Have you ever..

[Soulrev]

Had a problem where you couldn't stop loving someone, even though you fuckin hated them for what they've done to you?

[Homicidalheathen]

Love to hate, hate to love. The line gets so blurred at times. Yes. I am going through this right now with two people.

I should count my blessings that I even have two worthy people to be so enthrawled with at my age.

But....sometimes love sucks. If someone wasn't all that he wouldn't be worth the trouble.

She must be good at something or you wouldn't hold on so tight.....

Had a problem where you couldn't stop loving someone, even though you fuckin hated them for what they've done to you?

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[Scary Guy]

There is a bell curve there. Love and hate are both high on it with the middle "apathy" part being low.

Also yeah I know EXACTLY how you feel. Well maybe not exact. I love her for what could have been and hate the fact that it never was.

[mallochai]

YES! Ugh... It makes me feel so fucking stupid... but it's hard to let go of the things that were good, even if they aren't good now, and you know you have to.

Heh, oh well, sometimes you have to try to let that motivate you though. I'm letting it motivate me towards making myself more awesome so he feels like he lost out. Cause he did. And he always will. *practices self love of the back patting kind*

[Morbid Side]

I've been through this before. My ex g/f and I had a love-hate relationship. Our romance was hot in the sack but cold to the touch; we couldn't see eye-to-eye on anything. I was black she was white; our differences kept me from telling her things I knew she would find faults at. I always made sure to be understanding, and listen to her, and give her the support she needed..but it was never enough. After all, I decide to get away from her and no matter how good she was in the sack it didn't make up for the fact that she was a kneiving jezzebel..

Now the only thing I can recommend to you is you need to have a heart to heart talk just to see if everything is where it's supposed to be and then if not you won't be hurt in the end because honestly, who likes being hurt? i'm sick of feeling hurt...just you two should pick up the pieces and communicate a little more and then see where you stand then...if u still love her that deeply then u can take the abuse, but if not move on..and erase her from your past

I don't hand sympathy out so I feel your pain, I don't need pity whenever I think and discuss my ex and I.

Good luck dude..I hope it all works out.

[Soulrev]

I do just need to get away from her. . . She's too confused and too immature right now. Can't deal with this kind of shit she puts me through.. I can't take it anymore, maybe I'll meet a nice girl at CC this weekend so I can forget about Kristina.

[Soulrev]

let me just say what I've been through here recently..

We were talking every day while I was still in Laramie and we were going to get back together once I got home..

So the day I left for my 18 hour drive home I got a voicemail from her saying she didn't want to be with me anymore.. She's done this shit 100 times before, we'd be together then all of the sudden she'd call it off.. She told me the day before she sent this voicemail that she loved me.. Heh right..

So I sent her a big e-mail basically saying I'm not going to deal with it anymore and that she obviously lied to me about loving me because she wouldn't have done what she did.. That was about 5 days ago when I sent the e-mail and haven't heard anything back, then again she probably didn't get the e-mail yet because she doesn't check it very often.

I told her I'm never calling her again that if she wants to be with me or even talk to me again she's going to have to call me because I AM NOT WASTING ONE MORE FUCKING SECOND on her until she grows the fuck up.

God damn it I'm mother fucking PISSED at her.. I wish I never met her.. (I said that in the e-mail too)

Why do I always get fucked over? Always.. Maybe if I weren't so ugly I could meet someone, but oh well I guess God likes to get his laughs at me. Fuck everything.

[Guest Game of Chance]

Maybe if I weren't so ugly I could meet someone, but oh well I guess God likes to get his laughs at me. Fuck everything.

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It took me a long time to realize it dude, but seriously, you don't need looks to meet someone. Just confidence. And being social helps. Good luck bro.

[CirceDragonus]

Love and Hate are two very strong emotions that I'm slightly to selfish with my energy to invest my time in. But you if ya want to chat with someone ever, I offer my services. Nobody loves or hates me, so I'm pretty neutral and easy going. People that do that kind of stuff to someone else suck. *Hugz*

[Soulrev]

So I went to her open house because she invited me and my friends were going to be there (Shaun - her brother, and my friend Rob)

But guess who was there? Her current loser boyfriend. So she started getting pissed at ME because I wasn't hanging out with her, I was hanging out with my friends.. I told her she shouldn't have even invited me if that dumb ass was going to be there.

And her dad? This is funny.. Her dad has never liked me, but Shaun told me he said "Is Kristina having a problem with Brian?" and Shaun said "Yeah she's just being dumb" and I guess their dad said "Well she told me she told Brian to leave" and Shaun said "Well she invited him over here when she has that dumbass new boyfriend of hers over" and he said "Well she just needs to shut up then" and Shaun told me his dad finally realizes I'm a good guy and actually likes me now..

But yeah she's just being stupid for some reason. Why the fuck would I want to hang out with her when she has that dipshit over? It was the most uncomfortable feeling. So those posts about murdering someone, they're about him. Heh.

She'll regret it though because they'll break up and she'll have to work with him every day (they both work at Wendy's) and I don't want to fuckin hear about it either.

Time to go take some anger out in Call of Duty and kill everything that moves..

[Soulrev]

Ok people here's the deal..

I know that they're going to break up and eventually she's going to call me or I will end up seeing her when I'm at her house visiting Shaun.. And she'll probably start flirting with me and off we go..

Anyway..

What should I do? Would I be crazy to take her back?

I'm asking myself, "Do I really love her that much? Do I really want to get back with her, after all the things she's put me through? Do I really want to chance having it happen again? Or .. Maybe she's going to finally grow up and stop this shit"..

I think if I get her back this time it might be for good. Just because I've seen my past mistakes with her I know I can be better. I haven't been with her for 9 months, since I went to Wyoming for school, and the only reason I'm not with her now is because she met that jackhole before I came home from school. So I know she didn't ditch me for him, but then again she knew I was coming home, so why couldn't she wait?

But I just don't know. Is there a possibility that if you love someone so much that you just can't say enough is enough? That no matter what you keep trying because you care? That sounds like obsession, and that scares me..

Maybe I'm just getting hung up on "our future" that I had thought about so many times before. Maybe I just can't let go of what I want to become of us.

I think it's a good sign that even her dad slightly likes me now. For those of you who have been listening to my saga for the past year, I'm sure you know her father didn't like me at all for the longest time.

Am I crazy and insane? Or am I just hopelessly in love? What should I do?

PS- sorry if this sounds scatterbrained because that's how I feel right now...

[Sybil]

Ok people here's the deal..

I know that they're going to break up and eventually she's going to call me or I will end up seeing her when I'm at her house visiting Shaun.. And she'll probably start flirting with me and off we go..

Anyway..

What should I do? Would I be crazy to take her back?

I'm asking myself, "Do I really love her that much? Do I really want to get back with her, after all the things she's put me through? Do I really want to chance having it happen again? Or .. Maybe she's going to finally grow up and stop this shit"..

I think if I get her back this time it might be for good. Just because I've seen my past mistakes with her I know I can be better. I haven't been with her for 9 months, since I went to Wyoming for school, and the only reason I'm not with her now is because she met that jackhole before I came home from school. So I know she didn't ditch me for him, but then again she knew I was coming home, so why couldn't she wait?

But I just don't know. Is there a possibility that if you love someone so much that you just can't say enough is enough? That no matter what you keep trying because you care? That sounds like obsession, and that scares me..

Maybe I'm just getting hung up on "our future" that I had thought about so many times before. Maybe I just can't let go of what I want to become of us.

I think it's a good sign that even her dad slightly likes me now. For those of you who have been listening to my saga for the past year, I'm sure you know her father didn't like me at all for the longest time.

Am I crazy and insane? Or am I just hopelessly in love? What should I do?

PS- sorry if this sounds scatterbrained because that's how I feel right now...

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love isnt hopeless..

is love worth putting ego/pride on the "back burner"?

you cannot change her, you can only be true to who you are and what you feel and if SHE is crazy enough to not love you back, then her loss..

(this was going to be a long rant but i am keeping it light for you for starters)

[Soulrev]

Hehe well I'm looking for as much guidance as possible so go ahead and speak your mind.

She called me tonight.. I didn't answer. I figured if it was important enough she'd leave a voicemail, but she didn't.. Maybe I'll think about calling her back tomorrow.