How Are You Feeling?

[kat (1)]

What the hey!!!

That was so out there, for a second, I thought you may have been looking to post in the DGN dream journal...

dude I ended up going outside and calling 911. .he caught me because the operator kept me on the phone and I had to walk back in the house because Angel was still asleep and I was scared for her not knowing what all was in his head. As he sees I'm calling 911 he starts attesting it was a joke. ..blah blah. The cops and EMS arrive....one cop takes me in the bedroom and he kindly asked me to butt my cigarette and of course I did and apoligized for the smoke. .he had me tell him what happened. ..than went to talk to Paul and asked him if he'd put out his smoke cause he's allergic. ..Paul's like this is my house blah blah blah I'll take it outside and smoke it, the cop goes off and says you step out this door were arresting you, were tired of your shit. ..we have been out here way too many times wasting tax payer dollars, you need to grow up. .this will be written up as a charge, the cop said to him The city of Flat Rock will be finding someway to have the prosecution charge you. ..were sick of your shit. A few minutes later another officer comes in to me and says hon, you really need to find another place to go. This is a negative environment for you, he's sick, what he did calling it a joke is sick, this is dangerous for you. Please, he said you should not be here. Than in the other room the first cops still going off on him telling him how could you play a sick joke like that when she knows about your illness and she's worried trying to help you. ..when you do need help she won't be there. .you'll be the boy who cried wolf. I started dry heaving it's so fucking upsetting. .I can't do nothing about it right now.

[TronRP]

Dang...

[kat (1)]

Kinda sad. I went to an concert for my son's school today and my ex and his wife were there and I get along with them now. No drama, but my former mother in law was there, I haven't seen her in 5 years. ..she always liked me and my daughter and she was so sweet to me. ..I really miss her:-(....bet most ex wives don't say that.

[TronRP]

Kinda sad. I went to an concert for my son's school today and my ex and his wife were there and I get along with them now. No drama, but my former mother in law was there, I haven't seen her in 5 years. ..she always liked me and my daughter and she was so sweet to me. ..I really miss her:-(....bet most ex wives don't say that.

[kat (1)]

thanks. I need lots of those atm. I feel just so down and so done. My life hasn't made sense in years. I feel like a fish out of water.

[kat (1)]

This is the last waste of energy I expend on the foolishness, so the Flat Rock PD called and told me HE had called them to commit himself today, said he was having fucked up thoughts (no shit) so they took him to the hospital. The officer called to make sure I was safe because he had not let them in the house and the cop thought he did something to me. ..I told the officer I hadn't been there at the house and was not going back. The officer was also worried about the elderly boarder so he asked me to locate her to see if she was safe and she was. To me, that was very kind of that officer. I'm feeling grateful to him. Time to move on.

[kat (1)]

Noone can find the rewind botton?

[TronRP]

Noone can find the rewind botton?

Goodness knows I've tried...

[kat (1)]

This is the last waste of energy I expend on the foolishness, so the Flat Rock PD called and told me HE had called them to commit himself today, said he was having fucked up thoughts (no shit) so they took him to the hospital. The officer called to make sure I was safe because he had not let them in the house and the cop thought he did something to me. ..I told the officer I hadn't been there at the house and was not going back. The officer was also worried about the elderly boarder so he asked me to locate her to see if she was safe and she was. To me, that was very kind of that officer. I'm feeling grateful to him. Time to move on.

oh wait appearantly they didn't keep him last night, so since the law has made him believe he's unstopable I heard from his own brother that today shit started at five AM He was walking around waking neighbors up pounding at their door and than went to his brothers and ran to the back of the house and said "where are they, I know their here"...he than ran outside to several neighbors homes and one by one threatened to burn their houses down! He than I hear went back to his house, the neighbors called 911, the cops drug him off his couch, him being combative they finally got him in cuffs and the police did petition him this time. His brother said Paul asked him to call me from the psych ward to tell me something and than hid brother said Paul said that me and a bunch of people were somewhere and we all had bloody swords. ...This is something out of a idk wtf movie. However, he's probably being released tonight. ..deep inside I believe my intuition trying to commit him three days ago and having to have the cops tell me I was in danger and to leave for my safety was a sign, the night before I attempted to petition him, the little voice inside me, or my spirit guides intuition made me go in tears and begin crying out, on my way home from working Wednesday. ."he's going to kill me"....I think this saved me and my child. I didn't question the intuition and I let t channel. ..for once. I did something right by following my guide.

[TronRP]

Oh no...feels like I'm trying to catch a cold...hope I can outrun it...

[TronRP]

Feeling totally exhausted, but finally awake...

[TronRP]

Feels like I'm finally awake...got my focus on

[TronRP]

Feeling the need to find inner focus...found my outer focus and everything else knocked it out of whack...oi

[kat (1)]

Amused as my friend who let me stay here last night and who gave up his bed for my daughter and let my 5 ft 5 ass sleep on his couch even though he's 6ft 4, he attempted to sleep on his itty bitty loveseat last night so now he's sleeping snoring like A new species of bear. Lol. .I wont steal his couch tonight.. I swear.

[kat (1)]

I don't even know what a normal bear sounds like. . Der

[TronRP]

I don't even know what a normal bear sounds like. . Der

For your listening pleasure

[kat (1)]

I cracked a smile:) Thanks

[creatureofthenyte]

I feel really tired.

[kat (1)]

Time to go to sleep. .nomore songs about cat's and bacon. ...when someone tosses a pillow across the room at you and shuts the light off that means shut up and sleep. K..goodnight.

[TronRP]

Still feeling juiced from this morning...suppose I should keep working since the chauffeuring is done for the moment...

[creatureofthenyte]

Zippity do dah, yippie skippy, wtf ever....

[TronRP]

Still running on the excitement of this morning's antics...I like to have given my niece a heart attack around 3:15 am when I lost all control of cognitive thought and started shirking, "Oh my gosh there goes one!", while hopping up and down midstream a conversation we were having about constellations in the back yard this morning while waiting to spot meteors.

At just the perfect spot in the conversation, a bright white fire ball, with a massively long matching tail, streaked behind her head and vanished over the roof of the HomeHouse. It happened so fast that I didn't even have time to say "look", "turn around" or even grab her to turn her to face it before it had dissipated.

It was an incredible sight and I felt a bit like I had let her down, wishing I had reacted faster, since this was her first meteor shower ever and that spectacle did not repeat, in that manner, for the duration of the time we were outside...but it did look awesome for it's few seconds of atmospheric burn...

[kat (1)]

I missed meteors? I need coffee.

[Trene4000]

I feel so confused right now. My mother came charging over complaining about me always being disrespectful. I have no idea what she meant by that. She's always treated me as if I was rude since I was fifteen years old. I've never understood that. I watched other parents and their children. The parents always encouraged and supported their kids. My mom never did that. She always told me "prove me wrong" whenever it came to me trying to do something. She missed my dance recitals, orchestra performances, she didn't really support me when it came to my business. I felt tossed aside. I don't feel I owe her an apology. I have NEVER treated her with disrespect. I refuse to fall into her belief system. I am very respectful. I love my mother but she can be such a selfish, child-like pain. I guess its because of her upbringing. Southerners raise their children completely differently than we raise child here in the north. Especially their daughters. Back in the 40s, 50s, and 60s, girls were raised to be a certain way. I would probably be more like my aunt if I had been raised during that day and age. She rebelled against the southern ways and came across like a self-righteous princess. No one asks anything from her and ended up taking care of her children whenever she disappeared.

I could never do that to my family. I'm struggling to regain my independence. It is so hard with all of my injuries and constant medical appointments. I feel almost useless. I don't need her treating me like this while I'm struggling to relearn how to interact with my cats. I love my family and treat them with what I consider the utmost respect. I want to help. I'm tired of not being able to do as much as I want to. I want to drive my niece to soccer practice. I want to handle my bills. I want to keep track of my own meds without overdosing. I want to be able to talk to my doctors without getting confused. I want to be able to hang out with my mother without her dogs barking causing me to have seizures. I want to be able to sit for hours without my spine slipping and leaving me trapped on the floor. Or watching the meteor shower only to have my neck lock and pain to streak through my legs.

Oh well... maybe someday...

[torn asunder]

I feel so confused right now. My mother came charging over complaining about me always being disrespectful. I have no idea what she meant by that. She's always treated me as if I was rude since I was fifteen years old. I've never understood that. I watched other parents and their children. The parents always encouraged and supported their kids. My mom never did that. She always told me "prove me wrong" whenever it came to me trying to do something. She missed my dance recitals, orchestra performances, she didn't really support me when it came to my business. I felt tossed aside. I don't feel I owe her an apology. I have NEVER treated her with disrespect. I refuse to fall into her belief system....

Edited May 25, 2014 by torn asunder