What Are You Thinking? (cont'd)

[kat (1)]

Well no wonder I am losing weight so slowly while doing this keto diet, I have a big ass ovarian cyst.  The radiologist was like no wonder you're in pain,  you definitely will feel pain with this one. She showed me a giant black spot on the screen and I'm like what's that? I have never been able to see it now since I got this mirena 2 months ago it's the size of a grapefruit!  Hmm, so do I keep this damn thing? It's very much helping my mood I think because my progesterone and estrogen is balancing but I have a giant cyst! 

[kat (1)]

It's sad that we have to decide which is more important? Our mental or physical health! They are equally important.

Edited December 16, 2021 by kat
Actually, they're the same!

[kat (1)]

4 minutes ago, kat said:

It's sad that we have to decide which is more important? Our mental or physical health! They are equally important.

They're the same.  Your brain is apart of the physical body so if it's sick everything is going to be affected in your entire system. 

[kat (1)]

You guys have to excuse me. I came home from my appointment and found a lortab so it's currently in my body. 

Edited December 16, 2021 by kat
I shouldn't say stuff.

[kat (1)]

The girls living here in the building tried getting me out and social for almost a year when I moved here. I did hang out a little but I didn't know about boats and the stuff they are interested in and I was so depressed and felt like I was less than them, less attractive, too fat, too poor, too silly, too ghetto, etc but than I actually find the one next door I relate to so much.  We hit it off immediately. One day we was walking home from the bar and we was talking about how we was raised...( we literally are night and day in terms of our socioeconomic background).  I had mentioned my being a bad kid and my mom throwing me in a girls home when I was 15 and she goes my parents sent me to a boarding school in Connecticut for that...and I was like so basically,  the same thing as me except for one rich, One poor?  She started laughing and was like taken aback and she was like yea, basically the same thing.  It's funny we joke about that shit alot how we bond the way we can being raised so different. Although,  I don't think the boarding school in Connecticut disciplined you for singing at the dinner table by three women tackling you to the floor, pulling your arms backwards and your legs, everything is restrained to the point that you have to scream in pain because a bitch is actually trying to break your damn arm. I mean maybe they do something, probably like the old school Catholic schools did. Idk. 

When all of us are together the one, we love her she's been extremely hospitable since I moved here and she is always looking out for me,  asking me if I needed things for my apartment,  trying to get me to socialize,  and telling me to shut the fuck up (when she's drunk) when I say something negative about myself.  She can sometimes talk alot about money and prestige and my girl next door, having came from money it doesn't really phase her, she doesn't buy anything new, thrift store, vintage everything in her house which is like my thing too. We just look at each other when she talks about $$$$ and we know what's up.  No words are needed. Lol

Edited December 17, 2021 by kat

[kat (1)]

They all get stuff done but she has to for her business, and here I am with my hair color fading,  my clothes look like shit, my body is fucking huge, and they all can raid her closets..I mean I did get my first actual real corset from her because she used to be my size and she has a wide range of clothes for her models and stuff. I love her closets in her studio.  Omg so much pretty vintage and fet stuff. She did the corset up for me the first time and she fucking pulled them strings so hard I couldn't breathe but damn my waist was like now I see why people waist train but you have to actually wear one with the real steel bone stuff or whatever.  🔥🔥🤘

Edited December 17, 2021 by kat

[TronRP]

1 hour ago, kat said:

Well no wonder I am losing weight so slowly while doing this keto diet, I have a big ass ovarian cyst.  The radiologist was like no wonder you're in pain,  you definitely will feel pain with this one. She showed me a giant black spot on the screen and I'm like what's that? I have never been able to see it now since I got this mirena 2 months ago it's the size of a grapefruit!  Hmm, so do I keep this damn thing? It's very much helping my mood I think because my progesterone and estrogen is balancing but I have a giant cyst! 

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I am so glad you wrote about this.  I had a scan that found 2 giant fibroids, but I forgot these things can still get bigger.

 

Our mother had a metastasized kidney that the doctor mistook for a bowel blockage and gave her a probiotic as treatment.  It became cancerous.  I was starting to think I suddenly developed the same condition, but I noticed it was in the wrong location.

 

When I read your post...I had a lightbulb moment.

[kat (1)]

7 minutes ago, TronRP said:

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I am so glad you wrote about this.  I had a scan that found 2 giant fibroids, but I forgot these things can still get bigger.

 

Our mother had a metastasized kidney that the doctor mistook for a bowel blockage and gave her a probiotic as treatment.  It became cancerous.  I was starting to think I suddenly developed the same condition, but I noticed it was in the wrong location.

 

When I read your post...I had a lightbulb moment.

Omg really? Well, I'm glad that helped you ease your mind. Omg so you know the ways of the transvaginal ultrasound? Omg that's the weirdest thing and the tech said she does it on luch even! She's so used to it. I'm like talking shit with her, making jokes about the wand lmfao 🤣 I had her cracking up.  I told her how the doctor expects me to check my IUD strings every month and I was like um, what does she want me to actually do? Omg lol, we had fun cracking up with that. She's like um, yea it's in your uterus how are you supposed to...and I'm like some acrobatic shit? I said maybe other people have a partner do it. She's said she thought it was like a tampon string and I'm like yea a uterus tampon! She's like yea it's not like it's in your actual vag. Tmi omg sorry 🤣🤷‍♀️

Edited December 17, 2021 by kat

[kat (1)]

I miss cutting up with you @TronRP

[kat (1)]

Omg I'm sitting here looking for my earbuds they're in my fucking ears..durr durr durr..🤣

[kat (1)]

My mom: Mandi, call me, I have gossip" 

She always has gossip.  Lol

 

Edited December 17, 2021 by kat

[TronRP]

6 minutes ago, kat said:

Omg I'm sitting here looking for my earbuds they're in my fucking ears..durr durr durr..🤣

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That's me trying to find my phone so I can take a picture while I'm texting about it...

[kat (1)]

On 12/11/2021 at 8:58 PM, TronRP said:

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I actually bonded with a person at the vet's office (before COVID) over pets.  Although you were supposed to be on a people date, you can really get to know a person listening to them tell stories about their fur babies.  You could use that as a starting point if you want to see where it goes with this guy.

So, did you get their number?

[TronRP]

1 minute ago, kat said:

So, did you get their number?

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You know...that never crossed my mind...😐

[kat (1)]

5 minutes ago, TronRP said:

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You know...that never crossed my mind...😐

Ah, darn. Well, maybe you'll cross paths again 🤞 my mind lives in a fairytale. 

[NocteSpiritus]

2 hours ago, kat said:

Well no wonder I am losing weight so slowly while doing this keto diet, I have a big ass ovarian cyst.  The radiologist was like no wonder you're in pain,  you definitely will feel pain with this one. She showed me a giant black spot on the screen and I'm like what's that? I have never been able to see it now since I got this mirena 2 months ago it's the size of a grapefruit!  Hmm, so do I keep this damn thing? It's very much helping my mood I think because my progesterone and estrogen is balancing but I have a giant cyst! 

 

 

I know the feeling in slowly losing weight; ovarian cysts here as well. 

[TronRP]

2 minutes ago, kat said:

Ah, darn. Well, maybe you'll cross paths again 🤞 my mind lives in a fairytale. 

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We actually talked for about 15 minutes.  It was one of the rare times that this vet office was backed up due to a change over in software...so there were 5 people in the waiting room...lol.

[TronRP]

I'm going to do some research on fibroids and ovarian cysts.  I have got to know more about this stuff.

 

Not enough taking is done on the subject because it doesn't affect men...else there would be a podcast, infomercial, documentary, website support, call help center, 5K Annual Walk, Fight for a Cure campaign, etc....

😏

[kat (1)]

20 minutes ago, NocteSpiritus said:

 

 

I know the feeling in slowly losing weight; ovarian cysts here as well. 

Hugs. I think this is the biggest one I have had. It really does mess with us. I been on keto like 2 months,  I've lost about 10 lbs where as others doing keto would have lost double probably. 

[TronRP]

Just now, kat said:

Hugs. I think this is the biggest one I have had. It really does mess with us. I been on keto like 2 months,  I've lost about 10 lbs where as others doing keto would have lost double probably. 

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10 pounds is nothing to overlook.  That is a big accomplishment.

[kat (1)]

6 minutes ago, TronRP said:

I'm going to do some research on fibroids and ovarian cysts.  I have got to know more about this stuff.

 

Not enough taking is done on the subject because it doesn't affect men...else there would be a podcast, infomercial, documentary, website support, call help center, 5K Annual Walk, Fight for a Cure campaign, etc....

😏

I know and it's so common to get them but some are just a normal part of the ovulation process. I had one made me think I was pregnant before,  the pregnancy test was positive. Actually,  twice it happened to me.  It's called corpus luteum. 

https://utswmed.org/conditions-treatments/ovarian-cysts/#:~:text=Pregnancy test%3A A corpus luteum,of your uterus and ovaries.

[TronRP]

1 minute ago, kat said:

I know and it's so common to get them but some are just a normal part of the ovulation process. I had one made me think I was pregnant before,  the pregnancy test was positive. Actually,  twice it happened to me.  It's called corpus luteum. 

https://utswmed.org/conditions-treatments/ovarian-cysts/#:~:text=Pregnancy test%3A A corpus luteum,of your uterus and ovaries.

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I think that would have messed me up.

 

You are pregnant...you're having a baby.  Congratulations.

Oh, wait, no you aren't...sorry.

😑

[kat (1)]

9 minutes ago, TronRP said:

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I think that would have messed me up.

 

You are pregnant...you're having a baby.  Congratulations.

Oh, wait, no you aren't...sorry.

😑

Yea, it made me sad when I found out that I wasn't.  Actually,  the person I was with at the time was happy about the positive test but he took me to get an actual doctor test and they seen what had happened on the ultrasound and explained to us what happened.  He was so disappointed.  Luckily,  years later he ended up finding someone and he is a dad now to a beautiful little daughter.  He contacted me a couple years ago to show off his new baby and this baby was so precious and beautiful. (He wasn't rubbing it in my face, he was just a really proud dad) 

Edited December 17, 2021 by kat

[TronRP]

4 minutes ago, kat said:

Yea, it made me sad when I found out that I wasn't.  Actually,  the person I was with at the time was happy about the positive test but he took me to get an actual doctor test and they seen what had happened on the ultrasound and explained to us what happened.  He was so disappointed.  Luckily,  years later he ended up finding someone and he is a dad now to a beautiful little daughter.  He contacted me a couple years ago to show off his new baby and this little girl was so precious and beautiful. (He wasn't rubbing it in my face, he was just a really proud dad) 

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That's understandable.  When you are that close with someone, it's almost like the invisible bond that you still want to share those things.

[kat (1)]

I asked my daughter what she wanted for Xmas and she said gift cards are good..I take it it's her sweet way of saying,  "ma, you suck at buying gifts" 🤣

It's true though. 🤷‍♀️