What Are You Thinking?

[kat (1)]

Actually, I've decided I will not work in mental health anymore and, even though I am going to be back at work Thursday I am looking into foster care jobs I have an interview with a foster care agency in Troy Monday. It would be a slight pay cut but I really have no options for the area I live in and come April if I don't sit for my full SW license exam, which is stupid for a Bachelors level and most states don't require all that unless you are a clinical therapist anyway. I can work back in the justice system and not have to have license just because my degree along with CE is sufficient. Besides, I got in this for the kids when I think about the core values that lead me to SW in the first place my biggest fear however is not being able to go back to work at all I'm really praying that that I can do it.

[Troy Spiral (13)]

Actually, I've decided I will not work in mental health anymore and, even though I am going to be back at work Thursday I am looking into foster care jobs I have an interview with a foster care agency in Troy Monday. It would be a slight pay cut but I really have no options for the area I live in and come April if I don't sit for my full SW license exam, which is stupid for a Bachelors level and most states don't require all that unless you are a clinical therapist anyway. I can work back in the justice system and not have to have license just because my degree along with CE is sufficient. Besides, I got in this for the kids when I think about the core values that lead me to SW in the first place my biggest fear however is not being able to go back to work at all I'm really praying that that I can do it.

You can only do what you can do.  That last fear there .... don't feel like you failed or something if you end up not being able to handle the work for health reasons.  It sucks , I know well (not being able to work) but whatever is going to happen, will happen.   Try not to worry yourself about things over and over there is no benefit to that for you.  I know its easier said than done.  

[Troy Spiral (13)]

Still feeling sick / tired all the time, but doing better in the last day or so. The main thing that I'm concerned about has nothing to do with getting better, it's just  hard to explain to everyone you know all at one time why your not getting back to them and such or doing A or B , many are too polite to ask, others just don't ask if anyting is wrong because  they just figure you don't care enough.  

Edited December 6, 2015 by Troy Spiral

[kat (1)]

You can only do what you can do.  That last fear there .... don't feel like you failed or something if you end up not being able to handle the work for health reasons.  It sucks , I know well (not being able to work) but whatever is going to happen, will happen.   Try not to worry yourself about things over and over there is no benefit to that for you.  I know its easier said than done.  

Thank you, I am hoping that the EEG isn't going to be too bad. I'm anxiously awaiting the results. The biggest problem I am having is that the lights, especially at night are blinding me and making my stomach nauseated. The depression is weird too, like I have always had mood issues but this is sooo different. It's hard to explain. I have to leave so early to get to Monroe that it's still dark and because we work 10 hours 4 days a week I am driving home in the dark as well. Even if it wasn't the licensing issue that is making me try to get another job the fact is I still can't see to drive such a long distance, so I will have to live close to where I work and I can't live in Monroe, my daughter is in school in Detroit, getting this foster care job would be idea because I can get out of the Southern part of Wayne county and move closer to the metro area, and hopefully even get a cheaper apartment, if I can get in with this agency I have a greater area in terms of places to move to to choose from. Also, I don't know anyone Downriver, so I'm isolated. I feel like I need to be around people, not people trying to come get high at my apartment who I don't even know. 

I do know that the only way I will work in mental health again is if it is more advocate and empowerment based, like I wouldn't mind going to homeless outreach again or trying my hand at Employment and Vocational Coordination.

God, is it sad I talk about career moves on here or what. #Supportsystem

Edited December 6, 2015 by kat

[TronRP]

Flippin' Stinkin' Hilarious!!! Not even my DHS caseworker has clearance to help me with any form of assistance and the government has my "affordable" healthcare case tied up in the proverbial "Red Tape"!

Apparently I'm a rich little poor girl...

[kat (1)]

Weirdo. I was just dreaming about something and it involved my daughter having McDonald's chicken nuggets and I woke up and she walks in the house about the same time and started eating McDonald's chicken nuggets. 

[TronRP]

I forgot how tedious it was leaving product feedback...especially when you review multiple items in a single day...brain, brain dead idiot...

[Troy Spiral (13)]

Thinking I'm a failure at DGN.  A bad bought of depression/social anxiety hit me and I just had to stay away from almost everything for awhile.   Better now, but its very frustrating.   I am sorry.  :(

[kat (1)]

Thinking I'm a failure at DGN.  A bad bought of depression/social anxiety hit me and I just had to stay away from almost everything for awhile.   Better now, but its very frustrating.   I am sorry.  :(

glad that you are better.

[kat (1)]

I am Jack's expired bipolar meds.

[Troy Spiral (13)]

glad that you are better.

thanks

[kat (1)]

Ahh, OK. No worries. No stressing. Do what you think is best.

[kat (1)]

I have to confess, I know I am a freak but I have never been able to wink in my entire life. I feel so inferior.

[TronRP]

I knew I was busy, but I didn't think I was that busy. Apparently, it took 2.5 weeks before I noticed that I had stopped receiving DGN notifications. It had been all I could to keep my eyes open after 8pm, but after dealing with all the added responsibilities these past 5 days, I've finally gotten my stamina up to a more active level.

[kat (1)]

Finally,, after all these months it takes my ENT to say, um...why has nobody given you a sleep study? You fell asleep driving, you aren't going through REM sleep properly and you've had sleep paralysis all this time? 

He was just as puzzled as me but he ordered it and I go January 19th. I already think I have narcolepsy but he thinks it's breathing related, sleep apnea, I don't think I have sleep apnea I don't really snore, rather I actually stop moving all together and fight with something that is not there to try and release my body body, it's like something is grabbing me and doesn't want to let me leave, I mean if I could have a theme song and video while having an episode it would be this: 

https://youtu.be/AX-MyKQlndo

Edited December 24, 2015 by kat

[kat (1)]

My daughter has been asking me about what area her uncle lives in VA. She than said she wanted to go there, than she said actually I want to go to NYC. She has been talking about this a bit lately. I think she is really starting to focus on her decision to get into theatre the further she gets involved in her college classes and doing her theatre assignments. They already have her working on productions and she just finished her first semester. She really is getting into this. There is a production on Broadway now about Alexander Hamilton, which looks just, epic. She is bummed because the cost of tickets and the fact that it takes almost a year before they bring it to Michigan. The shitty tickets are 600 dollar's though!

[Troy Spiral (13)]

600 dollars?  Holy shit.  FUuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck that. 

 

Been to NYC 3 times , has neat "stuff" there but the people are dicks. Chicago is much nicer. 

[kat (1)]

600 dollars?  Holy shit.  FUuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck that. 

 

Been to NYC 3 times , has neat "stuff" there but the people are dicks. Chicago is much nicer. 

I never been to either: (

[kat (1)]

Kudos to anyone who was out in retail hell today and did not attempt homicide. Great job, folks.

[kat (1)]

Also, appearantly it takes people great skill and intelligence to not mow someone down with a grocery cart, also it is really appreciated when people use those old fashioned words grandma and grandpa used to tell us about, you know things like, excuse me, thank you, I'm sorry, etc....

I mean, I know that the world is different now but I am pretty sure that it's still acceptable and hell, some of us actually value that, oh silly old fashioned me though. I am surely a dreamer though...

(Here's a tip, rude people should never anger polite ones, it will be addressed immediately and if I have to put you on blast as you walk by rudely with you're five children all spread out and YOU as a parent do not teach them proper get the fuck out of everyones way etiquette, well ya know I will probably throw a hint at you;) You're welcome.

[Michael8402]

Just got home from work and showered.  It was a long 12 hour day in dish.  We had a few catering gigs go out early so I had all the prep dish from that and then over 300 resos for dinner.  We closed at 8 but that is a lot of dish for one dish person to wash even with one cook helping to put it away.  I think I am ready to curl up in a ball and cry from all the sore muscles now.

[TronRP]

Ha Ha...of course I can't access my email account. I got too complacent with all the changes MSN has been making to laptops and mobile devices that I thought myself safe...oh well, I will have to think of something. 

[kat (1)]

I think I'm going to go to Lakewood, NJ for this opportunity thing. Idk its kinda scary to think about leaving but I can't be afraid forever that is just going to hold me back.

Edited December 28, 2015 by kat

[Troy Spiral (13)]

On 12/28/2015 at 9:38 PM, TronRP said:

Ha Ha...of course I can't access my email account. I got too complacent with all the changes MSN has been making to laptops and mobile devices that I thought myself safe...oh well, I will have to think of something. 

wow that sucks.  If it doesn't have any backup security questions or an alternate email to send you a reset password link (if thats the problem)  I'd suggest starting a gmail account (especially if you have an android phone).  Won't fix the missing emails though :(   If you do make a new email account and need it to be changed on DGN i can just change it for you manually. 

[Troy Spiral (13)]

9 hours ago, kat said:

I think I'm going to go to Lakewood, NJ for this opportunity thing. Idk its kinda scary to think about leaving but I can't be afraid forever that is just going to hold me back.

Fear does screw us out of a lot of things.  :(   But.. But... the time-space distortion and sadness created by Kat leaving michigan would be horrific for the rest of us!  Gotta factor that in.  *worried*