Jump to content

What Are You Thinking?

StormKnight

By StormKnight,
in Other Stuff

 Share

Recommended Posts

TronRP Grand Master

TronRP

Posted
Posted

I think I have totally lost motivation. I know I have stuff to do that is REALLY important and affect more than just myself. But the thought of trying to start handling any of it at this moment (before it turns into a crisis situation) is just not moving me...

Am I depressed, stressed or tired?

No idea.

:unsure:

Link to comment
Share on other sites
  • Replies 17k
  • Created
  • Last Reply

Top Posters In This Topic

Popular Days

Top Posters In This Topic

Popular Days

Popular Posts

Draco1958
Draco1958

Thinking everyone needs to be careful this weekend.  Depending on the track of the storm we may get as little as 2 inches of snow or more than 6 inches.  Time will tell so everyone please be careful a

TronRP
TronRP

It's O.K. Since this site literally helped me through A LOT of stuff, I suppose I may be a bit more loyal to it than most. That and the fact that all my friends hang on DGN...

creatureofthenyte
creatureofthenyte

I think if this insurance overhaul goes into effect in its current form, you will soon come realize that its gonna suck a bajillion times worse then what you have now.

Posted Images

EagleRose Newbie

EagleRose

Posted
Posted

I think I have totally lost motivation. I know I have stuff to do that is REALLY important and affect more than just myself. But the thought of trying to start handling any of it at this moment (before it turns into a crisis situation) is just not moving me...

Am I depressed, stressed or tired?

No idea.

:unsure:

Depressed. 

Link to comment
Share on other sites
TronRP Grand Master

TronRP

Posted
Posted

This is pitiful. In an attempt to not stress out with all that needs to be done, I am trying to follow the same way of doing things like I did before June. Unfortunately, now I'm missing handling too many important things. I think I'm going to have to do my bag lady impression and keep everything of importance on me so I don't miss anything else. However, still not quite sure where the lawnmower will go... :hrhr:

Link to comment
Share on other sites
TronRP Grand Master

TronRP

Posted
Posted

I am neurotic and a stickler for detail and I find it interesting that when I notice subtle changes to an area or over analyze information I'm kind of treated like it's impossible for someone to be that aware of an area's surroundings or to give so much information on a certain topic that the "TMI" bomb is constantly dropped.

I can't help that I don't trust anyone especially after I was told by a stranger that they were always watching me out working, cutting grass and shoveling snow and tried to hit me up for a few bucks because they thought I was hired help. They didn't know I was maintaining family owned properties.

The larger the yard, the more apt a person is to "cut cross country", so I keep certain areas boarded off using Nature, herself. After many years, I can determine if a person has been through any of the yards just by looking at the plant life or the direction of a gate handle.

I suppose after being victimized in the past by people stealing and looting things we've worked so hard to acquire, I have become a bit paranoid. I want people to see me watching them watch me because if something happens, they know who I'm coming after first. My main priority is provide a sense of security for the family because I already know what it feels like to live in fear and uncertainty and, years ago, I made it my mission to never live like that again.

I suppose this would classify as a "TMI" moment...:blushing:

Link to comment
Share on other sites
kat Mentor

kat (1)

Posted
Posted (edited)

I know I was not completely apart of the group, didn't share all the same interests, had a different flavor of drama that made me an outcast... To, um...*finger air quotes* goths..lol...anyhow, I met a few great human beings of this experience.

I did know, years ago that what has just happened within the circle, among the tightest, the shit I said would come out and people would finally realize the source of the friction, fighting, gossip, etc...

And so mote it be, that it has been exposed. Now maybe this person will get perspective and insight and begin to sort out the friction within.

 

 

 

Edited by kat
Link to comment
Share on other sites
Michael8402 Newbie

Michael8402

Posted
Posted

I was told that I lack confidence and need to be more than just a nice guy.  They said that I am the best at the job I am doing but they don't think that I am really ment for that position.  I am supposed to push myself harder to learn a skill that will get me through the rest of my life.  This was all said in a very forceful way by a person who has a very aggressive personality and also happens to be an owner of the place I work at.  I have a few issues with this situation.

1. The reason I don't want to work the position he thinks I am ment for is because I shut down when there is a lot of yelling and aggression around me.  I forget everything that I know a just start shaking and just want to curl up in a ball.

2. I have been through college and cosmetology school and I have worked at many different skilled trades but nothing seems to fit for me.  Even the carnival performing wasn't a good fit long term.

3. The job I am currently working is so understaffed that it's not funny.  There are pretty much only 2 of us that work the position on a regular basis and a girl who has only worked 3 days so far and is only there until her college classes start back up this fall.

4. Everyone else who is working the position they want me in has gone to school for that trade and have spent years developing their skills.  Although I have worked in multiple restaurants before, I have a different style of doing things than they do.  I never went to school for it and all of my skills are from experience in much smaller businesses that were more of a home style comfort food establishments.  

I just feel that I am confident as a person and in the job I am currently doing.  My issues with aggression are from events in my past that I haven't been able to fully recover from, and I don't know if I really want to.  I do subscribe to the theory that I am responsible for how I feel and how I let things affect me so I am the only one to blame for this.  When I comes down to it, I think I am a good person and want to always be a good person.  I don't know where I want to be in 5 years and I don't know where life will take me.  I had plans and aspirations in the past and tried my hardest but failed.  I now live day to day and am fine with how things are going at the moment, things could be better but I have been through worse.  

I think I just need some advice or someone to help me figure out how to keep being a nice guy but still get people to understand that success isn't all about money and fancy things to me.  I am successful in my own way.  I have friends and family who care for me and an amazing girlfriend who stands beside me through good and bad.  That is success.

 

Sorry for the long rant.  I just had to get my thoughts out of my head on this issue.    

Link to comment
Share on other sites
TronRP Grand Master

TronRP

Posted
Posted

Now I think I really am nervous about going to sleep or taking naps. Every time I close my eyes, I wake up to a text regarding a new change in our situation that affects everyone. This is really getting annoying and making me paranoid about finally getting chances to rest.

Maybe I should just stop getting full sleep altogether and that way I won't have to feel so shocked because I will be expecting it.

Link to comment
Share on other sites
kat Mentor

kat (1)

Posted
Posted

My daughter just walked in the house after she got off work her and her friend hit the usually coney spot, she came in all nervous and excited like, um, do you like Social Distortion? Cause I think I just blew Mike Ness off! Lol, apparently they were at the coney cause there up here touring and must like coney food, I guess the waitress in the coney asked if they were in a band and he said yes, well my daughter and her friend were outside, Mike Ness came up to her, for some odd reason like do you like Social Distortion? She had no idea who he was and said, " their ok"...lol...

She realized when her and her friend started googling pics of the band what just happened! Her face was soo redred when she came home. Poor baby;)

Link to comment
Share on other sites
  • TronRP locked this topic
  • TronRP unpinned and pinned this topic
  • TronRP unpinned this topic
  • TronRP pinned this topic
Guest
This topic is now closed to further replies.
 Share
Go to topic listing

  • Forum Statistics

    38.9k
    Total Topics
    820.2k
    Total Posts

  • Who's Online   0 Members, 0 Anonymous, 28 Guests (See full list)

    • There are no registered users currently online

  • Topics

  • Posts

    • TronRP
      who's online...

      By TronRP · Posted

      12:00am - Who's Online   1 Member, 0 Anonymous, 39 Guests (See full list) TronRP
    • TronRP
      How Are You Feeling? (cont'd)

      By TronRP · Posted

      Feeling happy to report that my neighbor and her cat are now back together.  I build her fur baby an indoor Cat Run and now the cat and her 3 kittens have been moved in.  I told my neighbor to make sure the little ones stay with their mother for at least 3 days in their new environment before she starts letting people handle and take the babies away.    I wish she would keep at least one of the 3 kittens, but apparently they are all already spoken for.
    • TronRP
      who's online...

      By TronRP · Posted

      9:55pm - Who's Online   1 Member, 0 Anonymous, 18 Guests (See full list) TronRP
    • Scary Guy
      Trump is president....again

      By Scary Guy · Posted

      Well it happened, understandably but it still sucks.  I hated them both so I was going to be unhappy either way, but I do admit I hate Trump slightly more because of the narcissism, egomania, xenophobia, and misogyny.  On top of that that insufferable base of his who think that they are free to act the same way now that he's won.  The apologetics from them were horrible too where they handwaved away legitimate criticisms, and mocking those who brought them with "orange man bad!"   The one good thing to come out of this is punk music is going to absolutely rock for the next few years.  However I really just have one question... https://www.loudersound.com/features/andrew-eldritch-sisters-of-mercy-will-make-another-album-if-trump-is-elected IT'S HAPPENED TWICE NOW ANDY, WHERE'S OUR FUCKIN' ALBUM‽ Well, I guess at least I'll get to keep my guns.
    • cthulhu63
      All Souls Day - goth event in Muskegon

      By cthulhu63 · Posted

      All Souls Day - 11/2/2024 - Setlist “Anything Can Happen on Halloween” - Tim Curry (The Worst Witch soundtrack) “Bella Lugosi's Dead” - Bauhaus “Every Day is Halloween” - Ministry “Halloween” - Siouxsie and the Banshees “Witches” - Switchblade Symphony “Now I'm Feeling Zombified” - Alien Sex Fiend “Cuts You Up” - Peter Murphy “Night of the Vampire” - Entombed “My Boy Builds Coffins” (Demo-Alternative Version) - Florence and the Machine “Spooky” - Classics IV “Gypsy Woman” - Cherlene “A Short Term Effect” - The Cure “I Put a Spell on You” - Bette Midler “She’s in Parties” - Bauhaus “Dominion/Mother Russia” - Sisters of Mercy “Toxic” (Goth Remix) - Brittany Spears “Goo Goo Muck” - The Cramps “Black Celebration” Depeche Mode “If I Was Your Vampire” - Marilyn Manson “When the Freaks Come Out” - Faderhead “Sin City” (KMFDM Remix) - Genitorturers “Red Right Hand” (Mojo Filter Remix) - Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds “Out of Control” - She Wants Revenge “Closer” - Nine Inch Nails “Castle” (Goth Edit) - Halsey “Boyfriend” (Goth Edit) - Dove Cameron “Glory Box” - Portishead “S&M” (Goth Remix) - Rihanna “Tear You Apart” - She Wants Revenge “Wasteland” - The Mission UK “Marilyn, My Bitterness” - Crüxshadows “Beloved” - VNV Nation “Mouth” - Bush “Darkangel” - VNV Nation “Thriller” - Michael Jackson “Send Me an Angel” - Real Life “Death by a Thousand Cuts” - Imminence (request) “Dust to Gold” - The Sad Hour (request) “Bummer” - Scarling (request) “Witch House No 2” - ZoZoZombie “Cities in Dust” - Siouxsie and the Banshees “Running Up That Hill” - Placebo “Summertime Sadness” - Blvk Ceiling “Love Like Blood” - Killing Joke “Sunglasses At Night” - Tiga and Zyntherius “Anything Can Happen on Halloween” - Tim Curry (The Worst Witch soundtrack) “Stripped” - Shiny Toy Guns “Desire (Come and Get It)” - Gene Loves Jezebel “Ghosts” - John Murphy (request) “Closing Time” - (Leonard Cohen cover) - Duncan McKenzie
×
×
  • Create New...

Important Information

By using this site, you agree to our Terms of Use.

  I accept