What Are You Thinking? (cont'd)

[kat (1)]

16 hours ago, TronRP said:

Well, at least I did get 2 full hours of sleep.

I'd be in the delulu ward with 2 hours of sleep. 

[TronRP]

I just realized that this is the last week of the month.

[kat (1)]

Still laughing internally over the South Park newest special.

 

[Scary Guy]

On 5/19/2024 at 7:08 AM, WhiteLines said:

Think its crazy ass nostalgic that i was able to hustle down here on foot, go in city club before closing. What are the odds lol. I couldn't remember where the doors to go in the building was tho lmfao

 

Well, they did move it from the side to the front, then made the side a smoking area.

Probably for the best but now it just makes the hallway with the bathrooms a circus sometimes since it's now the main entryway too.

[TronRP]

I'm thinking that Xfinity just did a hardware upgrade to get ready to change something, but decided to call it a "service outage" that lasted 18 hours.  All they had to do was blame it on the storm that blew through yesterday evening. 

[know_buddy_kares]

The work required to help her reach her goals would be so much easier if we lived closer where I could see her on the regular. But, moving in with me is a growing possibility also.

[TronRP]

I got worried that my shoulder was hurting.  Then I remembered I plopped a 4"x4" on it yesterday.  However, it just happened to be 16' long.
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[kat (1)]

I been hiding in the research peptides mafia cult and shit just got real,  y'all.

[kat (1)]

I run back to mommy DGN and hide in my safe space, rocking back and forth in the corner, sucking my thumb. 

Leave me alone,  big bad world! 🍼👶

Edited June 14 by kat

[TronRP]

4 hours ago, kat said:

I run back to mommy DGN and hide in my safe space, rocking back and forth in the corner, sucking my thumb. 

Leave me alone,  big bad world! 🍼👶

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There, there.  Just relax and let the world go away...

[Scary Guy]

On 6/14/2024 at 6:26 AM, TronRP said:

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There, there.  Just relax and let the world go away...

 

That's the shitty thing about it though.  It's still there and usually getting worse.  I usually say "whatever, I'll cross that bridge when I burn it." But then I actually have to cross a bridge which is on fire, if it hasn't actually already collapsed yet.  I usually somehow manage though and if I'm lucky I don't lose too much in the process.

[TronRP]

On 6/19/2024 at 6:55 PM, Scary Guy said:

 

That's the shitty thing about it though.  It's still there and usually getting worse.  I usually say "whatever, I'll cross that bridge when I burn it." But then I actually have to cross a bridge which is on fire, if it hasn't actually already collapsed yet.  I usually somehow manage though and if I'm lucky I don't lose too much in the process.

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Dude, that's usually me...

[creatureofthenyte]

I’m gonna go finish my laundry.

[kat (1)]

Today's my son's 21st bday. 

[TronRP]

One task down, 2 to go.

[creatureofthenyte]

Me to my cat, who was just briefly standing on my computer desk, blocking my screen: "Buddy, you make a better door than a window ".  😆

[TronRP]

Finally back online just to shut down for a computer move.

[Scary Guy]

On 6/21/2024 at 1:32 PM, TronRP said:

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Dude, that's usually me...

 

See, I don't believe you, like at all.  I don't really know your day to day struggles, but you seem like you keep up on things really well.  At least you have more free time with the kids gone but you're still doing lots of things every day so that everything is okay and continues to be okay.

 

I just stopped giving a damn a long, long...  long time ago.  Every once in a while something comes along and makes me care just a little bit.  These days even that seems like a bandage that has fallen off and the wound just festers.  If I could quantify my depression I would, but I do not possess the mental acuity to properly quantify just how much things suck (at least not without being involuntarily sent off to a grippy sock vacation.) Usually I just feel numb.  The bonus of ADHD is I constantly forget I'm depressed and that things suck.  However if something lurks in my head long enough it kind of sticks.

I've been watching more TV to distract me, it helps a little.  Friends help more.

[TronRP]

11 hours ago, Scary Guy said:

 

See, I don't believe you, like at all.  I don't really know your day to day struggles, but you seem like you keep up on things really well.  At least you have more free time with the kids gone but you're still doing lots of things every day so that everything is okay and continues to be okay.

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So that must be it.  People keep treating me like I have free time just because they see me out of the house.

 

Where it is true that I did help raise my niece and nephew until our mother passed away in 2015, I wasn't granted custody of them until they were 13 and 10 years of age respectively.  Until that time, I was fulltime employed in automotive administration then went into fulltime on-call home care provider services (starting in 2008).  Executor to the Estate was tacked on after the settling of our mother's Will.

 

Yes my niece lives 6 minutes down the road, but I still help support her.  And yes, my nephew is on campus during the school year 15 minutes away, but otherwise, he stays at the HomeHouse and I still support him.  All the while I am 24/7 on-call assist with Trene.  

 

Add property maintenance, family everything, legal responsibilities, pets, wildlife and everyday living into the mix and sometimes it's all I can do to keep up.  If I can't automate a system to be self-reliant for some period of time, I have to throw what I can at it until I can officially get back around to it.   All the while, I'm ducking and dodging the neighbors because if they see me out, they have a request for me because they don't think I do anything but sit at home and cut the lawns.

 

I had a carpet bug infestation a couple of weeks ago and ended up pulling everything out of place throughout my entire house, minus the basement, and, honestly, my current living situation isn't even organized chaos...I'm at warehouse status with four legged security patrol.

 

The only things I can say for certain, at this moment in time, are: my computer is on, all the grass is cut, all the Feral Furs and new born Feral Babies have been fed, I found something to eat, I have a package on the front porch over at the HomeHouse and the shed is half assembled.  I left this year's 4th of July planning up to the rest of the family.

[Scary Guy]

1 hour ago, TronRP said:

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So that must be it.  People keep treating me like I have free time just because they see me out of the house.

 

Where it is true that I did help raise my niece and nephew until our mother passed away in 2015, I wasn't granted custody of them until they were 13 and 10 years of age respectively.  Until that time, I was fulltime employed in automotive administration then went into fulltime on-call home care provider services (starting in 2008).  Executor to the Estate was tacked on after the settling of our mother's Will.

 

Yes my niece lives 6 minutes down the road, but I still help support her.  And yes, my nephew is on campus during the school year 15 minutes away, but otherwise, he stays at the HomeHouse and I still support him.  All the while I am 24/7 on-call assist with Trene.  

 

Add property maintenance, family everything, legal responsibilities, pets, wildlife and everyday living into the mix and sometimes it's all I can do to keep up.  If I can't automate a system to be self-reliant for some period of time, I have to throw what I can at it until I can officially get back around to it.   All the while, I'm ducking and dodging the neighbors because if they see me out, they have a request for me because they don't think I do anything but sit at home and cut the lawns.

 

I had a carpet bug infestation a couple of weeks ago and ended up pulling everything out of place throughout my entire house, minus the basement, and, honestly, my current living situation isn't even organized chaos...I'm at warehouse status with four legged security patrol.

 

The only things I can say for certain, at this moment in time, are: my computer is on, all the grass is cut, all the Feral Furs and new born Feral Babies have been fed, I found something to eat, I have a package on the front porch over at the HomeHouse and the shed is half assembled.  I left this year's 4th of July planning up to the rest of the family.

 

So, what you're saying is you still have no free time and I believe you even less now.  I hope some things lighten up so you have a bit more room to breathe.  At least you've delegated the 4th planning.  You should delegate more things if possible too, as it seems like everyone expects everything of you which as far as I can tell leaves little to no actual time for yourself.

@Serxerais having a party at his place that starts after 3 and goes until late since most don't have to work the next day.  You are of course welcome to stop by either before/after your festivities.  I'm not going to DJ but there will be a playlist that you're welcome to add to.  Anyone else that is reading is also welcome to DM me for the details (whether or not I actually give them is another story.)

[TronRP]

On 7/3/2024 at 6:51 PM, Scary Guy said:

 

So, what you're saying is you still have no free time and I believe you even less now.  I hope some things lighten up so you have a bit more room to breathe.  At least you've delegated the 4th planning.  You should delegate more things if possible too, as it seems like everyone expects everything of you which as far as I can tell leaves little to no actual time for yourself.

@Serxerais having a party at his place that starts after 3 and goes until late since most don't have to work the next day.  You are of course welcome to stop by either before/after your festivities.  I'm not going to DJ but there will be a playlist that you're welcome to add to.  Anyone else that is reading is also welcome to DM me for the details (whether or not I actually give them is another story.)

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Although tasks were delegated, I ended up being the cleanup crew to all the everything.  finally made it to bed around 4am this morning.

 

Now it's time to get stuff out for curbside pick up tomorrow.

 

I feel like once I get these houses cleaned out, then the idea of having extra time may be in the picture.

[creatureofthenyte]

So glad to get this week over with. 

It sucked.

[Scary Guy]

On 7/5/2024 at 3:33 PM, TronRP said:

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Although tasks were delegated, I ended up being the cleanup crew to all the everything.  finally made it to bed around 4am this morning.

 

Now it's time to get stuff out for curbside pick up tomorrow.

 

I feel like once I get these houses cleaned out, then the idea of having extra time may be in the picture.

 

Well family that visited came down with COVID so I decided to skip it because I'm not a selfish prick.  Then other family came down with it the next day which just reaffirmed my decision.  It's going to be a long boring weekend and I was looking forward to Asylum in Canada tonight, and/or @Serxera's tomorrow for the usual weekly hangout.  Probably also skip Necto on Monday as well just to be really safe.

[TronRP]

I'm thinking of upgrading some equipment to get things moving along faster because before you know it, Fall will be here, signaling the beginning of the end of build season and the ability to do outdoor groundwork.

[TronRP]

I can't believe it took me all day to finally be productive and now the day is over.  I can't afford to pull an all-nighter this time as I have to chauffeur in the morning.

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