Feelings

[Draco1958]

My life was in a downward spiral

spinning faster and faster

I felt so alone

like nothing mattered

no one cared

Then you came into my life

just as a friend

someone who saw something special in me

made me feel important again

wanted and at times needed

We found common ground

Helped each other see how special we are

We laughed, cryed and bitched to each other

We defended each other's feelings

Then one day I realized

Just how much your smile and voice meant to me

How much you made a difference in my life

How just your voice or smile could make the worst day seem good

Then I realized how much I wanted you in my life

How much I wanted to share with you

How much I missed you when you were gone

Then you went away

And I cryed

Cryed myself to sleep

Knowing I wouldn't hear your voice

Or see your beautiful smile the next day

And my life was empty again

All was lost, hollow, had no meaning

Everything I did reminded me of you

And I would cry

Then you were back

The sun shined and the birds sang

All was right with the world

For a moment

I need you

Want you as a part of my life

However it can work

I want to try

I want to be your special friend

When you need it

To help you in times others can't

In a special way only we can share

I like doing all the nice things I do for you

I just want to be able to do more

To help in certain times

To be that special someone you can fall back on

The one you know will always have your back

Won't betray or use you

Won't ruin the good things you have

But help make them better, stronger

To share our inner needs, weaknesses

And strengthen them with love and understanding

To always have someone special to fall back on

In times when we need a shoulder or more

I will always love you

Be there for you

Have your back

Support you with those you love

Even though my heart will always break

Wishing we could be more

Wondering if I am not worthy of you

Crying myself to sleep once more

[Draco1958]

I wrote this because I have a hard time expressing my feelings in person. I am hoping a special someone reads it and can see how truthful I am being. I want her in my life but more than just as a friend. I just hope she can see that. trust me babe, my promise on my mother's ashes to never mess you over is very true. Means the same as if you made that promise on a certain someone's grave. Please believe me, I want to be that special someone you believe you need right now.

[Homicidalheathen]

I totally hear Trent Reznor singing this.

[fuckmerunning]

I totally hear Trent Reznor singing this.

Too bad he doesn't sing anymore.. ):

[Draco1958]

Don't care who sings it for me. Just wish she knew and understood.

[Draco1958]

Glad to see people are reading this. I hope people find some meaning for themselves in this. Wouldn't mind some positive feedback on it tho.

[A.Bene.Placito]

It looks like it'd be a good song.