kat (1) Posted September 5, 2015 Report Share Posted September 5, 2015 I'm thinking there's a post missing here....*peeks around* I am notorious for posting aand later retracting Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TronRP Posted September 5, 2015 Report Share Posted September 5, 2015 I wonder how long I can hold on to these positive vibes I'm rocking at the moment. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TronRP Posted September 5, 2015 Report Share Posted September 5, 2015 It appears that Microsoft may have uploaded a file that causes computers, that have not yet upgraded, to restart every day and a half. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Trene4000 Posted September 5, 2015 Report Share Posted September 5, 2015 I use my dreams to escape from reality. Always have. They take the stress off so that when its time to deal with reality I am not bowled over and wrecked. This last dream destroyed that. It dragged reality into my dreamscape. Every time I close my eyes or even blink I see her limp corpse sitting there in front of me, my hands on her shoulders. I feel trapped. I have no place to escape to in order to rest and regroup. I can't do this anymore. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kat (1) Posted September 5, 2015 Report Share Posted September 5, 2015 I use my dreams to escape from reality. Always have. They take the stress off so that when its time to deal with reality I am not bowled over and wrecked. This last dream destroyed that. It dragged reality into my dreamscape. Every time I close my eyes or even blink I see her limp corpse sitting there in front of me, my hands on her shoulders. I feel trapped. I have no place to escape to in order to rest and regroup. I can't do this anymore. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Corvus Posted September 5, 2015 Report Share Posted September 5, 2015 I use my dreams to escape from reality. Always have. They take the stress off so that when its time to deal with reality I am not bowled over and wrecked. This last dream destroyed that. It dragged reality into my dreamscape. Every time I close my eyes or even blink I see her limp corpse sitting there in front of me, my hands on her shoulders. I feel trapped. I have no place to escape to in order to rest and regroup. I can't do this anymore. we are all here for you Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kat (1) Posted September 7, 2015 Report Share Posted September 7, 2015 I think my neighbors on the other side of me are having a domestic disagreement. I think I will leave, go for a drive, go to the park, something. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TronRP Posted September 8, 2015 Report Share Posted September 8, 2015 With all the interesting dreams we have been having, I think our mother is trying to tell us something. In my opinion, she has already left us mentally, however, her body is still physically strong due to the fact that the cancer has not completely compromised her vital functions. I look at her and do not see her. Her body is running on automatic stimulus, but I feel compelled to keep it as comfortable as possible. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kat (1) Posted September 8, 2015 Report Share Posted September 8, 2015 With all the interesting dreams we have been having, I think our mother is trying to tell us something. In my opinion, she has already left us mentally, however, her body is still physically strong due to the fact that the cancer has not completely compromised her vital functions. I look at her and do not see her. Her body is running on automatic stimulus, but I feel compelled to keep it as comfortable as possible. We really need to talk/get together. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TronRP Posted September 8, 2015 Report Share Posted September 8, 2015 (edited) I think I need a major nap now...but maybe after I eat some breakfast. Edited September 8, 2015 by TronRP Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kat (1) Posted September 8, 2015 Report Share Posted September 8, 2015 Commmeeee on! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TronRP Posted September 9, 2015 Report Share Posted September 9, 2015 Why the heck would someone play a speaker that loud this late at night. And I had just gotten comfortable after battling a stubborn migraine all day... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TronRP Posted September 9, 2015 Report Share Posted September 9, 2015 Feeling quite delirious. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TronRP Posted September 10, 2015 Report Share Posted September 10, 2015 I NEED A NAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TronRP Posted September 11, 2015 Report Share Posted September 11, 2015 I can't believe they finally found a medication that will allow Okaasan to get some sleep. My main concern, however, is it makes her body react like it has rigor mor´tis. Her joints completely lock up, but once she wakes up a bit, she is able to move herself. I just hope that is the only side effect. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kat (1) Posted September 12, 2015 Report Share Posted September 12, 2015 I think I am going to get dressed, put on some makeup and go karaoke at Stray Cats. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Michael8402 Posted September 12, 2015 Report Share Posted September 12, 2015 I think I am going to get dressed, put on some makeup and go karaoke at Stray Cats. I miss going to Karaoke. My favorite bar back home had karaoke every Sunday and my buddies and I used to always go. My friends used to sign me up to sing songs from the Rocky Horror Picture Show. It's funny how many people get excited when you start singing Sweet Transvestite. lol Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kat (1) Posted September 12, 2015 Report Share Posted September 12, 2015 I miss going to Karaoke. My favorite bar back home had karaoke every Sunday and my buddies and I used to always go. My friends used to sign me up to sing songs from the Rocky Horror Picture Show. It's funny how many people get excited when you start singing Sweet Transvestite. lol well Tron and I like karaoke so maybe we could all arrange a thing. Stray Cats is kinda at alternative so you here a lot of different genre's. It's a good crowd. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TronRP Posted September 12, 2015 Report Share Posted September 12, 2015 I think Hospice of Michigan finally got a medication that allows Okaasan to get some sleep. I hope it means she is not in pain. It's nice to not hear her moaning for hours. It's the little things that help with peace of mind. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kat (1) Posted September 12, 2015 Report Share Posted September 12, 2015 I have been advocating and all about anti stigma my whole life but this has me questioning my entire belief system. We enable we don't empower. That's not what I signed up for. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kat (1) Posted September 13, 2015 Report Share Posted September 13, 2015 I have been wanting to check this church out for awhile now, I think it may fit me. I think I may go tomorrow morning. http://unitychapel.homestead.com Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
creatureofthenyte Posted September 13, 2015 Report Share Posted September 13, 2015 I'm really tired. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TronRP Posted September 13, 2015 Report Share Posted September 13, 2015 I think I have gone as far as I can with all these loose ends for now. Think I'll start again after first light. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kat (1) Posted September 13, 2015 Report Share Posted September 13, 2015 I told my daughter last night I want to move, we get what we pay for and for 650 a month we are getting yea a good city but you have to have money to live here or you get the kind of people around you like, bless her heart, the woman next door..next time, if I have to pay more than half my income for rent I will, its worth it for peace. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kat (1) Posted September 13, 2015 Report Share Posted September 13, 2015 I need to do something. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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