How do you make it stop?

[kat (1)]

This is going to sound really stupid but what do you do to make your heart stop hurting, like the literal pain you feel inside when someone hurts it? Thanks if anyone can help or suggest anything I can do, I really appreciate it.

[Class-Punk]

To be honest the way I have personally always dealt with rejection is by an increase in self-absorption, the celebration of solitude, and a fostered hatred towards everything irrational. Kind of like something between Christopher Hitchens, John Lydon, and a demon. Constructive loathing. But that's just what works for me.

[torn asunder]

was going to post, but the things i wrote weren't helpful.

hope you feel better soon.

[kat (1)]

Thanks guys..I tried a couple things but the issue lack of the ability to go numb.

[kat (1)]

The manor in which it happened is just bizarre.

[kat (1)]

It was all bizzare. I should have, nevermind..

[TronRP]

Maybe this sounds stupid, but in our family, we always talk it out no matter how bizarre, odd or weird.

During growing pains, my mother would let us yell at the top of our lungs in the basement with no fear of feeling embarrassed about it. She said sometime the heart can't handle things and you have to get it out one way or another, but best not to be destructive. (she didn't have a support system)

At very young ages, we learned to be emotional counselors to the adults in our lives.

So we were pretty much there for each other during our mother's divorce while pregnant with her last child and when my older sister was left by her fiance days before their wedding. As well as other personal situations involving family members, significant others and closets full of skeletons.

This guided my interested into the world of Psychology, Child Development, and Critical Thinking during my college years.

I actually ended up doing a 10 year study on my family that earned me an A+ in my Social Development course.

These day, I just have the need to hear peoples' stories...I think I crave it.

I have never been in a relationship and this seems to be the only way I know how to relate to others is through their hearts. I try not to pry and I always ask permission, but it is up to the individual if they wish to share on such an intimate level. Maybe this is my little demented way of feeling like I am saving the world one person at a time...

[kat (1)]

sometimes the best problem solvers are the worst at working out their own stuff..Tron if I told you my educational background based you would shit, lol..based on the crazy shit I post:-)

[TronRP]

That's usually how it works...

Funny enough, my little sister is a double major and one dissertation from her doctorate and believe you me, you could write several made for TV movies on the amount of emotional crap she unloads...lol

[kat (1)]

Honoring someone's wish does not change what I feel in my heart,. It's not my decision but I still have to respect it.

Edited October 17, 2012 by kat