How Are You Feeling? (cont'd)

[NocteSpiritus]

42 minutes ago, TronRP said:

@NocteSpiritus

YES!!! I knew I knew that look.  We usually frequented Zingerman's Delicatessen around the corner from there.  Most of the businesses in that area are converted homes.  Fire escapes were added to restructured rear entrances once they became businesses to stay in compliance with safety regulations.  But yes, those are single family 2 story dwellings. 

 

Growing up, I didn't see single story ranch style houses until we went to visit family in Alabama.  However, my aunt lived in a 3.5 story Plantation House with full Ionic Columns in front and a "door in floor" cellar entrance.  It was beautiful yet intimidating. 

I like the concept of it, and would like to find pictures of said dwellings before they were converted into businesses or demo'ed.

[TronRP]

Feels like I need a day to sleep off all this tiredness.  A day of cleaning up leaves and then last night's midnight run didn't end until 7:30 this morning.  I have another run, but I don't think it's happening this morning. 

[BadKitty]

For some reason I'm in a lot of pain today.  Granted, I did a lot of cooking and a lot of standing/bending and my feet are VERY swollen today, but DAMN.  This sucks.

[TronRP]

On 11/28/2019 at 8:51 PM, BadKitty said:

For some reason I'm in a lot of pain today.  Granted, I did a lot of cooking and a lot of standing/bending and my feet are VERY swollen today, but DAMN.  This sucks.

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I feel you.  That's been me all week.  I've been running non-stop in pain plus stiff muscles since pulling 9 hours of leaf clean up duty last Tuesday.  It's been shopping, shopping, chauffeuring, dinner, hosting, errands...and finally some sleep earlier today. 

[BadKitty]

34 minutes ago, TronRP said:

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I feel you.  That's been me all week.  I've been running non-stop in pain plus stiff muscles since pulling 9 hours of leaf clean up duty last Tuesday.  It's been shopping, shopping, chauffeuring, dinner, hosting, errands...and finally some sleep earlier today. 

I spend my entire life in pain, but  the last few days have been worse.  I can't even roll over onto my right side without severe pain.  Then getting back to the other side is hell - like my shoulder is frozen.  The feet (neuropathy) I deal with every day and it has good days and bad days, but the shoulder makes it so that I can't move to do even the smallest things.  Putting on my own socks is sometimes impossible.  😞

[TronRP]

11 minutes ago, BadKitty said:

I spend my entire life in pain, but  the last few days have been worse.  I can't even roll over onto my right side without severe pain.  Then getting back to the other side is hell - like my shoulder is frozen.  The feet (neuropathy) I deal with every day and it has good days and bad days, but the shoulder makes it so that I can't move to do even the smallest things.  Putting on my own socks is sometimes impossible.  😞

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[NocteSpiritus]

Better that I'm home after work with food and watching End Game.

[TronRP]

Feeling like I've been doing some extreme virtual socializing while taking care of business this evening.

  

Starting at 5pm, I was on a phone call followed by holding 2 different conversations in text and one in Google Photos plus one in PM while ordering holiday supplies and setting up a contact account as I was posting on DGN and just wrapped everything up at 11:45pm.  Now everyone is settled in for the night and all accounts are currently in order.

😁

[TronRP]

Feeling like delirium sleep finally caught up with me

[TronRP]

I'm so punchy right now, there's a good chance I might not make it through Toonami...if I can even stay awake to wait for it to come on...that is.

[NocteSpiritus]

Bad hip is still hurting from the fall at the gay bar a few years ago. Yes, I know it needs to be checked out. I'm waiting for a replacement medicaid plan card so I could make a doc appointment for 1. a physical (as a new physical) and hopefully they'll do a blood draw or i can request it. 2. the hip. asking how to get that checked out. 3. and the minor persistent cough 

[TronRP]

Totally exhausted...another busy day

[TronRP]

This month is so jammed packed that it feels like I won't get a real break until the week after Christmas 

[TronRP]

Feeling like I froze outside...and now very happy to be inside

[NocteSpiritus]

Tired from work; a little guilty since the closing disher didn't show cuz he 'couldn't find a ride'. But that's not my fault nor responsibility.

[TronRP]

Lightheaded...a lot of stuff is catching up with me...

[kat (1)]

I wish I was dead. Most people would have killed themselves already instead of trying to wait for life to get better and endure the rest of the shit in fucking hell that life has left to destroy them with. I keep waiting and still shit, nothing is better.  What am I waiting for anymore? I think God wants me to kill myself because maybe it's the only way I will ever get out of hell. 

Edited December 17, 2019 by kat

[kat (1)]

I don't even know who I am,  where my head is, I'm done.  I don't want to be this way.  I can't fix it. I'm alone and I've lost myself. I sit in darkness and hope that someone will kill me.  I wish God didn't take good people away from people who loved them when he can take such a piece of shit like me instead who won't even be noticed. It's not fair good people die but pieces of shit like me are still here.

Edited December 17, 2019 by kat

[TronRP]

4 hours ago, kat said:

I wish I was dead. Most people would have killed themselves already instead of trying to wait for life to get better and endure the rest of the shit in fucking hell that life has left to destroy them with. I keep waiting and still shit, nothing is better.  What am I waiting for anymore? I think God wants me to kill myself because maybe it's the only way I will ever get out of hell. 

 

3 hours ago, kat said:

I don't even know who I am,  where my head is, I'm done.  I don't want to be this way.  I can't fix it. I'm alone and I've lost myself. I sit in darkness and hope that someone will kill me.  I wish God didn't take good people away from people who loved them when he can take such a piece of shit like me instead who won't even be noticed. It's not fair good people die but pieces of shit like me are still here.

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Would you believe I've been in the same mindset before.  And it didn't help that I grew up listening to the song "Only the Good Die Young".  So I figured, as a child, that I must have been evil and that was the reason why my family was struggling so hard.  But I thought if I was good then I would up and die like our little church friend who drowned saving her best friend.  It was devastating for all of us, putting on the Easter church play that we had all rehearsed for so many hours together and having to have someone stand in on her part.

 

But her death opened my eyes to something else.  At a very young age, I came to the conclusion that we are all here for a reason, some kind of purpose.  Our church friend had survived life struggles that we had only heard of adults suffering through, but she endured and lived through it all and was able to be there for her friend, to be able to save her life and kept that little girl's family from suffering a loss.

 

Our church friend was a Foster Child who was being passed from family to family after her mother told her she didn't want to raise her after she was given back to her parent once her mother had "gotten her act together".  Even though our friend was devastated at the knowledge of knowing her own mother didn't want her and that there was a slim chance of her being adopted since she was over the age of 10 (she had just turned 13), that never changed how beautiful her soul was.  Life wasn't great for her, but she made the most out of every moment she had, no matter the situation.  After her funeral, I vowed to be the same way.

 

Once I changed my outlook on life, I began to see things as they are.  There are good things, bad things, happy things, sad things, but they all shape us into who we are.  Our experiences don't define us, they help guide us by giving us more insight and understanding.  How you use that knowledge is up to the individual, but I would hope it would make for something wonderful.

 

 

Sorry for getting all sappy...😏

[kat (1)]

10 hours ago, TronRP said:

 

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Would you believe I've been in the same mindset before.  And it didn't help that I grew up listening to the song "Only the Good Die Young".  So I figured, as a child, that I must have been evil and that was the reason why my family was struggling so hard.  But I thought if I was good then I would up and die like our little church friend who drowned saving her best friend.  It was devastating for all of us, putting on the Easter church play that we had all rehearsed for so many hours together and having to have someone stand in on her part.

 

But her death opened my eyes to something else.  At a very young age, I came to the conclusion that we are all here for a reason, some kind of purpose.  Our church friend had survived life struggles that we had only heard of adults suffering through, but she endured and lived through it all and was able to be there for her friend, to be able to save her life and kept that little girl's family from suffering a loss.

 

Our church friend was a Foster Child who was being passed from family to family after her mother told her she didn't want to raise her after she was given back to her parent once her mother had "gotten her act together".  Even though our friend was devastated at the knowledge of knowing her own mother didn't want her and that there was a slim chance of her being adopted since she was over the age of 10 (she had just turned 13), that never changed how beautiful her soul was.  Life wasn't great for her, but she made the most out of every moment she had, no matter the situation.  After her funeral, I vowed to be the same way.

 

Once I changed my outlook on life, I began to see things as they are.  There are good things, bad things, happy things, sad things, but they all shape us into who we are.  Our experiences don't define us, they help guide us by giving us more insight and understanding.  How you use that knowledge is up to the individual, but I would hope it would make for something wonderful.

 

 

Sorry for getting all sappy...😏

❤🙏

[TronRP]

Feeling a bit at odds with myself, yet comforted at the same time.  I've been trying to locate a friend for about 3 years now and just found their obituary page online.  Whereas I am saddened by their passing, I am happy they are with our mother who was their colleague and best friend.

[TronRP]

Impressed.  The girl is trying her hand at cooking and it is really good. 

[TronRP]

1 minute ago, TronRP said:

Impressed.  The girl is trying her hand at cooking and it is really good. 

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And she is refining her baking skills...she did all of the desserts for Christmas.

[NocteSpiritus]

Tired; and a little ... forgetful. I was gonna grab stuff to make slow cooker chili for tomorrow when I stopped at the store after work, but it was a bit of a mad house.

[TronRP]

Feeling beyond exhausted