thy heart

[alaska sunrise]

some say that departing is what makes you see what you need to survive....to live and to build pride...i had what i needed not just wanted but needed to stay alive..to breath and collect air , oh now how i dispize any guy who trys to individualize upon what i grew to love...

oh how she was a part of my world that i held so dear to my heart, and now that shes gone..i dont plan on a new start, nor shall i ever recover from the death that i currently endure, for her love i long forever more...

and i understand that the guy shall encourage her to fall for him and treat her well, but death is upon you sir, for you will be living in hell...for i say hell because i will curse you from today foward, i do not fear any man who says anything to me for a time shall come when you beleive you have the world and the world will run away, become astray or simpily dismay....

i said my vows to the deepest part of my heart, the deepest part of my soul that i imagined would grow old...for my friend, i have changed, for better or worse, but he still doesnt take me under thy hearse...

for thy kingdom come, i shall be done...i gave her my love and imagined thy son that we were having and he took once more...just to laugh in my face and throw me back to shore....for i do not believe ever again, nor shall i wish for another woman to defend....only once in your life does the love strike from above, then turns us into a shadow..a spitten image of hated love.....no man could nor shall ever walk through my feet, for i laid down death just so she could sit in my seat...and because i have died, and only seek defeat...i look foward to that ride to bury me beneath....beneath the ruins, or spread my ashes in the air, this is a letter to anyone who cares...do not cry, do not weep, you've done this for me, you've made me realize how I can finally see....that I am living to die, without your love, i bleed......

[Homicidalheathen]

~sigh~

that was beautiful. *sniff*

[alaska sunrise]

~sigh~

that was beautiful. *sniff*

thanks..im hopeing the skies will hear me soon...too depressed to take pills , to emotional to kill...im frozen beneath my free will...