What Are You Thinking?

[kat (1)]

It's my fault, I had to call him to come meet me at the hospital because they wouldn't let me drive myself home due to the morphine, there was noone else on a whime. I soooooo wish I had someone else. like um, my family, but they were busy catering to my sisters tanning or nailcare needs, who knows. I know he took like a bottle of sleeping pills within the last 4 days and he claims he flushed his anxiety pills, which he had to have about 40 left, I know he didn't flush them, he just got them, he took all that shit, binged or something..he looked half dead when I seen him, I ended up driving myself anyway!!!!!!!!Now here we go again...he does freak me out, his eyes look empty and if he took something and has been over the past four days I don't want him around. He needs to be committed. I should commit him. For his and other's safety. Fuck that, bad vibes, really bad vibes...he even called my guy friend I knew for twenty years asking him to come have a drink with him and then left him a voicemail crying and shit, a guy he never met...and he doesn't remember. He terrifies me.

[EagleRose]

Oh my gosh! I'm addicted to Twitter... The horror... The HORROR!

[Carpe Mortem]

I'm thinking I wish had one friend, just ONE FRIEND, who works nights like I do so I'd have someone to hit up the park with on this beautiful winter day.

Now I'm thinking how lame it is I don't have a dog, because he'd be down to go to the park with me. I really want my own dog, but this isn't my house and it isn't my call.

[EagleRose]

I love playing with food as much as I like eating it.

[Carpe Mortem]

I love playing with food as much as I like eating it.

I wish I had mashed potatoes, those are my favorite to play with

[TronRP]

Why do people so readily accept negative information as fact but scorn the truth?

Negative info makes for better gossip....

[TronRP]

I think my mental state just officially gave up trying. I was so busy trying to find out what happened to my paycheck that, for the first time ever, I marked the incorrect dates for bill payments on my scheduler. Now I have a $25 late fee on an account I ALWAYS overpay ahead of time...and now it's late...Thanks claim adjuster specialists...

These people deliberately have me on a roller coaster ride of whether I'm getting paid or not and I think "HOPE" just kicked the bucket...I suddenly feel like I don't care anymore...you try to do right and there is always something there to knock you down with a dose of "who's the boss" reality...

I think I'm now in the "don't give a care" mode and still waiting to get paid....whatever

[EagleRose]

Dang.

[EagleRose]

Wow

[WhiteLines]

What was left of my life fell apart and I'm stuck in rural southern Ohio. I suddenly have plenty of money at least, but I'm not sure what to think about all the people that stabbed me in the back to get me here. Should I be thanking them?!

[TronRP]

"No good deed goes unpunished." Clare Boothe Luce

"Virtue is its own reward, and brings with it the truest and highest pleasure; but if we cultivate it only for pleasure's sake, we are selfish, not religious, and will never gain the pleasure, because we can never have the virtue." John Henry Newman

[TronRP]

What was left of my life fell apart and I'm stuck in rural southern Ohio. I suddenly have plenty of money at least, but I'm not sure what to think about all the people that stabbed me in the back to get me here. Should I be thanking them?!

Dude...be like the phoenix and rise from the ashes anew...

[WhiteLines]

Dude...be like the phoenix and rise from the ashes anew...

Thank you, that's just what I've been up to even though it's a cold lonely new world. I have survived.

[kat (1)]

Just when you start giving the little tests because you think maybe somewhere inside the person claiming their love and devotion may be genuine, they fail at something so subtle. Meh, oh well.

[EagleRose]

Pain hurts!

[WhiteLines]

I think I'm totally fine with the knowledge that she lied for years and didn't love me at all. Even though I poured everything I had to give into the relationship only to find in the end that each time she broke up and begged me back was only to use me and get a free source of money. Knowing what I know now at least allows me to not be filled with so much a depressing sense of loss. It's still depressing and it's still loss but I know I will never return there. I know I was stabbed in the back again. It must be better this way and one day I'll find a reason to live again I guess. It is what it is.

[TronRP]

Just when you start giving the little tests because you think maybe somewhere inside the person claiming their love and devotion may be genuine, they fail at something so subtle. Meh, oh well.

Test, what test? Is this a normal test? Is it for people in relationships? Should everyone know this test? Is it something I should know about? What are the answers? How does someone know if they are failing this test? Need Enlightenment! Need Enlightenment!!!

[TronRP]

I think it's about time...I'm definitely looking forward to this near 50 degree F high today...Melt Snow...Melt!!!!!

[Class-Punk]

I now have the Summer-rooted daydream of having a drunken, chill indie rock beach party at dusk.

Edited March 10, 2014 by Class-Punk

[Carpe Mortem]

Looks like I'll be enjoying my spring break off school by... sledding

[TronRP]

mmmmm...cake...

[EagleRose]

Good gosh, I'm hungry!

[TronRP]

Although I like the transition seasons, I think it's always harder on the physical form as the weather fluctuates to warmer temperatures...going from Chilly Willy to Tweety Bird can take a toll...

[TronRP]

Mental note: Must remember to install acoustic rated material when renovating walls this year

[TronRP]

Think I had better look into purchasing some hobby motors...as cool as the Cat's Meow toy is, we have already gone through 6 of them due to the cheap plastic gear on the motor shaft.