How Are You Feeling?

[kat (1)]

Yep...well, that just happened. Knees hit pavement...feels like there are going to be a couple of swollen body parts in the not so distant future...ouch.

pours iodine on boo boo*

[kat (1)]

step one: from now on, in writing, out loud, and in your head, make one change... replace the word "hate" with the word "dislike".

step two: figure out why you dislike these things - is it strictly internal, or is it due to outside opinions/judgments? if external? fuck 'em!

step three: accept/embrace your uniqueness. remove from your life those who don't, and find new people who do/will.

its probably just me being a whiny little bitch acting like a three year old over some one rejecting me before. I usually don't care about rejection in general because I tend to have a lot of friends and do get a lot of attention (even when I'm quiet and don't want any, even at work, like no matter what the venue for some reason.. People seem to like me and I'm not sure why lol, maybe that's why I hate myself sometimes I wanna justbe boring but I can't lol)..thank you for being cool when I felt like shit, Torn!

[darknight1]

Rage. I feel rage. Depression. It's an unrelenting mixture of the two. And there doesn't seem to be a way out of this cesspool.

[kat (1)]

I hear you there. My only problem is that the boundaries came back to bite me unconditionally, causing me to question my acceptance of everyone else as they are.

You shouldn't hate that which makes you you. Think about it, if you were loaded, you would be referred to as just an eccentric millionaire and every word you said would be published as a latest critique. It's all a matter of perspective.

thanks Tron..I am a whiny little bitch. If only I could be a rich, whiny little bitch though..*sighs* Edited February 3, 2015 by kat

[kat (1)]

Rage. I feel rage. Depression. It's an unrelenting mixture of the two. And there doesn't seem to be a way out of this cesspool.

hugs..you're going to be OK, just do that thing you told me...what's stopping you from riding? Edited February 3, 2015 by kat

[darknight1]

hugs..you're going to be OK, just do that think you told me...what's stopping you from riding?

I'm being crushed by debt. As I told you, I want to just vanish off the grid...but even that costs money. I've spent almost all of my time here in Colorado looking for something, and the most I have to show for it is a work-study position for four years, and one stroke inducing job at a call center. All of these interviews...and maybe two, three things to show for my entire time spent here. Getting into Lyft was simple enough, I admit that. But there's not enough to keep me above the water. Every day, I'm looking for something. Every night, I'm driving around ungrateful drunk college kids and rich people - and there's very, very few of them who send requests through. And on top of it, the bill collectors just do not stop calling. Where's the consideration for the human condition there? Why are we all viewed as dollar signs? And it all just makes me want to vanish. But I can't - they hunt you down like you're prey. The rage, the depression...it is making me more and more unstable. I don't know how much longer a world like this can go on for.

[kat (1)]

I'm being crushed by debt. As I told you, I want to just vanish off the grid...but even that costs money. I've spent almost all of my time here in Colorado looking for something, and the most I have to show for it is a work-study position for four years, and one stroke inducing job at a call center. All of these interviews...and maybe two, three things to show for my entire time spent here. Getting into Lyft was simple enough, I admit that. But there's not enough to keep me above the water. Every day, I'm looking for something. Every night, I'm driving around ungrateful drunk college kids and rich people - and there's very, very few of them who send requests through. And on top of it, the bill collectors just do not stop calling. Where's the consideration for the human condition there? Why are we all viewed as dollar signs? And it all just makes me want to vanish. But I can't - they hunt you down like you're prey. The rage, the depression...it is making me more and more unstable. I don't know how much longer a world like this can go on for.

I do know that feeling.. Sadly, we just take it day to day. There ain't shit you can do about the debt collector's right now a lot of the time they talk shit to you. I'd suggest bankruptcy but it doesn't sound like u have the cash to do that and that would be only if you are a minimum of 10 grand in debt. Are you still in college?

[darknight1]

I do know that feeling.. Sadly, we just take it day to day. There ain't shit you can do about the debt collector's right now a lot of the time they talk shit to you. I'd suggest bankruptcy but it doesn't sound like u have the cash to do that and that would be only if you are a minimum of 10 grand in debt. Are you still in college?

I got sent packing last month. I couldn't keep up with homework, not with this financial nightmare that doesn't end. I'm usually driving for 14, 15 or more hours at a time just to try and make even $40 or $50. I couldn't focus on homework, and they put me on academic suspension. I appealed, and they shot me down, saying that what I had laid out was not enough in their view. They told me they hope I will take the time to reflect on my goals. This, coming from a school that will kiss your ass if you're a rich kid.

[kat (1)]

I got sent packing last month. I couldn't keep up with homework, not with this financial nightmare that doesn't end. I'm usually driving for 14, 15 or more hours at a time just to try and make even $40 or $50. I couldn't focus on homework, and they put me on academic suspension. I appealed, and they shot me down, saying that what I had laid out was not enough in their view. They told me they hope I will take the time to reflect on my goals. This, coming from a school that will kiss your ass if you're a rich kid.

fuck that.. You'll find another one that works for you. I'm sorry.

[TronRP]

Feels like I wish I could save the world....

[TronRP]

Feeling relieved that a child watching issue was averted thanks to a very valuable neighbor...thanks lady

...and schools around here are closed again tomorrow...

[kat (1)]

I feel like you fart wayyy to much in my presence.

[kat (1)]

Actually I feel really bad emotionally.. Not right at all.

[TronRP]

...exhausted...

[TronRP]

Feeling like this caffeine isn't kicking in fast enough...

[TronRP]

Feeling tired of thinking about those kids slacking behavior...I'll just take care of everything.

[kat (1)]

I feel like I don't understand how people do it. Idk I know I'm not normal though.

[kat (1)]

Drained.

[TronRP]

Feels like I can't stop smiling after receiving the latest addition to my collection Yuki Kimono

[kat (1)]

Whhhaaaa! I'm not feeling, I'm whining. I've been up since 3 something trying to fall back to zzzzz til about 546 ish...can't.. So now I go back to work for ten hours and drive my hour there and back so that's 12 hours on maybe 5.5 hours of sleep also I fucking hate Comcast but good morning board!

[kat (1)]

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Edited February 6, 2015 by kat

[kat (1)]

This is stuck in my membrane.

[TronRP]

Whhhaaaa! I'm not feeling, I'm whining. I've been up since 3 something trying to fall back to zzzzz til about 546 ish...can't.. So now I go back to work for ten hours and drive my hour there and back so that's 12 hours on maybe 5.5 hours of sleep also I fucking hate Comcast but good morning board!

Good morning

[kat (1)]

How did I end up here again?

[Trene4000]

My head feels achy and my eyes are tired. I need a nap.