kat (1) Posted October 10, 2016 Report Share Posted October 10, 2016 17 hours ago, zurgous said: Please don't! Your kids need you! You are an amazing person and you're loved. You told me I was ruinning your life and I was afraid you were right. I love you and I hate seeing you suffer. I would just end up fucking that up too. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Troy Spiral (13) Posted October 11, 2016 Author Report Share Posted October 11, 2016 23 hours ago, kat said: I feel like fucking hanging myself. 18 hours ago, zurgous said: Please don't! Your kids need you! You are an amazing person and you're loved. What Zurg said. Also *huuugs* been there some ludicrous amount of times. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Troy Spiral (13) Posted October 11, 2016 Author Report Share Posted October 11, 2016 On 10/8/2016 at 10:45 PM, TronRP said: Still wrestling with that feeling of being taken for granted and that I am some sort of caffeine superhero that needs no sleep or something. Horrible feeling. Can just "suck it up" sometimes, but not ALL the time. Very isolating. :( *hugs* Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Troy Spiral (13) Posted October 11, 2016 Author Report Share Posted October 11, 2016 On 10/3/2016 at 6:46 PM, Draco1958 said: Feel like my head wants to explode. Stupid cold. Have a nasty sinus headache, body feels like I was hit by a truck. And no, I can't just cough, I hack until I almost pass out because I can't inhale and coughing fit lasts long enough to make me gasp for air when it stops. Was right there a week ago. Doctor actually gave me a prescription for an inhailer, could never get a full breath. (never got it cuz the insurance still had a 50 dollar co-pay and I knew I'd only be using it for like a few days) It suuuuucks. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Draco1958 Posted October 11, 2016 Report Share Posted October 11, 2016 1 hour ago, Troy Spiral said: Was right there a week ago. Doctor actually gave me a prescription for an inhailer, could never get a full breath. (never got it cuz the insurance still had a 50 dollar co-pay and I knew I'd only be using it for like a few days) It suuuuucks. My insurance covers it fully. I just need to get set up with a primary care doctor which I haven't done yet. Haven't felt bad enough to justify going to an urgent care facility. Otherwise I could get a script for one. Luckily for me, 2 of my roommates get the same inhaler that I use so when they get a refill they don't need, they give it to me. What really sucks is that I don't have much of a cough issue until I lay down. Then it's a coughing frenzy for 30 mins to an hour. Then a fight to get my breathing controlled so I can relax enough to fall asleep. Because of having chronic bronchitis, any cold moves into my lungs and can last for 3 or more months. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kat (1) Posted October 12, 2016 Report Share Posted October 12, 2016 (edited) 23 hours ago, Troy Spiral said: What Zurg said. Also *huuugs* been there some ludicrous amount of times. I am sorry. My emotions are dysregulated...maybe Nate Dogg and Warren G can come and Edited October 12, 2016 by kat Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TronRP Posted October 12, 2016 Report Share Posted October 12, 2016 Feels like I'm spiraling down a slide of mental exhaustion and yet, not... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TronRP Posted October 13, 2016 Report Share Posted October 13, 2016 Feels like I'm back to burning the candle at both ends again. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
phee Posted October 13, 2016 Report Share Posted October 13, 2016 I feel that every day, it gets a little further away from possible. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kat (1) Posted October 14, 2016 Report Share Posted October 14, 2016 I feel like I should be reading not watching Deadpool but I am not. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Draco1958 Posted October 14, 2016 Report Share Posted October 14, 2016 23 minutes ago, kat said: I feel like I should be reading not watching Deadpool but I am not. Deadpool is a good movie. Nothing wrong with watching a movie to clear the mind to take a break from reading. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kat (1) Posted October 14, 2016 Report Share Posted October 14, 2016 (edited) My body hurts from undoing my laziness and getting off my ass and exercising and stopping tramadol and even muscle relaxers, my legs look awesome! All them meds made me fat and lazy but I've lost about 40 lbs so far. Yay me. Edited October 14, 2016 by kat Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TronRP Posted October 14, 2016 Report Share Posted October 14, 2016 After all this work, feels like I need a nap now, but I'm so hungry. Maybe I can sleep-eat. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kat (1) Posted October 14, 2016 Report Share Posted October 14, 2016 (edited) Emotionally weak. I don't have the strength anymore to handle shit. Where did it go? What happened to me? I'm trying to find a solution to this feeling asking even God, the universe, I don't know how to be anymore. Edited October 14, 2016 by kat Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kat (1) Posted October 14, 2016 Report Share Posted October 14, 2016 (edited) I feel like if I could reach deep inside myself and find the source of this pain, I don't know where it hurts but I know if I could open my mouth and go scream it out, the scream would be so deafening that it could silence hell. I don't know why I hurt inside so terribly but I know that it feels like a buildup like having sex but not actually getting off, magnified over and over again. I don't know what it is where it is but its there and it's killing me not being able to let it go! How do I release something I cannot even locate? Edited October 14, 2016 by kat Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kat (1) Posted October 15, 2016 Report Share Posted October 15, 2016 I feel like I need to be out enjoying the weather and also what do I get my daughter for her 20th bday on Tuesday? I can't believe I been posting here since she was 13. 😱 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TronRP Posted October 16, 2016 Report Share Posted October 16, 2016 Feels like it's going to be another sleepless night. I hope the little sickies can get some real sleep tonight. My niece is acting as little helper and assisting me with everyone's care. Thank goodness for small favors. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kat (1) Posted October 16, 2016 Report Share Posted October 16, 2016 "I'm a crepe....I'm a weirdo....... What the hell am I doing here...." Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Draco1958 Posted October 16, 2016 Report Share Posted October 16, 2016 21 minutes ago, kat said: "I'm a crepe....I'm a weirdo....... What the hell am I doing here...." You're here because you found a place you fit in with like minded people. Welcome to the darkside. Whips to the left, chains to the right and straight down the hall is where the party begins. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TronRP Posted October 16, 2016 Report Share Posted October 16, 2016 6 hours ago, kat said: "I'm a crepe....I'm a weirdo....... What the hell am I doing here...." Nice substitution...parody n'est pas? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
phee Posted October 16, 2016 Report Share Posted October 16, 2016 I feel that there is a disparaging difference in the ratio pf good news vs bad news. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TronRP Posted October 16, 2016 Report Share Posted October 16, 2016 Feeling happy to finally be up. Been suffering from acid stomach and multiple waves of Charlie Horses all morning. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sekhmet2002 Posted October 16, 2016 Report Share Posted October 16, 2016 Tired Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
phee Posted October 16, 2016 Report Share Posted October 16, 2016 Annoyed at myself for having anxiety over things I cannot change. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kat (1) Posted October 17, 2016 Report Share Posted October 17, 2016 I have a lot of gratitude for the people I have encountered. Everyone has value and will teach you lessons and deliver messages right when you need to get them if you look at things completely and openly without judgement. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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