part 1 of my life

[vampireprincess]

i grew up in a life where i was hit and kicked around& had no friends when i was little.. i always got picked on. i always got called names there wasnt a day i didnt go with out crying.. but when i started ti get older all that changes was that i looked better the hitting and kicking still happend and happens

yes like any little kid i loved to play with my friends and my toys but i hardly got to do that, i have had a rough child hood..

but ive lived life to the fulliest pushing by the days,, trying to get out of hell and back to my life

i have messed up so bad but what you have done i mean my family has done is so much worse then i can every do..

but back to my child hood i had friends but they always made fun of me cause i had scars and and brusies and i was so clusby and i was so not the smartess kid when i was youger,,, but ive grown up to be really smart i have 3.7 and i get al As and Bs

i got a scholar ship and all of that,,,

but back to my life,, my life has been nothing but figthing and pushing kicking and hitting and i dont derseve this,, nobody dose i havent got hit in 4 months and im proiund of my self because i stuck up for my self and didnt let them opush me around anymore

am done with al the pushing and hitting and the bullshit am old enough now to say fuck u am out am so done with al the abuse ,,, but

the GOOD part

right now i have a loving gf and and am happy as hell with her she means the world to me ....

me and my mom are getting along itts been 4 months,,,,, since we got in to a battle,,,

but still everynight i have night mare,, of her killing me....?????? how do i stop them... pls help me

[asphyxian_doll]

I'm sorry.

I've been through a lot myself.

All you can do is work on yourself.

I suggest getting the book Toxic Parents.

IT WILL HELP YOU.

If its help you are looking for.

If its a lending ear, or someone to talk to, you can PM me. ^_^

heres a link to the book.

toxicparents

[vampireprincess]

I'm sorry.

I've been through a lot myself.

All you can do is work on yourself.

I suggest getting the book Toxic Parents.

IT WILL HELP YOU.

If its help you are looking for.

If its a lending ear, or someone to talk to, you can PM me. ^_^

heres a link to the book.

toxicparents

i need some one i can trust to talk to about all of this stuff and some one that wont judge me

[asphyxian_doll]

i need some one i can trust to talk to about all of this stuff and some one that wont judge me

well I don't expect you to trust me, as I am trustworthy but you do not KNOW me.

I don't judge either. I also have a lot of good books and references for you if you ever want to get deeper into the problem and start cleaning out these wounds and airing them out so they can heal.

[Homicidalheathen]

I too have post traumatic stress disorder induced night mares

do something soothing before bed like cuddle or walk, no horror or violent reading or tv

drink a cup of hot milk

No caffine or alcohol hours before bed

dont eat after 9pm

Meditate daily

try learning some dream control techniques

(do a google search)

take a warm soothing bath before bed with lavender and camomile

get counciling and massages. Massages by a pro help with trust issues.

[Homicidalheathen]

Ps I am glad you met a nice girl.

[vampireprincess]

well I don't expect you to trust me, as I am trustworthy but you do not KNOW me.

I don't judge either. I also have a lot of good books and references for you if you ever want to get deeper into the problem and start cleaning out these wounds and airing them out so they can heal.

i got this book about abusive parents it make me think better but i still cry every night well i can get to know u maybe we can be friends i can use as many as i can right now ive been doing so bad

[asphyxian_doll]

i got this book about abusive parents it make me think better but i still cry every night well i can get to know u maybe we can be friends i can use as many as i can right now ive been doing so bad

Do you have yahoo Instant messenger?

And yeah...books don't always fix the emotional triggers.

[Destroit]

I'm usually always on Yahoo if you ever want to talk: Chernobyl_Herself@yahoo.com

I'm non-biased and non-judgemental. Let's just say I've seen everything, there's nothing you could tell me that would let me think of you any different. And I'm also, even though it seems like I can talk a lot, the type who can listen without just seeming like I'm sitting there waiting for my turn to speak. Just an offer .

[vampireprincess]

Do you have yahoo Instant messenger?

And yeah...books don't always fix the emotional triggers.

its dora8291@yahoo.com wats urs and my name is dora

[vampireprincess]

I'm usually always on Yahoo if you ever want to talk: Chernobyl_Herself@yahoo.com

I'm non-biased and non-judgemental. Let's just say I've seen everything, there's nothing you could tell me that would let me think of you any different. And I'm also, even though it seems like I can talk a lot, the type who can listen without just seeming like I'm sitting there waiting for my turn to speak. Just an offer .

and thank you,,, mine is dora8291 =(

[asphyxian_doll]

its dora8291@yahoo.com wats urs and my name is dora

I'm Jamie ^_^

Mine is Syntheticdream23