What Are You Thinking? (cont'd)

[TronRP]

7 hours ago, WhiteLines said:

I cant have a drivers license because while i was away at work as foreman on an Ulta project years back, she took my Impala that I said was unsafe to drive unless in an absolute emergency. Well oldest missed the bus and instead of asking my maw for a ride cuz she was there too, my wife (never had a license in her life) and (broke down car, we're not paying to keep insurance on it. ) She mighta made it a mile and smashed it into some ladys car who was stopped in the road, then leaves the scene. I wont get my license back unless i pay her $10,000 lawsuit off in full all at once 😂🧐🤬

The only way there was ever a dog was she went and got a stupid mut husky pup without asking me. It was short lived since she has taught the girls to be as lazy as her. No one could take care of the dang dog 🙄🤯

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Yikes...😬

[kat (1)]

In the grocery store this morning and there he is, turning down the cereal aisle and I bust out, every time I swear, he looks and start laughing ish with the casual oh hi, I'm I'd like how you been? He said you know,  living the dream, I said,  really? He laughed and goes, no." I said where's our son? He goes,  I don't know I'm like what you mean you don't know? Well, him and a bunch of friends went to pride last night I'm like he doesn't drink and drive,  right he said no, he doesn't drink..I'm like does he smoke weed and drive..he's like well I don't think he drives when he does, anyway he said he was probably still passed out at one of his friends and than I go why do I keep seeing you here? Am I stalking you? He's like,  of course all logical, "because I grocery shop on Sunday's..I tried messing with him and said last time I seen you was Thursday! That really messed his mind up, he's like was it, really?  Than I'm like is one of them steaks for me? He goes,  no, I'm like oh your wife, he goes no my son....I said OUR son, he's like yea you can have him back now! I'm like oh you only wanted the cute years! Lol we're laughing because we always have had a very sarcastic banter with each other from the day I met him, he says something messed up, I counter him, we laugh. Even when he hates me we still can cut up. 

I said, alright guy I was married to for ten years,  I'll stop harassing you...he goes, was it really 10 years..starts doing the math...and oh yea, it was yep, I'm like bye dude, he's like bye we're still being silly.  

 

[kat (1)]

10 hours ago, WhiteLines said:

I cant have a drivers license because while i was away at work as foreman on an Ulta project years back, she took my Impala that I said was unsafe to drive unless in an absolute emergency. Well oldest missed the bus and instead of asking my maw for a ride cuz she was there too, my wife (never had a license in her life) and (broke down car, we're not paying to keep insurance on it. ) She mighta made it a mile and smashed it into some ladys car who was stopped in the road, then leaves the scene. I wont get my license back unless i pay her $10,000 lawsuit off in full all at once 😂🧐🤬

The only way there was ever a dog was she went and got a stupid mut husky pup without asking me. It was short lived since she has taught the girls to be as lazy as her. No one could take care of the dang dog 🙄🤯

Oh yea I'd a been out than ✌

[WhiteLines]

8 minutes ago, kat said:

In the grocery store this morning and there he is, turning down the cereal aisle and I bust out, every time I swear, he looks and start laughing ish with the casual oh hi, I'm I'd like how you been? He said you know,  living the dream, I said,  really? He laughed and goes, no." I said where's our son? He goes,  I don't know I'm like what you mean you don't know? Well, him and a bunch of friends went to pride last night I'm like he doesn't drink and drive,  right he said no, he doesn't drink..I'm like does he smoke weed and drive..he's like well I don't think he drives when he does, anyway he said he was probably still passed out at one of his friends and than I go why do I keep seeing you here? Am I stalking you? He's like,  of course all logical, "because I grocery shop on Sunday's..I tried messing with him and said last time I seen you was Thursday! That really messed his mind up, he's like was it, really?  Than I'm like is one of them steaks for me? He goes,  no, I'm like oh your wife, he goes no my son....I said OUR son, he's like yea you can have him back now! I'm like oh you only wanted the cute years! Lol we're laughing because we always have had a very sarcastic banter with each other from the day I met him, he says something messed up, I counter him, we laugh. Even when he hates me we still can cut up. 

I said, alright guy I was married to for ten years,  I'll stop harassing you...he goes, was it really 10 years..starts doing the math...and oh yea, it was yep, I'm like bye dude, he's like bye we're still being silly.  

 

Its 5 o'clock. Do you know where your children are? Lol does anybody remember those public service announcements or whatever LOL. Well one day my kids will be old enough to drink and drive, uhhh.... Like when I'm in my 60's

[kat (1)]

14 minutes ago, WhiteLines said:

Its 5 o'clock. Do you know where your children are? Lol does anybody remember those public service announcements or whatever LOL. Well one day my kids will be old enough to drink and drive, uhhh.... Like when I'm in my 60's

I just checked,  luckily my son's at work now..I sent his dad my spying ass evidence 🤣

Edited June 12, 2022 by kat

[WhiteLines]

5 minutes ago, kat said:

Oh yea I'd a been out than ✌

Yeah Im out now, only I know who Im dealing with so I'm going to have yo progress slow and strategically. If she catches the jist that divorce is coming then she'll be on the attack and i will have lost the upper hand.  Im going to have to do my homework, and proper preparation. Luckily I have been documenting the condition of the house since X-mas, unfortunately its the only house I got left and she's made it inhabitable now. We were some of the first people to get evicted during the corona quarantine before the gov't halted evictions. So the house that she has destroyed now is my family home I was raised in

[kat (1)]

11 minutes ago, WhiteLines said:

Yeah Im out now, only I know who Im dealing with so I'm going to have yo progress slow and strategically. If she catches the jist that divorce is coming then she'll be on the attack and i will have lost the upper hand.  Im going to have to do my homework, and proper preparation. Luckily I have been documenting the condition of the house since X-mas, unfortunately its the only house I got left and she's made it inhabitable now. We were some of the first people to get evicted during the corona quarantine before the gov't halted evictions. So the house that she has destroyed now is my family home I was raised in

Omg that's so messed up. I grew up in a house that my mom, who was an extreme hoarder like the ones you see on TV. We grew up in terrible conditions.  My mom's mental health was bad after my dad went to prison she gave up. Please get them babies out.

Edited June 12, 2022 by kat

[kat (1)]

My ex boyfriend from when I was 14 years old, the dude I was going out with again a year or so ago, told me 25 + years later, " I broke in your house after you guys left it, I seen how you lived" 

The look on his face was shock, dread, he didn't even know what to say but for him to actually confess to b&e...you know that he shit messed him up seeing it.  It was one of the only times that I felt validated except for when my uncle, about 8 years ago, went off on my mom because she started shit with me while we was drinking and stuff at the house I stayed with our family friend that my grandpa died in, my uncle told her you fucking treated her like fucking shit all her life, letting these kids live like that, in filth, and he just went off my mouth dropped,  my mom's heart was broken but she knew it was true, she left...it took awhile for her to talk to him again and they aren't close at all. I remember feeling confused. Bad for her, kinda mad at him but not because noone ever called her out like that...that's the day she stopped treating me like shit though.  That did something to her inside.  She has been apologizing to me ever since..telling me I'm beautiful not ugly like she used to...my uncle kinda saved me. 

Edited June 12, 2022 by kat

[kat (1)]

Sorry,  Sorry,  TMI.  I literally could probably compile a book with all my life drama posts I've left here.  Man, have I tainted a whole ass goth website? 

[WhiteLines]

8 minutes ago, kat said:

My ex boyfriend from when I was 14 years old, the dude I was going out with again a year or so ago, told me 25 + years later, " I broke in your house after you guys left it, I seen how you lived" 

The look on his face was shock, dread, he didn't even know what to say but for him to actually confess to b&e...you know that he shit messed him up seeing it.  It was one of the only times that I felt validated except for when my uncle, about 8 years ago, went off on my mom because she started shit with me while we was drinking and stuff at the house I stayed with our family friend that my grandpa died in, my uncle told her you fucking treated her like fucking shit all her life, letting these kids live like that, in filth, and he just went off my mouth dropped,  my mom's heart was broken but she knew it was true, she left...it took awhile for her to talk to him again and they aren't close at all. I remember feeling confused. Bad for her, kinda mad at him but not because noone ever called her out like that...that's the day she stopped treating me like shit though.  That did something to her inside.  She has been apologizing to me ever since..telling me I'm beautiful not ugly like she used to...my uncle kinda saved me. 

Wowza. My half sister kept a trailer in such disarray too all her life. My home tho, has never, ever had even a quare foot of space looking like it does now. Its a tragedy.

[WhiteLines]

Holy crap, my body and brains are giving out on me, I'm not sure i can make it back to the hotel before passing out or weirder. But i found a freakin cool old school gangsta OG hood ass lookin t-shirt. Buy myself somethin nice for my wifes birthday. Dont woory, I'm not "that guy" i alrady bought things for her and mailed them. Now gotta make it to the room without goin into convulsions, err... any more than i already am

[kat (1)]

I found a spider with a silver ass hanging in my kitchen window.  Window shut. I hate closing my windows when there's a nice Summer breeze but for that spider I'll sacrifice. 

[kat (1)]

I just took a hot shower and it helped a little with my body aches but I really need a house with an actual tub because I miss soaking in Epson salt body soaks. They help alot.

[kat (1)]

Damn, I just figured something out about myself and my relationship issues because of my previous post. I literally never had anyone save me from the shit I was living through when I was younger and that's why I have a learned helplessness,  damsel in distress, knight and shining armor thing. I still been waiting to be saved from my childhood trauma situation and it just transferred over. Or manifests itself in my adult life in a different way. Holy crap, mind fucking 🤯

Damn, I do believe therapy is actually fucking working for me. Well golly gee, that's just swell. 

 

Edited June 13, 2022 by kat
I mean, deep down I always kinda suspected that was something.

[WhiteLines]

1 hour ago, kat said:

Damn, I just figured something out about myself and my relationship issues because of my previous post. I literally never had anyone save me from the shit I was living through when I was younger and that's why I have a learned helplessness,  damsel in distress, knight and shining armor thing. I still been waiting to be saved from my childhood trauma situation and it just transferred over. Or manifests itself in my adult life in a different way. Holy crap, mind fucking 🤯

Damn, I do believe therapy is actually fucking working for me. Well golly gee, that's just swell. 

 

Holy $h¡† skittles, my dysfunctional relationship issue is codependent knight in shining armor that gets dragged under the water over and over until finally drowning. Oh yeah, that plus assuming that my attempting to be as open and honest as i can would mean everybody else must be honest too. I learned a whooole lot this two years, thats why I said it felt like it was destined. Thats how it felt when we met, signs everywhere. Now the signs say it is to be consumed by fire. The universe meant for me to go thru this crappy bullsnot so i wouldn't go build a monument to disaster a forth time... Or because I'm about to pass on and it needed me to resolve the issue before my next life lol.

[TronRP]

2 hours ago, kat said:

Damn, I just figured something out about myself and my relationship issues because of my previous post. I literally never had anyone save me from the shit I was living through when I was younger and that's why I have a learned helplessness,  damsel in distress, knight and shining armor thing. I still been waiting to be saved from my childhood trauma situation and it just transferred over. Or manifests itself in my adult life in a different way. Holy crap, mind fucking 🤯

Damn, I do believe therapy is actually fucking working for me. Well golly gee, that's just swell. 

 

 

15 minutes ago, WhiteLines said:

Holy $h¡† skittles, my dysfunctional relationship issue is codependent knight in shining armor that gets dragged under the water over and over until finally drowning. Oh yeah, that plus assuming that my attempting to be as open and honest as i can would mean everybody else must be honest too. I learned a whooole lot this two years, thats why I said it felt like it was destined. Thats how it felt when we met, signs everywhere. Now the signs say it is to be consumed by fire. The universe meant for me to go thru this crappy bullsnot so i wouldn't go build a monument to disaster a forth time... Or because I'm about to pass on and it needed me to resolve the issue before my next life lol.

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We should get together, talk and have a drink...

[kat (1)]

30 minutes ago, TronRP said:

 

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We should get together, talk and have a drink...

Omg yes, 💯💯💯 let's go! 

[WhiteLines]

6 hours ago, TronRP said:

 

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We should get together, talk and have a drink...

For real y'all, as soon as I end up close enoughto the area for someone to kidnap my @$$

[kat (1)]

This is where I used to live, the house itself is actually gone and now a parking lot for the apartment building.  That yellow apartment building is where I used to sing and dance in front of the stope for my neighbors when I was a little girl, at the corner of that alley is where I was walking home from doing the grocery shopping with like 5 bags one day and a familiar looking man with a southern twang had approached me  and said, "Hi Mandi, I'm your dad" 

I was 12 last time I seen him I was 4. 

2651 Central Ave

2651 Central Ave, Detroit, MI 48209 https://g.co/kgs/xRZAKi

Edited June 13, 2022 by kat

[TronRP]

6 minutes ago, kat said:

This is where I used to live, the house itself is actually gone and now a parking lot for the apartment building.  That yellow apartment building is where I used to sing and dance in front of the stope for my neighbors when I was a little girl, at the corner of that alley is where I was walking home from doing the grocery shopping with like 5 bags one day and a familiar looking man with a southern twang had approached me  and said, "Hi Mandi, I'm your dad" 

I was 12 last time I seen him I was 4. 

2651 Central Ave

2651 Central Ave, Detroit, MI 48209 https://g.co/kgs/xRZAKi

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Is this the apartment  you used to sing in front of?

 

[kat (1)]

17 minutes ago, TronRP said:

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Is this the apartment  you used to sing in front of?

 

It is🙂 

The house across the street by the parking lot next to the bar is where Jack White used to go play sometimes. 

[TronRP]

5 minutes ago, kat said:

It is🙂 

The house across the street by the parking lot next to the bar is where Jack White used to go play sometimes. 

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I can just picture you all tiny and cute, standing on that sidewalk, performing and singing your little adorable head off to an adoring group of grown-ups.

🥰

[WhiteLines]

I think the rest of my crew accurately defined what the haircut pattern i shaved my head in must be, they said it's a version of the "landing strip" ppl shave on their nether-regions lmfao. All of us was laughin our asses off, I say "yeah y'all motha F'ers, that's to guide tha poontietang in for a landing... on mah face, wtf?!"

I really just done it for bein' crazy and not givin' a f#¢% tho lol.

[kat (1)]

I been having a strange feeling that I may not be around for much longer and I don't know why. I keep thinking something is going to happen to me and I just been feeling weird lately and than my mom told me my brother and her was out to dinner today and he just randomly told her he wanted to see me more and spend more time with me. I just hope everyone close to me is safe and being looked after by our higher power.  I love my kids and I'm sorry for anyone that I've upset or been unkind to in my life. 

[TronRP]

1 hour ago, kat said:

I been having a strange feeling that I may not be around for much longer and I don't know why. I keep thinking something is going to happen to me and I just been feeling weird lately and than my mom told me my brother and her was out to dinner today and he just randomly told her he wanted to see me more and spend more time with me. I just hope everyone close to me is safe and being looked after by our higher power.  I love my kids and I'm sorry for anyone that I've upset or been unkind to in my life. 

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Guuurl....

Is this an age thing or something.  I've been having the same feeling.  Then I get upset in my dreams and wake up being upset about death.

It was real crazy last night.

😵