Small update

[Soulrev]

I know I've been kinda quiet here lately so I'll give a breif update of what's going on right now..

I'm not leaving for basic training for probably a month or two now. One of my long-time friends wants to go in with me now and I have to wait for him to take his ASVAB and all that shit. Still plan on going, but asap, especially since the sign on bonuses are high right now.

Work is going good, no problems or new developments there.. Just keeping busy.

Met a new girl.. This is the best news actually.. You all know the long stomach-clenching story of my ex love..

A few of you have met my friend Aaron who came with me to CC a couple times.. Well he knew this girl, and I met her through him.. He kinda had a crush on her, but it ended up her liking me, and Aaron said I had his blessings so, her and I have been hanging out a lot the past few days..

Her name is Krystal.

Anyway we went on a date yesterday, I blew the last of my spending money on Chili's and 2 movie tickets.. Went and saw the Exorcism of Emily Rose (excellent movie btw).. We've been having a good time and last night she told me straight out that she really likes me a lot, so we're kinda together, but not official, yet. She knows all about my plans to go into the Army soon but we haven't talked about, or "gotten that far" yet, as far as me leaving for 4 months...

I'm really happy now because honestly, this girl is a LOT cooler than Kristina was, and it's so nice to have all that shit put behind me and to finally be moving on. I still feel slightly jaded, though.. I suppose I'll probably be fucked up in the head forever, from what she did to me.. But just slightly jaded to where I kind of don't expect this new "possible-relationship" to last.. I mean you guys know how many times I was just dumped by Kristina after like 2 weeks..

It's just going to take some time to trust Krystal, is all.. I know (and hope) someday I will be able too but it's just going to take a couple weeks to get used to the idea of a non-insane relationship.

On other things, I haven't been eating right lately. I don't know why. I noticed this about 2 weeks ago.. I've been eating close to nothing at all every day.

as far back as I can remember is Saturday.. All I had to eat was a helping of spaghetti about the size of my fist, and I was full, didn't want any more.

Sunday, I ate 7 oreo cookies.

Monday, I ate 1 1/2 chicken tacos from Chili's.

Today, I ate 1 small bag of Dorito's.

I just don't get hungry, don't know why. Kind of worries me a little but then it doesn't, simply because I'm not intentionally depriving myself of anything, I just don't feel like I can eat much anymore. I'm still taking in fluids, like normal.. Usually 1-2 glasses of milk a day, 2-3 cans of pop, 2-3 glasses of water every day. What else is strange is I don't even feel like smoking anymore.. I've been smoking for 4 years steady now and the only time I don't feel like smoking a cigarette is when I get a bad chest cold.. This is the first time I've just been like "Fuck this I don't want a cigarette" when I light one up out of habit.. This started probably about a week ago, too.

Anyway, just an update..

-B

[Homicidalheathen]

Good luck in basic....

Keep in touch with your new G/F and good luck with her upon your return and.....

EAT DAMN IT.

7 oreos is like what I used to do after a drug binge. Stop it.

[ZhukovCodeslinger]

good luck with your experience in the army.

Just a point of advice.... no matter how cool a combat arm sounds, you should go into communications or cryptography.... then you can get a job when you get out.

My brother just got back from 15 months in Iraq as a dismounted Cav scout (mechanized infantry for the most part), and all the combat/raids/ and killing did for him was....

turn him into a nerd with a psycho-violent twinge... now when he plays D&D people take his violent threats etc. seriously because he has problems controlling his temper and can be set off by as little as having someone stand too close to him

make the most of the G.I. Bill and take as many online "army courses" as you can. Also take as much college as you can on base... It will keep your brain sane and will keep you from having to do extra busy work because you are sitting around doing nothing....

Zhuk

[Brenda Starrr]

You'll be fine, Brian. I know that you will.