out in some way, although my paperwork (like everyone else's is behind, my program manager told me today, they are keeping me, that I am smart and good with the people, I know the job, and ton's of other really nice things...so that was helpful, especially after my supervisor, who has been there half the time I have just pulled me in his office last night and tore me to shreds, demanding that I tell him every single weakness that I have and all of my shortcomings and how I get distracted easily and that I am going to basically start doing everything his way as is the rest of his employee's, and he also said my program manager better feel he's a threat to her because even though he don't want her job YET......and he said, but I said yet...(eluding to the fact that he is a snake) As if he is the first person that came into the organization and had a beautiful plan as to how to make things better...I sensed a god complex from him..he fucking talked to me like I was a piece of shit, like put me through some kind of hell week as if we are in a damn fraternity or something, ripped me apart so hardcore that I threw up all night last night, burst into tears in front of him and fucking told him that my SHORTCOMINGS are because I have a problem with Attention Deficit Disorder...and that I am trying to do A, B, and C but due to the lack of the caseload I inherited and the fact that we do not have the resources to get our job done in a timely matter and that's why we work 50, 60 hours a week and barely put a dent in the paperwork in time because of those issues....and I tried to continue to defend myself but at that point I felt like I was being cornered, scrutinized, and like I was his wife or kid or something...he said Oh, well I didn't know about your ADD issue...you never told me...I said that I have told him and that I do things differently than most people, which made me cry again because I should not have had to get so upset that I had to self-disclose...he knows all people in this field have been diagnosed or dealt with something mental health related he said it before..his words to all his staff were "that's why we get in this field". Well, apparently after he beat the shit out of me for two hours verbally, he than went to his boss, my program manager, and said " I think I just went too far and took out all of my frustrations and stress with this job on Katherine and I feel bad for it"......well, I told my program manager that I felt that I understood and that I tend to take things personally at times, I said I think he felt he could let that stuff out on me because I am easy to talk to...and she agreed and I told her that it was okay that I was fine and I understand why he is frustrated...he inherited a mess, working at this place is a mess, and his team (the old schooler's won't even listen to anything he says, they are frankly, defiant toward him...I can empathize with that. I felt shitty after he went off on me and blew up about all this stuff and disregarded what I had to say and, there is a small part of me that want's to think he is genuine about being innapropriate but deep inside I know he is just covering his ass because he did go to far, he was innapropriate, and I could have done something about it but I really do empathize with him, he is a human being...he, I am sure has his own issues personally as well..however, he needs to take a step back and think about what he wants to be when he grows up because, even though he is a Master Level Social Worker, he is actually a salesman...he flat out said that he was and that that is how we should go about things that we should view social work like sales...that really bothered me, seeing as salespeople generally are self serving, only want to seal the deal, will pretty much tell you anything you want to hear to get what they want in the end...they are professional manipulators, spin doctors, sneaky, and in-genuine, overall. They love you until the deal is sealed and you are binded in some fucked up deal with them....than as soon as you leave the room, it's on to the next poor fool to fall for their spiel.

Edited December 7, 2013 by kat

[TronRP]

I feel robbed. I understand that to make it in some merchandising industries, the use of composite materials are a must to keep product cost low in order to maintain sales. Unfortunately, that does nothing for me as the consumer. I can destroy composite anything in no time flat...

[creatureofthenyte]

I feel very tired.

[kat (1)]

I feel that I am a weirdo...I wonder if anyone else occasionally has the song "Awake" by Godsmack stuck in their head first thing when they wake up....lol.

[TronRP]

Feeling a bit worried about this sudden nausea. I think I know what's causing it, but I'll wait it out a bit to see.

[kat (1)]

Feeling a bit worried about this sudden nausea. I think I know what's causing if, but I'll wait it out a bit to see.

um, hugs I hope you feel better...you need saltines.

[TronRP]

um, hugs I hope you feel better...you need saltines.

Well, actually, it's a split in my abdominal muscle wall that's healing and itching like crazy. I'm taking ibuprofen to keep infection to a minimum. I accidentally aggravated it 2 days ago...

[kat (1)]

Well, actually, it's a split in my abdominal muscle wall that's healing and itching like crazy. I'm taking ibuprofen to keep infection to a minimum. I accidentally aggravated it 2 days ago...

owwey! How the hellld that happen? Dude, are you for real...cause I was already thinking of baby names....just kidding. So, that sounds kinda serious..you sure you ok?

[TronRP]

owwey! How the hellld that happen? Dude, are you for real...cause I was already thinking of baby names....just kidding. So, that sounds kinda serious..you sure you ok?

So far so good. It happened in 2011. I had been sick and out of commission for about 2 weeks during the winter months. When I finally started feeling better, I sat up and stretched. It felt like a sudden cut under my skin. When I reached to feel what had happened, I felt a solid bubble. When I pushed it, it went in...that's when I realized what had happened. By the time I saw the doctor, it wasn't as bad because I had started restrengthening the muscle wall. The doctor said that was good so we've been monitoring it. The downside is if I overdo things without resting properly, I can feel it starting to try to re-tear followed by nausea. Otherwise, it's fine.

...baby names...lol

[EagleRose]

I really feel like slapping my niece. She did something horribly wrong then lied to my face even though I already knew the truth. She caused the side door to be kicked in and I nearly slipped in the snow covered ice coming in the back. I knew she was a brat but KAMISAMA, this was beyond belief.

[kat (1)]

regretting 34 years.

[TronRP]

Feels like my mind is soaking everything up like a sponge and I can't seem to get enough stuff into it...I've even started restudying materials from my university years...

[TronRP]

Feels like I fell off the face of the planet for the last 12 hours