How Are You Feeling?

[TronRP]

Can you appeal?

Unfortunately, it is written into the insurance contract that non-facility hospice care is not covered. Facility hosted hospice care is covered up to 80% with 20% covered by the patient.

If your care is not covered by a recognized institution, the medical professionals can't receive a kickback from your care.

[TronRP]

I am feeling thoroughly exhausted. I couldn't sleep all night worrying about the kids first day of school and medical care options.

[kat (1)]

Ahh, never mind.

[TronRP]

It's been awhile, but I am getting used to being exhausted and running on fumes again. I get just enough sit down time to handle bills and do follow up calls before it's time to handle the kids and take care of my current responsibilities. Then I am rewarded with a couple hours of sleep before it starts all over again in the morning with a wake up call from Kali (a.k.a. claws to the arm area).

[Michael8402]

Feeling like a hardcore worker tonight.  People were just dropping their trays full of dishes and running off.  It was upsetting me so I just started busing their trays, restocking their dishes that I am not supposed to do, and running my dish station on top of that.  In the process of doing the multiple jobs I managed to have a steak knife stab into the side of my hand and stick about an inch in.  I just pulled it out, wrapped my hand with paper towels and duct tape and went back to work with a glove on.  My hand hurts a bit but I have delt with worse.  As my grandmother used to say "It's a long way from my heart."  Just goes to prove that I can get the job done no matter what it takes.

[TronRP]

Now I'm really confused about how people mark time around here. I was up yesterday morning at 6am getting the kids off to school, then chauffeured to Warren and got back around 1pm. Then I headed off to do the shopping for all the houses. Got back around 5pm. Did laundry, home care watch and a bit of maintenance work from 6pm until 1:30am this morning. I Finally got home and to sleep around 2:30am. I was then awaken by a phone call around 4:15am from the HomeHouse. Went back to sleep until 6:30am. Jumped up to rush over to get the kids off to school where I was ask to handle several other tasks that had come up this morning. I supposed I didn't sound cheery enough because I was asked if I was ok, to which I replied that I was tired.

I find that I only get true understanding and sympathy if my eyes are bloodshot...not so much if they are still white. 

[TronRP]

Now I'm feeling totally stir-crazy. Finally got off the phone with the Hospice care nurse and Social worker after chauffeuring and running errands all day. Thought I could take a micro break before 6pm, but that's not happening. Got to get over to the HomeHouse to assist.

[kat (1)]

I said I wasn't logging in anyone but I have to vent somewhere. That neighbor girl left me alone all week, today, I'm in my apartment all of a sudden she texts me calling me a bitch and running her mouth. I didn't do anything to her, so I call the cops, she takes off in her car. Cops are like well if she keeps on call back, I'm on my way back home now and my neighbor said she's sitting out there like waiting or something. I'm seriously pissed. I can't go to jail, I like my freedom but I have the right to peace and privacy in my home. 

[kat (1)]

I feel I have had a few and therefore need to walk to the coney island and sober up.

[kat (1)]

I think that these people who are all smoking weed are getting a little bit of bath salts, meth, something mixed in with it because motherfuckers are on a whole new level of insane. Whatever. I am clearly doing something wrong because people love and make sure that those people are OK. 

Nowadays, if you are not trying to screw over or manipulate the system, or use people to your advantage with no regard for anyone, you are a bitch. I want better for my life so I guess I am a bitch. A bitch that had empathy for people with emotional issues, but now, I'm sorry, I overestimated humanity. We live in a pathetic world, so incompetent. I can't deal with the way we are headed by myself. We have destroyed ourselves, our society. I don't want to be afraid. Being alone scares me, I can't be alone in this mess. There has to be something better, people cannot ALL live like this, acting like animals. I have to find peace. I wish I could make anyone at all understand what I am seeing. We have been screwed for years and it is terrifying not knowing what is to come. Even my crazy family is starting to look normal compared to all I am seeing. 

I'm so sorry to be so down. I know noone understands. I just wish someone cared enough to try.

[kat (1)]

I have been trying not to have to get involved. There is a reason that I cannot interact with people like my neighbor. The reason it has been bothering me and eating at me but I had to make the right choice. I, being a state mandated reporter, regardless as to whether or not I am practicing right now I have a duty and I just had to call CPS on that neighbor woman.  I don't know what she is capable of and she has a little boy who is innocent and I fear for his safety. The hell emotionally that having a mother like that is going to cause him, poor little guy, he's just a little boy:(

 

It's terrible. I am heartbroken seeing that.

Edited September 12, 2015 by kat

[TronRP]

I have been trying not to have to get involved. There is a reason that I cannot interact with people like my neighbor. The reason it has been bothering me and eating at me but I had to make the right choice. I, being a state mandated reporter, regardless as to whether or not I am practicing right now I have a duty and I just had to call CPS on that neighbor woman.  I don't know what she is capable of and she has a little boy who is innocent and I fear for his safety. The hell emotionally that having a mother like that is going to cause him, poor little guy, he's just a little boy:(

 

It's terrible. I am heartbroken seeing that.

kat...you saved a life...

[TronRP]

I was feeling so down in the dumps after everything I had been needing to accomplish today and feeling like such a heavy weight was on my shoulders and that this world was a piece of crapola. Then I read about our kat reaching out to help someone in a desperate time of need and it made all the difference.

The results from positive actions we make now may not be seen for quite some time, but that fact that we made them is what truly matters.

[Michael8402]

I have tomorrow off from work.  I feel that it is a well needed rest day.  My one coworker said he may call me to hang out because he has off as well.  I kind of hope he does because I miss hanging out with people but I also kind of hope he doesn't because I could get a little ahead of house work and rest.  I hate feeling torn between wanting to rest a bit and being lonely and wanting friends, not that you guys aren't cool but it would be nice to hang out in person.

[creatureofthenyte]

I feel a little sad, I'll be ok.

[kat (1)]

Weightless, calm, peaceful..that meditation, that was a unique experience. 

Like I took a super amazing benzo except it's natural <3

Edited September 13, 2015 by kat

[kat (1)]

Trying not to let her existence upset me. Damn, why don't she just take her pills like she is prescribed or can't someone give her a thorazine shot? She needs it, than at least she can justify having a handicap pass. 

That's a whole other issue, why do people that can walk and have no problem with mobility have these? Why, cause they are mentally ill and may get frustrated with having to park a bit further so they may blow a gasket? Shouldn't be able to get behind a wheel than, it's probably not even her car, probably that old asshole who pays her for her dirty looking ass. Wow, there went my zen.

Edited September 13, 2015 by kat

[kat (1)]

I mean, if you're ass is parking in handicap parking but your going to the mall and you can actually walk freely through the mall, um, yea, society that ain't right! Assholes.

[Michael8402]

I am feeling kind of bored and lonely but also lazy at the same time.  This is a well deserved day off from work.

[kat (1)]

I feel like I have let go of a lot in my life, I've gotten over so much, but I guess some things remain in your heart no matter what happens. It's been so hard to accept that, like unbearable. Now I'm getting sad.

[kat (1)]

Nevermind that was way too goofy!!!!!!!!!!!

[creatureofthenyte]

I feel like I'm eating dinner

[Michael8402]

I am feeling bored.

[Michael8402]

I wish I had the tools I need to start my business.  I want to take old furniture like china cupboards, entertainment centers and stuff like that, and upcycle them into exotic animal habitats.  I have tons of ideas for other cages as well but I have converted furniture for people before and it always turned out great.  I was lucky enough to know people back home who had the tools I needed to use.  I also want a welder so I can learn how to weld and make the metal frames I need for some of my ideas.  Why do tools have to cost so much?  I feel like I am just wasting my time and ideas right now.

[kat (1)]

A bit shaken from the episode of sleep paralysis I had just now. Noone was here to hear my whimpering. I feel like a freak.