Brenda Starrr Posted September 7, 2005 Report Share Posted September 7, 2005 Aww! I'd even draw a smiley face on my surgical mask. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
unchaste Posted September 7, 2005 Report Share Posted September 7, 2005 Okay, eternal, let me just say one thing. People like dynomiiiite and Brenda are nice people, well-adjusted, with families of thier own and happieness that they have created for themselves. You and I....not so lucky. My parents are in no way abusive, and, wow, my sister isn't nearly as fucked up as yours, but, no matter how hard i try, I AM NEVER GOING TO BE A HAPPY PERSON. I have a chemical inbalance in my brain. I am going to be miserble and pessimistic and cynical for the rest of my fucking life. Sure, I have good days, but they have absolutely no chance of outweighing the loathing I have for myself & the rest of the world. Yes, I take antidepressants, but drugs only go so far. Do I blame my parents/family situation for this? Yes AND no. No, they were never abusive or hurtful, and I've never gone wthout anything I've needed.... BUT THEY ARE THE ONES THAT GAVE ME THESE FUCKED UP GENETICS. And my ummm, condition has always been a bit invisible to them ("What the hell is the matter with you?" "What reason do you have to be crying?" etc). At age 13 I had to scream into my mother's face that I needed therapy. That's what it took to call her attention to the situation, even though beforehand, I had been crying nonstop for two hours, for no apparent reason. So yes, eternal, i do agree with you, there is nearly nothing we can do to stop how our families treat us, outside of how WE treat THEM. No, you're not the only one that struggles with people's opinions of you, either. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
The_Dark Posted September 7, 2005 Report Share Posted September 7, 2005 Been trying to think of something to get pity about... that I am willing to talk about.... the following is prolly the most hurt full thing anyone has ever said to me... "Markie, you know your not really part of this family don't you? You were adopted." That was from my maternal grand mother.. I was 9. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Brenda Starrr Posted September 7, 2005 Report Share Posted September 7, 2005 OMG.... That's so fucking mean! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
The_Dark Posted September 7, 2005 Report Share Posted September 7, 2005 My grand mother never hid the fact that she hated me from the moment I was born. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
the eternal Posted September 7, 2005 Report Share Posted September 7, 2005 OOOOHHHHHHH, what a horrible thing to say. I'm angry FOR you That said, I think I've got a phone call to Grandma to make. It would explain soooo much. :grin Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
the eternal Posted September 7, 2005 Report Share Posted September 7, 2005 Well, I fricken hate her too. Family members should NEVER do that to children Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Brenda Starrr Posted September 7, 2005 Report Share Posted September 7, 2005 My grand mother never hid the fact that she hated me from the moment I was born. <{POST_SNAPBACK}> That just makes me sick. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bean Posted September 7, 2005 Report Share Posted September 7, 2005 That's just rotten. I'm really sick, have a 102 degree temperature, sore throat, and I hurt all over. I hate being sick! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
The_Dark Posted September 7, 2005 Report Share Posted September 7, 2005 Odd thing is, I love her. She shaped much of who I am and my tastes. She bought me books and comics. One time she bought me a book called "A Tourists Guide to Transilvania." It was full of vivid description of the various evil and twisted creatures of the night that might just kill you in you visit. Each was accompanied by graphic animation of the beasts.. and the... people... parts... splaters... such good reading for a child. The comics were such titles as Weird Tales and House of Mystery... and Ghost Rider. So, it is to her that I send thanks for turning me so morbid. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
the eternal Posted September 7, 2005 Report Share Posted September 7, 2005 Odd thing is, I love her. She shaped much of who I am and my tastes. She bought me books and comics. One time she bought me a book called "A Tourists Guide to Transilvania." It was full of vivid description of the various evil and twisted creatures of the night that might just kill you in you visit. Each was accompanied by graphic animation of the beasts.. and the... people... parts... splaters... such good reading for a child. The comics were such titles as Weird Tales and House of Mystery... and Ghost Rider. So, it is to her that I send thanks for turning me so morbid. That's awesome. It sounds like she tried to mess you up, but just deepened you and opened your eyes to cool and interesting things. Now there's something to not pity party about Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
unchaste Posted September 7, 2005 Report Share Posted September 7, 2005 LET'S PARTY!!!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
detroitrequiem Posted September 7, 2005 Report Share Posted September 7, 2005 I have a beautiful girlfriend who is completely asexual. She isnt interested in sex at all. At first I thought she was gay or maybe just not into me. But, no she doesnt like sex and Im a complete nympho who enjoys pleasing a woman in just about any way. I've spent a lot of money on sexy outfits, this and that, even a puppy, and still no sweet lovin. God hates me Fuck you God robert Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JaneDead Posted September 7, 2005 Report Share Posted September 7, 2005 Okay, eternal, let me just say one thing. People like dynomiiiite and Brenda are nice people, well-adjusted, with families of thier own and happieness that they have created for themselves. <{POST_SNAPBACK}> yes yes. i want to point out that i am in no way bitter or did it fuck me up in any way at all. it was never really *obvious* growing up. we are 6 years apart so it was more like when i grew up i saw things where different for her than for me. and it was more annoying rather than harmful to me or my upbringing. i was always loved and shown i was loved. always. i feel bad for even saying anything but reading eternal's post reminded me a bit how i felt around my late teen age years and a little on after that. but i love my family and they love me. i am lucky :grin and have no reason to complain about them. well... at least not about most of them my sister is awesome (some of you have met her) and my mom is pretty fly too. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
unchaste Posted September 7, 2005 Report Share Posted September 7, 2005 Okay, dyno, take your happy family and shove them up your @$$!!! I'm just joking, I'm sorry, I couldn't resist. Yay happy families! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Brenda Starrr Posted September 8, 2005 Report Share Posted September 8, 2005 After what we've been through, we are more solid than ever. I have a strong marriage, Wayne is cancer-free (so far), and my son is doing better. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Shade Everdark Posted September 8, 2005 Report Share Posted September 8, 2005 A tree branch sorta hit the roof of the home I am renting. Technically, it's not really my problem, and the damage is relatively minimal, but still...a tree branch fell on my house. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Msterbeau Posted September 8, 2005 Report Share Posted September 8, 2005 I have a plate full of home made lasagna and no one to share it with.... :tear Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
phee Posted September 8, 2005 Author Report Share Posted September 8, 2005 I have a beautiful girlfriend who is completely asexual. She isnt interested in sex at all. At first I thought she was gay or maybe just not into me. But, no she doesnt like sex and Im a complete nympho who enjoys pleasing a woman in just about any way. I've spent a lot of money on sexy outfits, this and that, even a puppy, and still no sweet lovin. God hates me Fuck you God robert Just curious... would you prefer what you have described, or someone ugly and horney? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Dollardave Posted September 8, 2005 Report Share Posted September 8, 2005 No one has sent me a request yet for nudie pics of me. =( Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Killer_Bunnie Posted September 8, 2005 Report Share Posted September 8, 2005 I have to go to yet another friends funeral tonite, I'm sick of funerals this year! 5 is to damn many in 8 months. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
phee Posted September 10, 2005 Author Report Share Posted September 10, 2005 People always wake up in bad moods around me.... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mikielikesit Posted September 11, 2005 Report Share Posted September 11, 2005 I have to get ready and pack cuz' I'm going on vacation to the beach........WAAAA Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
phee Posted September 11, 2005 Author Report Share Posted September 11, 2005 I have to get ready and pack cuz' I'm going on vacation to the beach........WAAAA You need the bragging swarey next door... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
detroitrequiem Posted September 11, 2005 Report Share Posted September 11, 2005 hmmmm..... I enjoy intimacy. Im more attracted to a woman for her personality not looks. However, if she was fugly, I dont know. I hate to say this but I guess it depends on the person. I have dated some very beautiful women and it wasnt always the greatest thing. Our relationship seems to often more paternal. I really love her though:) Now if she would just get a little nasty every now and then! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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