What Are You Thinking? (cont'd)

[TronRP]

Too...I don't know what.

I workout, I pass out.

I go out, I pass out.

I wake up, I pass out.

It's like I have to take a nap every day and anytime I do some form of exertion.

...Old age catching up with me...?

[TronRP]

Think I'll call it a day.  I need a jack for the basement stairs.  Not sure if I feel like going to buy one or order it and have it delivered.

[kat (1)]

Prayers for the families of the victims in the Oxford school shooting.  I'm absolutely baffled at how this could happen when every,  single sign was there. The administration and the parents should have immediately had that boy sent to a crisis center.  He had homicidal thoughts, intentions, and a plan and stared everyone in the face and they did jack shit. (The teachers tried at least) They are all responsible for this. They all neglected the boys mental health. What in the hell did they think he was going to do? That drawing was his way of saying help me before it's too late. I'm not defending him at all but the inaction of everyone involved is fucking mind blowing!

Edited December 4, 2021 by kat

[TronRP]

21 minutes ago, kat said:

Prayers for the families of the victims in the Oxford school shooting.  I'm absolutely baffled at how this could happen when every,  single sign was there. The administration and the parents should have immediately had that boy sent to a crisis center.  He had homicidal thoughts, intentions, and a plan and stared everyone in the face and they did jack shit. (The teachers tried at least) They are all responsible for this. They all neglected the boys mental health. What in the hell did they think he was going to do? That drawing was his way of saying help me before it's too late. I'm not defending him at all but the inaction of everyone involved is fucking mind blowing!

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He even made a video.

 

This is the reason they are pushing to have to parents prosecuted as well.  His father purchased the gun, used in the murders, on Black Friday and the kid had access to the weapon as well as a boatload of ammunition that he carried around in his backpack.  I was beginning to wonder what his father was about to get up to.

[kat (1)]

3 hours ago, TronRP said:

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He even made a video.

 

This is the reason they are pushing to have to parents prosecuted as well.  His father purchased the gun, used in the murders, on Black Friday and the kid had access to the weapon as well as a boatload of ammunition that he carried around in his backpack.  I was beginning to wonder what his father was about to get up to.

This whole ass world is a nightmare.  People are really messed up. If I wasn't on antidepressants before I would be now just to try to process and exist somehow in the actual fuckery of this new world. 

Edited December 5, 2021 by kat

[TronRP]

39 minutes ago, kat said:

This whole ass world is a nightmare.  People are really messed up. If I wasn't on antidepressants before I would be now just to try to process and exist somehow in the actual fuckery of this new world. 

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That's why I exist outside of it.  All I ever hear is "Nobody does ______" and all I can think is, "But I do that".  So apparently I'm Nobody and thereby do not exist in this reality.  Therefore, I create my own...and live by it.

[kat (1)]

50 minutes ago, TronRP said:

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That's why I exist outside of it.  All I ever hear is "Nobody does ______" and all I can think is, "But I do that".  So apparently I'm Nobody and thereby do not exist in this reality.  Therefore, I create my own...and live by it.

Aww! You are amazing and do so much for everyone.  I can honestly say that you are appreciated by me +1000 times! I'm sorry that people are making you feel like that because you are freaking fabulous! 

I definitely think that I live in my own little world too. 

[TronRP]

8 minutes ago, kat said:

Aww! You are amazing and do so much for everyone.  I can honestly say that you are appreciated by me +1000 times! I'm sorry that people are making you feel like that because you are freaking fabulous! 

I definitely think that I live in my own little world too. 

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I often feel like a sneaky ninja because I get away with doing stuff that is not considered "normal".  And the majority of people don't even see it coming.

[TronRP]

Although I have a lot to do, I think I will take my time with it all.  The last thing I need to do is overdo it right at the start of birthday and decoration week.

[TronRP]

LOL...I forgot to go to bed...

[Class-Punk]

In the future I want to get better at mastering and do some "Beautiful Ambient" songs, like a subgenre that the bands Hammock or Hazy would fit into.

Edited December 11, 2021 by Class-Punk

[kat (1)]

Today was weird. I went on a date thingy ish after talking to someone for a little bit who I was kinda feeling and stuff and so he picked me up,  I mean I never met him in real life until today so he could have murdered me and if that be my fate, meh so be it...but you better kill me dead all the way muthafucker!  Just kidding.  I'm aware of my foolish antics. Anyway,  we go to his house and his poor dog was so sick! Like visibly, sick.  So we're like calling vet hospitals and I'm feeling so terrible because the poor little pooch is probably not going to make it and this guy is so sad as he should be.  That dog is like his baby. He is like I'm so sorry I ruined our date and I'm like omg No! This is an emergency, you didn't ruin anything. So he feels shitty because he for some reason is embarrassed because it was our first date even though he shouldn't whatsoever and he is basically grieving because the problem is like too much and surgery may not even work so he's going to lose his dog. I keep trying to make him feel better and not worry about thinking he ruined our date but I think I actually teared up because of the dog and I am feeling horrible for him. I can't help but wonder am I some kind of omen. Is this a sign? What do I say to help him. This is a first for me. I'm usually never lost for words. 😪

[kat (1)]

He wanted me to come back over and I'm just like I think maybe you need to be with your pup right now but I don't want him to think I'm blowing him off or disappointed.   I'm so confused. 

[TronRP]

17 minutes ago, kat said:

Today was weird. I went on a date thingy ish after talking to someone for a little bit who I was kinda feeling and stuff and so he picked me up,  I mean I never met him in real life until today so he could have murdered me and if that be my fate, meh so be it...but you better kill me dead all the way muthafucker!  Just kidding.  I'm aware of my foolish antics. Anyway,  we go to his house and his poor dog was so sick! Like visibly, sick.  So we're like calling vet hospitals and I'm feeling so terrible because the poor little pooch is probably not going to make it and this guy is so sad as he should be.  That dog is like his baby. He is like I'm so sorry I ruined our date and I'm like omg No! This is an emergency, you didn't ruin anything. So he feels shitty because he for some reason is embarrassed because it was our first date even though he shouldn't whatsoever and he is basically grieving because the problem is like too much and surgery may not even work so he's going to lose his dog. I keep trying to make him feel better and not worry about thinking he ruined our date but I think I actually teared up because of the dog and I am feeling horrible for him. I can't help but wonder am I some kind of omen. Is this a sign? What do I say to help him. This is a first for me. I'm usually never lost for words. 😪

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I actually bonded with a person at the vet's office (before COVID) over pets.  Although you were supposed to be on a people date, you can really get to know a person listening to them tell stories about their fur babies.  You could use that as a starting point if you want to see where it goes with this guy.

[kat (1)]

11 minutes ago, TronRP said:

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I actually bonded with a person at the vet's office (before COVID) over pets.  Although you were supposed to be on a people date, you can really get to know a person listening to them tell stories about their fur babies.  You could use that as a starting point if you want to see where it goes with this guy.

Well I tried to use the spend time with pup excuse and not to worry about me and than I said my headlights out anyway and I can't drive but he said I'll pick u up again.  I don't mind so I'm assuming that he really actually wants to see me so I'm going to go. It's just weird because it's such a sad mood but he said I at least made it better 🤷‍♀️? Maybe he likes meish?

[TronRP]

2 minutes ago, kat said:

Well I tried to use the spend time with pup excuse and not to worry about me and than I said my headlights out anyway and I can't drive but he said I'll pick u up again.  I don't mind so I'm assuming that he really actually wants to see me so I'm going to go. It's just weird because it's such a sad mood but he said I at least made it better 🤷‍♀️? Maybe he likes meish?

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If he is genuine, most times people don't want to be alone at times like this.  Especially if it is an older pet that they have had history with.

 

It is true that my mind goes to schemes people play, but I would try to give some people the benefit of the doubt if they seem like a good person.

 

But still be aware, humans are still human.  Keep you wits about you.  If he tries to jump you...leave.

[kat (1)]

26 minutes ago, TronRP said:

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If he is genuine, most times people don't want to be alone at times like this.  Especially if it is an older pet that they have had history with.

 

It is true that my mind goes to schemes people play, but I would try to give some people the benefit of the doubt if they seem like a good person.

 

But still be aware, humans are still human.  Keep you wits about you.  If he tries to jump you...leave.

For Sure! I don't live far either. He seems nice, kinda dark like I like. Lol 

[kat (1)]

Yea I don't think I want to go on anymore dates or anything at all with anyone.  There's noone for me. I give up. 

[TronRP]

5 hours ago, kat said:

Yea I don't think I want to go on anymore dates or anything at all with anyone.  There's noone for me. I give up. 

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Ah, now your zodiac comment makes sense.

Have you ever thought that maybe the person for you just doesn't happen to live anywhere near where you are.  Who knows, they might live in another country.

[TronRP]

I think I had better turn in for a bit before it's time to get to work.

[TronRP]

Thinking of setting up all bill pays now so Christmas and New Year's don't interfere with my accounts

[creatureofthenyte]

How do I rank as Newbie on this board ?

Ive been here for 15 years.

[TronRP]

36 minutes ago, creatureofthenyte said:

How do I rank as Newbie on this board ?

Ive been here for 15 years.

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Yes, it took me a bit to get over that when I first saw that, after an Invision upgrade, I ranked Newbie with over 25,000 posts.

Unfortunately, it's now built into the Host's programming. 

[TronRP]

Got back in about a half hour ago from what I though was going to be a short run the pharmacy and a quick birthday gift drop off.  Turned into a couple of hours of errands and an hour hangout.  And it was more fun than I thought it would be.

[kat (1)]

On 12/12/2021 at 11:32 PM, TronRP said:

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Ah, now your zodiac comment makes sense.

Have you ever thought that maybe the person for you just doesn't happen to live anywhere near where you are.  Who knows, they might live in another country.

Yes, 100 percent.  Of all the people in the world how can we assume that the right person or a person we fit with just so happens to be born in the exact same spot we are. I know that may sound silly maybe because of the amount of time I have spent thinking about it but I guess that's the reason I enjoy zodiac stuff. I believe in signs and the universe and how I can do something like pray to God and ask to be shown a message or something one night and then the next day someone leaves my tip wrapped up on the table in a pamphlet from their church. It just happened the other day. I was crying and praying and needed a sign and the very next day that exact thing happened. Maybe it's  confirmation bias, maybe it's not..that's the exact reason people say to have faith. I am sorry I didn't mean to go on a tangent about this. Church dismissed. My very weird church, of course.  

Edited December 16, 2021 by kat
Comma stuff.