Lonlyness

[vampgirl21]

Traped in a world of darkness and light

my soul trys hard to fight to make this body raise from slumber.

Walking the streets of this illusion of a city

only to see sadness and the forgotton laid on every corner.

People walk by me as if i was nothing but a dream a type of thing not to be thought of twice.

Home is where you hope the painful lonlyness will end only to see that the one's that clam to love you cast you more into dispare.

They want you to belive that they care but don't.

Soon you see the horrid truth that you have no voice, no ideas, you bearly even have a space to stand in.

Only to be seen by the world when they say they want you to be seen.

So your left in your room which may as well be your jail.

Writting down in your diary and telling how your world is hell and wondering if it'll always be this way.

How sometimes you lay down and dream of your grave becuase it seems to be the only place you'll escape the void of people and hollow glancess.

I tell you sometimes i pray for that day to just be in the ground and waste away.

Just to be still with my eternal smile.

To know i will never again have to deal with my own lonlyness.