How Are You Feeling?

[the eternal]

I feel like a big ball of guilt.

I feel like I should distance myself.

I feel like I am going to lose the only friend I have.

I feel that I can't help how I feel.....

I feel that I am emotionally fucked at this point in time.

I feel glad to have final eaten something.

I feel like I have been neglectful of my studies for the last few days.

I feel like that NEEDS to change.

I feel myself slipping.....

Beyond words.

Beyond hurt.

Beyond anything I could ever imagine .......

I hope both of you guys are doing better now. And, Meg, it's okay if you slough off a little on studies.

You need an A- every now and again to make you humble

I'm trying NOT to take it out on anybody, but it seems to slip out, especially in the case of grammatical pet peeves. My solution, for the most part, has been not to say anything much to anybody, but that's hardly a solution. Fortunately, I have my meds now, and in two weeks should be nearly normal. Whew.

Small related note:

less v. fewer--if you can count it, if it is NOT a partitive noun, use FEWER. FEWER calories, LESS fat, FEWER pounds, LESS weight, FEWER bullets, LESS ammunition, FEWER politicians, LESS bullshit, FEWER virtuosos, LESS music. I know that when it comes to abstractions, this distinction is more difficult, but please try.

I...love...you

Although a couple of our greatest offenders have either left the board or learned how to use the spell check button (see one notorious concert promoter) there are still enough lessons to go around.

I do my part by capitalizing the Is on all the people I quote

(except Meg, because she's smart like that and doesn't need it no matter how many Is are in her post)

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Me-

Seriously, what more can I give her??????

Because of my ex,

I don't see a person that that I love more than anything hardly at all anymore.

I've been bankrupted by legal fees and now am asked to pay even more money despite that I'm

working commission in a dead industry,

I tremble every time my phone vibrates or I see her name in my inbox

and it's not enough for her.

It's never fucking enough.

If her latest challenge goes through, I'll either be let go from my company (long story)

or never get to someone who means very much to me

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I'm never, ever, ever getting divorced again.

Not if bean fucks every man in City Club.

Not if she pulls a knife to my throat (my ex did, so it won't really be anything new)

Not if she gets so mad that she calls me a worthless piece of shit every night and makes me

sleep in the basement on a cold floor (again that would be like old times)

bean told me that an affair would cause her to leave me but there is literally nothing,

she could do to me to make myself want to go through what my ex is doing to me.

Nothing.

Apologies to all who I have plans with this weekend (and those I was to see at CC).

I literally won't know if I'll be seeing anyone until tomorrow afternoon when the lawyer calls.

That's all.

[Guest Megalicious]

I feel like I need to make a Dexter visit to E's Ex....

I'm so sorry...

[TitsMcGee]

I feel like I need to make a Dexter visit to E's Ex....

I'm so sorry...

You and me both, I'll bring the bat.

[Rayne]

Kinda hurt ....

Confused ....

And still in a whole lot of pain.

[Guest Megalicious]

Kinda hurt ....

Confused ....

And still in a whole lot of pain.

[Enishi]

Kinda surprised at the fact I'm still sick. I usually recover within a couple days. At least all the worst symptoms are going away. Now I just have bone weariness and some leftover irritation in my throat. Off to bed I go...

[Jadis]

Done with the homework.... going to sleep before I put any more thought into things I don't care to think about.

[freydis]

Like I JUST NOW wrote my 250 words for today!!!

YAY for good habit formation!!

:happydance

[StormKnight (1)]

You and me both, I'll bring the bat.

I'll send you two the beer. Moral qualms and life experiences keep me from doing what you may plan to do.

As for me...tired...old...worn out...like I need to be reminded what it is to be young as when the world was new.

[Guest Megalicious]

I'll send you two the beer. Moral qualms and life experiences keep me from doing what you may plan to do.

As for me...tired...old...worn out...like I need to be reminded what it is to be young as when the world was new.

I am feeling tired. *yawn*

[TitsMcGee]

sleepy, it has been a very long day.

[freydis]

Productive!!

And like I'm going to bed.

[Guest Megalicious]

I feeling extremely fucking pissed the fuck off at this point.... People need to grow the FUCK UP.

[Rayne]

I feeling extremely fucking pissed the fuck off at this point.... People need to grow the FUCK UP.

Agreed. 100%.

[Guest Megalicious]

Now I'm fucking PISSED off and hurt..... just wow... JFC.

[torn asunder]

Like I am in a bad mood, and there's no particular reason for it. I think I am picking up vibes from someone else's bad day or something.

shit. sorry about that...

as for me, i'm feeling at least two things tonight -

1) i'd forgotten how appropriate mixing prescription drugs and alcohol can be, when it comes to trying to dull/ignore negative feelings. now all i need are some "extracurriculars" to finish the cocktail, and maybe i won't be constantly pursued by them...

2)

When I was just a lad of ten, my father said to me,

"Come here and take a lesson from the lovely lemon tree."

"Don't put your faith in love, my boy", my father said to me,

"I fear you'll find that love is like the lovely lemon tree."

Lemon tree very pretty and the lemon flower is sweet

but the fruit of the poor lemon is impossible to eat.

Lemon tree very pretty and the lemon flower is sweet

but the fruit of the poor lemon is impossible to eat.

One day beneath the lemon tree, my love and I did lie

A girl so sweet that when she smiled the stars rose in the sky.

We passed that summer lost in love beneath the lemon tree

the music of her laughter hid my father's words from me:

Lemon tree very pretty and the lemon flower is sweet

but the fruit of the poor lemon is impossible to eat.

Lemon tree very pretty and the lemon flower is sweet

but the fruit of the poor lemon is impossible to eat.

One day she left without a word. She took away the sun.

And in the dark she left behind, I knew what she had done.

She'd left me for another, it's a common tale but true.

A sadder man but wiser now I sing these words to you:

Lemon tree very pretty and the lemon flower is sweet

but the fruit of the poor lemon is impossible to eat.

Lemon tree very pretty and the lemon flower is sweet

but the fruit of the poor lemon is impossible to eat.

[torn asunder]

like I need to be reminded what it is to be young as when the world was new.

no, you really don't - trust me, it's much worse when you can still remember it...

[Guest Megalicious]

I am beyond pissed off at this point. Just know, to whoever sent that and was talking about something of which YOU HAVE NO IDEA ; If I ever find out who you are ( and pray to fucking god that I won't) I will be seeing you. You however, will not be seeing me if you catch my drift.

You have no idea who the fuck you are messing with - and trust me, YOU DON'T WANT TO KNOW....

[freydis]

tired.

like i never, ever sleep enough.

BUT SO EXCITED FOR MY PROJECT!!!!

if you have a twitter account, go add rotorbooks right now, and watch for updates!!

[Jadis]

Betrayed.... not a good move.

Glad it is Friday.

[phee]

To say that I am confused and hurt..... is an understatement.....

I also feel that I hope my wifes back is feeling better

And that I hope this stuff gets better.... because pain sucks

[TygerLili]

Like there's a ton of negative energy in this thread.

As for me, physically and emotionally drained.

Edited March 27, 2009 by TygerLili

[Guest Megalicious]

Betrayed.... not a good move.

Glad it is Friday.

I guess I have the answer that I have been searching for all night. Thanks.....

[Head Wreck]

like retrying every case option i have is turning up overpacked or unperpacked (clothes creased either way!)

[taysteewonderbunny]

Hopeful that amends will be made amongst long-time friends. Hoping that karma catches up to eternal's psycho bitch from hell and that she is a long-time laid up having to taste her own medicine (and maybe coming to some realization of the error of her ways?). Happy that Tits did well on her math test. And grateful for the great friends and company I've had of late. (Yeah, the medicine is kicking in now.)