What Are You Thinking?

[kat (1)]

1 hour ago, Troy Spiral said:

I manage to squeeze blood out of turnips every month to pay the -200 that I'm in the hole every month by BUSTING MY ASS (its hard to see since you know you cant "see" insomnia/PTSD/TBIs . That's no "extra" money, just the basic bills (not including gas).   Starting next month it will be 325+). Checking out is becoming more attractive.  120 bucks being that big a deal. Illogical? Yes.  The PTSD/Depression doesn't seem to give a shit.   I've been fighting it for (4?) years, since the last time, running out of ideas.   I've got the lowest possible car insurance (litterally).  The lowest possible health insurance (litterally).  I'm not sure I want to keep this shit up every single day, day in and day out anymore.   Problem is I've already done my "homework" on how to get the job done (that used to stop me).  (purposely have a gun that isn't realistic to use) Ugh.  Oh well.  I'll just keep at it I guess.  

Hugs. I want you to know that you are important and how you feel matters whether it is logical to you or not, you need to know that you are validated here<3

 

[TronRP]

I think I embarrassed myself trying to be a good samaritan. I just wanted to treat everyone to a few hours of "no worries" before having to return to the harshness of "the real world". It's hard knowing how to navigate proper "friendship" edicate when you've never really had any outside friends...

[Class-Punk]

On 7/14/2016 at 8:48 AM, TronRP said:

...I know I'm dyslexic, but is the above post , by Class-Punk, in English...

That's my pokemon ebonics. 

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I've hatched two Abras, so I either need to catch two or hatch another one and then I have something nobody around me has..

Edited July 21, 2016 by Class-Punk

[Troy Spiral (13)]

That it's stupid getting more deeply depressed/suicidal than I have been in half a decade over the government raising my already (barely) possible to pay bills by 100 ish a month soon. basically forever now.

The car will be the first thing to go. :(  No were else to get it this health  from. Screwing most all my future plans (need a vehicle) Back to being a hermit soon. But that's not really anything new. Just new-ish.

 

 

[kat (1)]

I was debating on if I would be bad if I took my 13 year old to see the Purge 3, he watches scary movies with me and his dad is a Stephen King person lol so naturally it has not been a problem for him, his dad said he was fine with him seeing it too. My son actually wants to see it and when I said you realize it is more realistic scary not.. and he said "yea, I seen the first one and it can't be any scarier than this election."

Well, than. Ok.

Edited July 23, 2016 by kat

[kat (1)]

I am thinking that today was great. I am grateful for my kids, we went to the movies, to eat, than it was already 7 and then me and April cruised Telegraph and I kept laughing hysterically at everything. She is still messing with me about my giggles. Lol

[creatureofthenyte]

Lots to do. Don't know where to start.

[kat (1)]

I can't sleep because I just can't stop thinking, really serious about everything and how I am so fed up with the way I have been, apparently I have done everything so wrong. At one point things were not this ridiculous. What can I do now, I can't live like feeling that this is all so pointless. I need a purpose, I feel that there is something, there has to be.

[TronRP]

YATTA!!!!!

Done with everything I can do for right now....the rest will have to wait until offices open later this morning. 

[phee]

"Scared... you really are?"

"I'm not scared."

"Then what are you?"

[Trene4000]

I know that they're trying to save money even in the medical field but when the surgeon closes you up using staples and glue it's time to rethink your medical care package.

[Trene4000]

How interesting the human brain is. I weighed myself yesterday evening. I kept staring at the scale where it said 200 but the arrow was on the right. I honestly couldn't figure out how to read it. Suddenly it dawned on me that it said "ONE" hundred ninety-five. I had been over 200 pounds for so long that I was having a tough time remembering what it looked like to be under.

[sekhmet2002]

I really need to get off my ass and do Uber. I just can't seem to wake up. *sigh*

[kat (1)]

Today was weird. I felt....

Edited July 31, 2016 by kat

[Trene4000]

I can be such a scatter brain.

[kat (1)]

The maintenance guy stares at me like he wants to...... anyway, he was knocking on the door earlier and I wasn't going to answer it and when I did he was in the middle of slipping a note with his phone number through the door Than he tried to be all smooth like alright well, you know well I'll let you get back to whatever you were doing...(or something)

I swear this is sounding like a porn setup.

[TitsMcGee]

I don't know if I can do this anymore

[phee]

It matters not, all needs are just noise, noise that just makes us deaf.

[Troy Spiral (13)]

something needs to change.

[kat (1)]

I highly recommend people know how to properly use a firearm. If you are in a position where all hell breaks loose, it is probably a good idea to familiarize yourself.... consider it like a fire extinguisher...

[TronRP]

I think it would be nice if everything goes smoothly this evening and we have fun at the birthday party and our sister gets the chance to meet DGNers...Red Apple Regulars and those who are able to pop in for a bit.

Hint Hint...kat...

[Trene4000]

SHE'S LATE!!!

[Trene4000]

FOOD!!!

[Troy Spiral (13)]

On 8/4/2016 at 0:46 AM, kat said:

I highly recommend people know how to properly use a firearm. If you are in a position where all hell breaks loose, it is probably a good idea to familiarize yourself.... consider it like a fire extinguisher...

Excet one that is locked away in a "responsible gun owner" safe.   Renders them almost useless.  So to be a responsible gun owner I have to (mostly) keep my guns in places were they do me no good... and I'd have to be like "WAIT RIGHT THERE MOTHER FUCKER... while i open my gun safe....  "  lol

For them to be of "real" use , it would need to be MUCH more common to carry them around and in places (and not get kicked out for it) as 90% of the time you don't  even have ready access to a firearm if you do the "safe and responsible" route.   

 

Its sort of a safety vs freedom issue more than anything.   Most people want to be "safe" from firearms, so the gun laws restrict guns into near uselessness (if you really did everything they want you to do to be "responsible") thus due to someone's desire for "safety" gun owners have less "freedom".   Been a trade off like that since before the country was founded.    A famous saying back  I think even before the  revolution was (paraphrase)  "those willing to trade freedom for safety deserve neither".

 

I think that's a litte overly simplistic since most everyone would be willing to trade some TINY freedom for some huge increase in safety.  But that is exactly how we "evolved" into the society we have now....  we slowly gave our rights away to bare certain arms for more perceived "safety" till we are in a position now were the whole reason we have the right to bare arms in the first place (defence against a tyrannical government if necessary) is utterly useless.   Anyone wanna use a state-of-the-(consumer) art .45    vs a  heat seeking drone formation ?    I hope not.    Gets convoluted/confusing.    Easiest argument is just "I WANT MY GUNS"!.  

[Troy Spiral (13)]

I'm too restricted, mostly due to my own BS (or things that I LET happen and now I'm stuck-ish).