Damn It I really needed this :(

[Troy Spiral (13)]

So this happened,

there goes the few bucks I was saving for presents, and a lot more. Not to mention the big ticket I can't pay, and the soon to be incresex insurance payments I  can't pay. Plus I got a letter saying my social security is going to be lowered. Talk about a broke loser. I thought I was slowly getting better, but all the sudden this intense sense of dread /depression/ no hope has come over me. Plus the nagging thought that I'm just a leech on society it back. Not sure it's worth fighting it anymore. I'll try but I'm not very hopeful.

Edited December 25, 2015 by Troy Spiral

[LadyKay]

Oh dear I'm sorry! What happen? Well it's okay if you don't want to say. But Oh dear! I wish I could think of something better to say.

[TronRP]

LadyKay summed up my reaction...

[kat (1)]

Hugs, Troy. I am sorry this happened. I feel like God sometimes gets bored up there and like, grabs his game controller but like idk he's playing against the devil and we are the characters, it's like damn, oops... Like they're playing Grand Theft Auto or something, if we knew what time they play we could just all stay just like idk, hide behind our couch or a dumpster or something until the game is over.. If it ever ends that is.

I need to go back to bed or wait until I wake up fully and come back and redo the setup for the analogy in order to get to the essence of the point I am attempting to make. 

Hugs and positive thoughts.

[Troy Spiral (13)]

Car in front of me slamed on the breaks because the car in front of THEM slammed on the breaks.  Still my fault.  stay WAY behind the guy in front of you.    400 insurance deductible I can't pay and a 160 dollar ticket I can't pay.  Not sure whats going to happen. 

[EatAjaxAndDie]

At least you aren't hurt.

[Troy Spiral (13)]

At least you aren't hurt.

Its hard for me to look at that way but its true.  Now if i just had DIED i wouldn't have to deal with any of this.   But I didn't even really get hurt, just shaken up.  Just going to make life that much more of a pain in the ass.  Dealership said they probably wouldn't be done until January 20th ish.   Not that I have the cash right now anyway, blessing in disguise i guess.  

[LadyKay]

I really wish I could give you a hug. I know it wont solve anything but I just wish I could offer you some care.