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I hate to say it but today is the first time in weeks that I've woken up without a stomach ache and actually have an appetite. This coincides with the realization that I don't have to watch my mom today. I had no idea that I had stressed out that badly over this. With all my other medical conditions I began thinking, "oh gawd, here comes another one". At least now I have something to work with that can actually be handled without medication. Maybe I should just chill for a while and enjoy the moment.large.cooling_off_by_bubbles21500-d686li

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I think we actually need more assistance. I am doing what she said. I am sticking to the schedule, but I am not relocating my computer. It's the only lifeline I have. Everyone has a laptop but me so it's easy for her to say move your computer and fit your life to the schedule. I had a full time job before all this started and I still have a full time job now plus this and emergency builds.

I don't even sleep anymore, I just pass out on the floor or half on my futon. I don't want anyone to think I'm not trying to help my mother, but I am also not lazy. EVERYTHING I do is physical labor. I have seriously been considering performance enhancers just to keep up.

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I hate to say it but today is the first time in weeks that I've woken up without a stomach ache and actually have an appetite. This coincides with the realization that I don't have to watch my mom today. I had no idea that I had stressed out that badly over this. With all my other medical conditions I began thinking, "oh gawd, here comes another one". At least now I have something to work with that can actually be handled without medication. Maybe I should just chill for a while and enjoy the moment.large.cooling_off_by_bubbles21500-d686li

We seem to be pros at this we pre-stress about a situation a zillion times, and in the event often its not that stressful at all or even if it  IS stressful, pre-stressing a zillion times about something that hadn't happened yet didn't help us.     "Just enjoying it" is good.  Stopping to smell the roses so to speak. 

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I'm a bitch, he called me a bitch again.. The same behavior he was showing before he left last time but this time I was upset and told him my head hurts and he said as he walked away, " I'll make it hurt worse"

That's emotionally abusive. He throws in my face that noone else would help me.

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I'm a bitch, he called me a bitch again.. The same behavior he was showing before he left last time but this time I was upset and told him my head hurts and he said as he walked away, " I'll make it hurt worse"

That's emotionally abusive. He throws in my face that noone else would help me.

Throw him out, change the locks. I wish you could come hang with us. It might intel a bit of Home Care Watching, but you would be most welcomed at the HomeHouse. :welcome:

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Throw him out, change the locks. I wish you could come hang with us. It might intel a bit of Home Care Watching, but you would be most welcomed at the HomeHouse. :welcome:

aww, thank you. He tries to be supportive most of the time, but when he's angry he says crazy stuff. I don't have time or the strength to act like that with him, its like that's what he's used to. I won't feed it. I am just afraid and he knows it that I will have to be on disability.. He keeps encouraging me to quit my job.. I am scared that this could be permanent, I am scared of being permanently unable to do my job, I am scared of being homeless.. All this fear no wonder my head is hurting nonstop.

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aww, thank you. He tries to be supportive most of the time, but when he's angry he says crazy stuff. I don't have time or the strength to act like that with him, its like that's what he's used to. I won't feed it. I am just afraid and he knows it that I will have to be on disability.. He keeps encouraging me to quit my job.. I am scared that this could be permanent, I am scared of being permanently unable to do my job, I am scared of being homeless.. All this fear no wonder my head is hurting nonstop.

Yeah, that's why I mentioned you probably coming to sit with us for a while. Trene has been there, done that, bought a T-shirt, and still wearing it. Life changes after a head injury. Some things you will notice immediately. Other things will suddenly come to your mind as different or not quite right later. However, at this point, you need a stability focus. A starting point you can return to when things get stressful. That's where you can rest, reset, and go forward again. 

If you are worried about driving, I would pick you up anytime you felt like having a hangout break. Just let me know. :biggrin:

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Thinking of checking to see if there is a such thing as a Grant or Loan for Hospice Care Services.

Maybe needs based or income adjusted.  I know there is income based housing , seems like Hospice might be the same.  Sounds like a sad situation to have to even deal with though. *hug*

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Every downhome show I ever see always has some combination of southern folks, 4-wheelers and heavy machinery and all I can think is how are all these rednecks able to afford ATVs and Bucket Trucks?

And I can barely get financed to "Buy American"

 

I must be in the wrong profession...:blink:

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