How Are You Feeling?

[kat (1)]

I feel like saying good morning.

[kat (1)]

I feel bored, wish I was not by myself. I need to do grown folk stuff.

[Troy Spiral (13)]

I miss my girlfriend.

Feel for you despite not knowing the details.  

[Troy Spiral (13)]

I never understood that either.  I do a lot of cleaning at work and at home.  I have always been the kind of person who is will to do the hard cleaning, except when it comes to my car because it is my car and if you don't like the fact that it's dirty than don't ride in it.  It really takes a toll on your back and knees not to mention the damage to your hands from harsh chemicals and abrasive scrubbing pads.  When I worked as a manager at a retail store, I was about 160 pounds.  Once I started working in kitchens I dropped down to about 135 pounds.  I blame it mainly on the cleaning. 

keeping the car clean is a never ending cruel taskmaster whipping your back and hands and knees (and wallet).   "CLEAN ME... AGAIN FUCKER" I've been trying to keep it clean inside and out but often I'm just like fuck this....

[Troy Spiral (13)]

The stress of trying to take care of my mother and have some sort of life is getting to me.  I'm trying, but its been years.  Cleaning up <gross stuff here> at 4am after getting woken up out of actual sleep (happens probably once a week on average) along with all sorts of little slave labor jobs , basically 80% of the time I'm at her house (which is about half the week) is getting harsh.

I feel guilty every time I leave the house, then I feel a bit panicked whenever I come back because I know there will be a laundry list of stuff I have to do (and plenty of arguing for no real good reason other than shes set in her ways).

Plus I'm afraid she might fall and die or something and I wasn't there.   I Love my mom very much, even more so since we lost dad, but some days....  the guilt/stress/exhaustion is hard to take. 

Edited November 27, 2015 by Troy Spiral

[TronRP]

Feeling really bitter sweet at the moment.

Had Thanksgiving at our aunt's house yesterday where she reminisced about her sister (our mother) as we help and early birthday party for our sister and a late graduation party for our brother.

This morning, Mikey, our mother's fur baby of 15 years had to be put to sleep due to major medical complications. 

Just now, the birthday present I ordered for my sister, that was scheduled on Monday, was just installed - TV Japan International Package.

It's a very sad/happy day...

[kat (1)]

Feeling really bitter sweet at the moment.

Had Thanksgiving at our aunt's house yesterday where she reminisced about her sister (our mother) as we help and early birthday party for our sister and a late graduation party for our brother.

This morning, Mikey, our mother's fur baby of 15 years had to be put to sleep due to major medical complications. 

Just now, the birthday present I ordered for my sister, that was scheduled on Monday, was just installed - TV Japan International Package.

It's a very sad/happy day...

Hugs.

[kat (1)]

 

Feel for you despite not knowing the details.  

He has to drive regionally ever week Weds-Mon, he misses SWIM for some strange reason. Maybe SWIM is super cozy to sleep next to and its getting cold out.. Orrr, maybe SWIM is hilarious and constantly doing and saying ridiculously funny things at unexpected and random moments, or like breakfast, he needs a breakfast or dinner partner, or like um, um, boredom, perhaps? 

One can only speculate.

Edited November 28, 2015 by kat

[kat (1)]

Sex.

[kat (1)]

Don't.

[kat (1)]

I need to cry.

[kat (1)]

I do not want to have another nightmare. I feel drained and empty each time. I was doing so well for a little bit too. I will be OK. I know that they are not real I just wish I knew what has been triggering them.

[kat (1)]

Appreciative.

[kat (1)]

My EEG and stuff finally got done, I still feel strobe lights flashing in front of me and have slept all day now I have a damn migraine. My friends mad at me cause I didn't come to her Xmas party too so there's that. I suck at friends, I kinda feel like I should die or something. I have a migraine, I didn't get my damn check yet to pay my damn rent so I'm going to have a late fee, holiday joy and stuff is like the last thing on my mind! So I'm an asshole I guess.

Edited December 5, 2015 by kat

[kat (1)]

God_I must really be depressed because I have no desire to get up and fix up and no desire for sex at all, I'm like anti sex right now and the thing is that I really don't give a shit, like I'm disgusted and feel disgustingly grotesque.

Edited December 10, 2015 by kat

[TronRP]

I can't believe I got my feelings hurt because my niece was more interested in receiving praise for saying she did something I entrusted her to do more so than completing the responsibility of the task she was entrusted with. And the fact that she couldn't believe that I wasn't saying thank you to her before she returned what she had borrowed or even had proof that it was in the condition she said it was in is what really bothered me.

[kat (1)]

Excited!

Someone we all know is having her baby, well, its both people's baby, you know what I mean..like right now!!

[kat (1)]

And more importantly.. Why am I awake analyzing my life so early? Coffee or back to sleep? Hmm, hard decision. Perhaps coffee, than back to sleep.

[Michael8402]

I am feeling tired.  I have been working a lot of 10 and 12 hour shifts due to the hectic holiday season.  I actually have today off so I am going to make a nice pot roast. 

[kat (1)]

Happy.

[Michael8402]

I invited a few coworkers over for pot roast last night.  I had the food all ready and texted them to confirm that they were coming.  No one showed up or texted me.  I guess I don't really have any hang out friends here yet.  I feel kind of depressed and my self esteem is a bit lowered.

[kat (1)]

I invited a few coworkers over for pot roast last night.  I had the food all ready and texted them to confirm that they were coming.  No one showed up or texted me.  I guess I don't really have any hang out friends here yet.  I feel kind of depressed and my self esteem is a bit lowered.

You seem like an extremely nice person and I read this and in my head I said fuck them assholes and they sound like really shitty people I am assuming that they acted initially like they would be coming. I mean I know shit happens but how rude of them to not even text to say sorry, something came up. They're not worth the money you spent cooking. 

You are better than me though cause I would not want to ever have my coworkers over, I am already regretting letting some of them penetrate my life by being Facebook friends. I won't ever befriend a coworker again, they're haters.

[Michael8402]

You seem like an extremely nice person and I read this and in my head I said fuck them assholes and they sound like really shitty people I am assuming that they acted initially like they would be coming. I mean I know shit happens but how rude of them to not even text to say sorry, something came up. They're not worth the money you spent cooking. 

You are better than me though cause I would not want to ever have my coworkers over, I am already regretting letting some of them penetrate my life by being Facebook friends. I won't ever befriend a coworker again, they're haters.

They said they were coming over and even texted to confirm earlier in the day.  Then they just didn't show or let me know they weren't coming.  I knew they were working and might run late but I waited until 3am before I gave up and put everything away.  

I invited my coworkers because I don't get out at all so I haven't had a chance to meet anyone other than coworkers.  I would invite people from here over but I am a bit weird about having people to my house before I meet them in person in a public place at least once or twice.  I mean I could probably handle one or two people coming over to meet for the first time but if I was to send an invite for dinner I would feel odd not making it an open invite.

[creatureofthenyte]

Like I'm going to bed.

[kat (1)]

I feel like the board is all blue and white and stuff on my phone. Is that normal? Can I change this?