Troy's Video Misadventures

[Troy Spiral (13)]

The first video in a long time.  I can't seem to figure out my old user ID and password for youtube *pulls hair out*

 

 

[Troy Spiral (13)]

[sekhmet2002]

It was a fun video. I'm glad you're doing them again. 

[TronRP]

YAY VIDEO!!!

But the first thing I must ask is Where did you get the House Spiral Wall Poster and WHERE CAN I GET ONE!!?!! (see video 1:58-2:30)

 

By the way, invitation is still open for January Birthdays Karaoke Party

 🎉🎊🎂🍻🎼🎤🎶

[TronRP]

Also,  I do not remember seeing the giant Eeyore before...💗

[torn asunder]

dug the video, good to see you at it again, but PLEASE crop your license picture to remove your home address, date of birth, and your driver's license number!

 

identity theft (or actual theft/vandalism at your house) is no joke! remember, anyone can get on this website & see that info...

Edited January 17, 2019 by torn asunder

[Troy Spiral (13)]

On 1/17/2019 at 6:32 PM, torn asunder said:

dug the video, good to see you at it again, but PLEASE crop your license picture to remove your home address, date of birth, and your driver's license number!

 

identity theft (or actual theft/vandalism at your house) is no joke! remember, anyone can get on this website & see that info...

 

That's actually a good observation.  I didn't realize.    Yikes. 

[Troy Spiral (13)]

On 1/17/2019 at 1:11 PM, TronRP said:

Also,  I do not remember seeing the giant Eeyore before...💗

He was there before probably hiding.  

[Troy Spiral (13)]

On 1/17/2019 at 1:08 PM, TronRP said:

YAY VIDEO!!!

But the first thing I must ask is Where did you get the House Spiral Wall Poster and WHERE CAN I GET ONE!!?!! (see video 1:58-2:30)

 

By the way, invitation is still open for January Birthdays Karaoke Party

 🎉🎊🎂🍻🎼🎤🎶

 

I didn't think anyone would want a poster like that when I first made it.  That large on good paper is not cheap.  I'm DEEEEAD tired right now I'm just posting in zombie mode but I'll definitely look into getting another one made for you or just give you that one.  

The Karaoke thing is something I would do when I'm on an upswing health wise (which I'm not really I'm just forcing myself) its way more stress than you realize for me. Its not so much a presnt as a responsibility I have to take care of.  I hate that its that way, but the PTSD has just not decided to let up yet and it sucks.  😞  The way it is now that would be: "Happy Birthday! Now lets get you to go do something that is really stressful." I'd be going as a present for Tron as a grueling effort for myself because I don't want to let you down. 

 

Socializing  is a hell of a lot easier for me if I have something to focus on that is not stressful.  (Watching something, playing board/card games ect. ) I used to try and get people togheter to play real-life games as that is fun for some people at least and is actually theraputic for me.  Insurance has paid for me to do that sort of thing as an out-patient at various mental health places) But they stopped due to me "not showing significant progress" after like the first year.  But, I can't seem to get anyone except strangers to do it and that is almost as stressful.  That is actually "Occupational Therapy" that HELPS with my social axiety related to the PTSD as it desensitizes you slowly over time since its not 100% stress. We would already be having Karaoke if it was something that didn't drive my mental health crazy.  Don't get me wrong I have enjoyed karaoke in the past, just that sort of setting is even more stressful than the gathering and I'm already having to drag myself to the gathering.  Not that I mind going to the gathering, just every week is a lot for my brain to process and still function at normal troy level. 

 

I hope the tone there didn't come off wrong.  You know I love ya and think you are awesome.  Troy =  No.1 Tron Fan 

[Stu]

Guess Moe & I will claim the #2 and 3 fan slots. 
IMHO, you're both friggin' amazing.  Happy that Moe (via Scary Guy) brought us together!  True story.

[Troy Spiral (13)]

On 1/26/2019 at 2:24 PM, Stu said:

Guess Moe & I will claim the #2 and 3 fan slots. 
IMHO, you're both friggin' amazing.  Happy that Moe (via Scary Guy) brought us together!  True story.

 

Awesome.  Yeah SG has been on and off pretty good about helping promote DGN stuff.  He was no one in terms of "the scene" when DGN started and this was his online home for years, one of the few guys that still remembers that.  Tons of people in the "club scene" got their introduction or expanded their friends network here on DGN back in the 600 posts a day times and in the DGN (very large at one time) group at CC or several have even found husbands/wives here but gratitude is not a common thing.  heh) 

"claim the fan slots" hah love it. 

 

I think right now it's probably 

1. @sekhmet2002

2. @TronRP 

3. @Nitewolf 

4./5. @Moe Falcon @Stu

 

(not sure about the order)  and then a huge sea of "omg what is this SHIT troy?" people.  😂 I'm actually working on a "formula" to figure out how to manage all my gratitude stuff.  So much to be grateful for once I really do a deep dive into it, I need a brass-tacks way of figuring out where to spend my time doing it!

 

Thus that sheet of paper Im trying to keep track of peoples info on and also metrics that i'm not done with about what sort of things I should be more grateful for over others as there is only so much time in a day.  For most people I don't think there is a need to "track" this stuff but for me there is.  (one thing I don't value much although i do value it, just it isn't high on the scale is "thoughts and prayers".  I do appreciate the effort totally I do.  But in the scheme of all the things I need to be grateful for , that isn't much.  

 

Historically it was

 

1. Tron

2. Bobbi

3. Tina/David Newby

4. Draco

5. Paul ferguson (lives in San Fran now still talk to him online every few days, old best friend from high school) 

 

JUST TO THROW IT OUT THERE IN CASE I DIE OR SOMETHING SOMEONE TELL PAUL... he is easy to find on FB, He had a DGN Account (Ubik444) but i doubt he gets notifications. 

[TronRP]

On 1/24/2019 at 4:23 PM, Troy Spiral said:

 

I didn't think anyone would want a poster like that when I first made it.  That large on good paper is not cheap.  I'm DEEEEAD tired right now I'm just posting in zombie mode but I'll definitely look into getting another one made for you or just give you that one.  

The Karaoke thing is something I would do when I'm on an upswing health wise (which I'm not really I'm just forcing myself) its way more stress than you realize for me. Its not so much a presnt as a responsibility I have to take care of.  I hate that its that way, but the PTSD has just not decided to let up yet and it sucks.  😞  The way it is now that would be: "Happy Birthday! Now lets get you to go do something that is really stressful." I'd be going as a present for Tron as a grueling effort for myself because I don't want to let you down. 

 

Socializing  is a hell of a lot easier for me if I have something to focus on that is not stressful.  (Watching something, playing board/card games ect. ) I used to try and get people togheter to play real-life games as that is fun for some people at least and is actually theraputic for me.  Insurance has paid for me to do that sort of thing as an out-patient at various mental health places) But they stopped due to me "not showing significant progress" after like the first year.  But, I can't seem to get anyone except strangers to do it and that is almost as stressful.  That is actually "Occupational Therapy" that HELPS with my social axiety related to the PTSD as it desensitizes you slowly over time since its not 100% stress. We would already be having Karaoke if it was something that didn't drive my mental health crazy.  Don't get me wrong I have enjoyed karaoke in the past, just that sort of setting is even more stressful than the gathering and I'm already having to drag myself to the gathering.  Not that I mind going to the gathering, just every week is a lot for my brain to process and still function at normal troy level. 

 

I hope the tone there didn't come off wrong.  You know I love ya and think you are awesome.  Troy =  No.1 Tron Fan 

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No worries.  As the Karaoke thing was a private room/lounge with it's own restroom, I thought it would have a safer vibe than eating in a dining hall with a bunch of strangers like when we are at The Red Apple, since the only people in the lounge are the ones you bring with you.  However, I'm cancelling the DGN aspect of it due to lack of interests and individual work schedule clashes.  The last thing I want to do is offer something that will stress someone, especially given that my current profession is Home Care Provider Services.

🤗

[Troy Spiral (13)]

On 1/26/2019 at 10:25 PM, TronRP said:

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No worries.  As the Karaoke thing was a private room/lounge with it's own restroom, I thought it would have a safer vibe than eating in a dining hall with a bunch of strangers like when we are at The Red Apple, since the only people in the lounge are the ones you bring with you.  However, I'm cancelling the DGN aspect of it due to lack of interests and individual work schedule clashes.  The last thing I want to do is offer something that will stress someone, especially given that my current profession is Home Care Provider Services.

🤗

 

In the longer term I think I am getting much better.   Its not a huge change but I can tell that the eating better and exercising is helping at least my physical health which is a big problem too (traditionally its been my mental health that is the huge problem and still is)  but improving my physical health seems to make stress (and everything else) easier to deal with and will probably lead to me being much more outgoing at some point.  I'm at the start of this though,  so I need to be careful not to get ahead of myself and have a bad relapse.  (which has been a problem in the past).