Guilt

[Vivian]

guilt

by: Vivian

I hope its horrible

I hope you can't sleep at night

I hope you finally realize

that what you did was not right

Your words shred my soul

your lies break my mind

you said you'd never hurt me

and i thought you were kind

now im sitting here

frozen in disbelief

your accusations

make me want to weep

i've never hurt you

always stood by your side

but now im bleeding

with nowhere to hide

you're always angry

ready to snap

and with your arm raised

I wait for the slap

expecting pain

blinded by tears

its inevitable

you always reacted to my fear

I hope its horrible

I hope you cant sleep at night

I hope you finally realize

that what you did was not right...

Dedicated to my roommate Bill

[Amerist]

Expectation is the least of the Furies, but guilt is her strongest vice

-- and in her grip patience knows no bounds,

a venom without reoun,

that sets and waits and collects on the soul.

In time all hurts take their due.

By the time realization comes,

and those fateful dreams awaken him at night

and he finally turns to look back,

be those eyes.

Staring back:

unafraid.

[Vivian]

ahh but he dreams of me

sweet dreams complete with moans

and he thinks of me

massaging himself in front of me

he says he loves me

in his own morbid way

but twisted is his affections

return them i do not

so in anger he tries to hurt me

and in fear i cower

wary of his actions

Praying that one day i'll make my escape

[Amerist]

...and I certainly hope so too.

Wow, now that's impressive--in a scurrilous sort of way. I'd hate to end up in that sort of a position, ever, things get more ponderous when shutting the door doesn't lock the devil in the night, but for the devil on thy side of the door.

In those eyes--there are dark places.

In those eyes--where ominous visions walk,

not silver screens and shimmering memory,

the vapid reticence of a shriveled conscience.

In those eyes--where hopes dissapear.

In those eyes--where sulks twisted desire,

may thy visage be reflected nevermore.