My neighbor just caught me sobbing. We live on the 2nd floor and I was sitting on the balcony texting with my son after he told me a story about something terrible that happened at his work this week. Basically,  a man died and the man's mother found him, my son hasn't experienced that type of thing so he's feeling all kinds of things and I just felt his pain as a mother because that is my baby even when he's 50 he's still my baby and I hate that I can't shield him from grief and heartbreak and as a mom knowing a poor mother just saw her baby take his last breathe in a terrible way made me feel how we carry our babies for 10 months,  we watch them grow and they make us so to know a momma had to go through watching her whole world fall apart in a matter of seconds,  minutes, hours, is absolutely soul crushing. Also, I am sleep deprived,  pushing, and perimenopausal so I burst into tears, and didn't realize that someone was around and fuck me I heard a little shuffle and deadass knew that she heard me. So she's like you ok, so I started sobbing more😭 

I feel the same way about peptides. There are people out here renewing there whole life after learning about this stuff.

The past month and a half I have been dealing with new chronic back pain and the muscle relaxant pills the doctor gave me have been putting me to sleep at work and I've been so drowsy with them. Weed has helped a little but I can't just smoke weed all the time. So I decided to try some CBD pills I picked up this little bottle after a few questions in the store after a few days this week It has made a great noticeable difference on my back. I don't feel very much pain anymore as im moving around work running around from my workbench to the polishing wheels and so on.  I think we should put more funding and research on using CBD for low level pain medication and not opium

https://youtu.be/IRL5DUmXbpU?feature=shared

Finishing breakfast and getting this day started.  Apparently, my futon won out last night and I don't have much in the way of memory after my head hit the pillow just after 8pm.