My Dad Died

[littlepinkkitty]

Dearest Troy, i am so sorry for your loss. Take time to mourn and know that we are all here for you. Try and remember the good times you shared with your father. You are a wonderful person troy and you have an inner strength that has been pushing you to where you are. You may not feel or see the strength but its there and we are all here to remind you of it. Hugs.

[Troy Spiral (13)]

:grouphug

Been a bit reluctant to read this thread as I'm just trying to keep my mind occupied with other things as I have a hard enough time keeping my mind off it (not even sure if that is good or bad). Along with being afraid I might say something here publicly that while i might want to get it off my chest, might not be the best thing to post in a non-private message.

I get the full 16 hours a day of worrying as it is) I really appreciate the kind words. Its hard. I've not really processed anything.

Every time i find myself smiling about something I feel bad, like its just not appropriate.

[lordkraven]

:grouphug

Been a bit reluctant to read this thread as I'm just trying to keep my mind occupied with other things as I have a hard enough time keeping my mind off it (not even sure if that is good or bad). Along with being afraid I might say something here publicly that while i might want to get it off my chest, might not be the best thing to post in a non-private message.

I get the full 16 hours a day of worrying as it is) I really appreciate the kind words. Its hard. I've not really processed anything.

Every time i find myself smiling about something I feel bad, like its just not appropriate.

troy never feel bad about smiling yes you are still greiving the loss but when i feel bad about smiling about something that makes me happy even though i too am still greiving the loss of my father and youngest brother i think to myself would they want me to be miserable all the time or look back on the memories i will always hold oonto and smile if i know my father and brother i think that they would never want me to feel bad about smiling about a happy thought even during a time of greiving it kind of helps to deal with the greif when you can find something to smile about as well. this world is all about balance after all and just remember this peice of advise....we only fall so we can learn to pick ourselves back up, brush off and start anew

[Oh_My_Goth]

[Mzdeadlyspell]

I just got online today here. I am very sorry to hear of your loss.

[Nienna]

I just saw this today. I'm so sorry Troy. *hugs*