Noise

[Rivers the Cleric]

I hear it again... damn noise keeps me up for hours.

I can't tell if it's someone building something, or maybe it's the guy next door with his boyfriend again. just a never ending "Thump Thump Thump Thump" that drives away the little bit of sanity i have left. but i know it isn't either of those, because it never stops.

it's not like it's loud or anything, because i can barley hear it. i have to turn off anything that makes noise, my TV, air conditioner, and computer just so i can hear it...

why do i turn it all off?.. i can't say i really know. maybe just some insane curiosity of mine, maybe a masochistic urge to drive myself crazy.

the noise starts getting to me, like it always does. and then the most infuriating part is that it always seems to get faster when it does. i lay back and close my eyes, trying to drown it out. it never works, it's hard as hell to hear, but once i start hearing it i start i can't stop.

it's like a car with a blown out tire driving down the road through the rain, and i just keep waiting for it to crash so i can rest. but it doesn't,because it isn't that, and i don't get what i want. my head starts throbbing, like it always does. god damned noise. like someone tenderizing a bloody steak till the world ends.

the noise used to make me angry, i just wanted peace, and if it would go away then i knew i could have it. it doesn't make my angry anymore, just sad. i remember peaceful nights, silent ones i had when i didn't care... it's not that the noise wasn't there, i just hadn't heard it's awful sounds yet. and for a while there i can remember a time when there was another noise just like it. you would think that two of them would just make it worse, but it didn't... it made it all seem right.

i wish it would go away...

i wish it would stop.

if this god damned thing in my chest would just stop beating, maybe i could get some rest.

[Moonlight_Phantasy]

Get ear plugs.

[torn asunder]

very nice piece, rivers - is it part of a story you're writing, or...??

[Rivers the Cleric]

it's going to sound odd, but i don't entirely know what it is.

i don't sleep well at all.. like, every few days at the most. but some times i get in to a pretty out of it state, and start writing. most of the time i just don't pay any attention to it because it's not even coherant... things like an opera entitled "Demise of a Gummy Bear. "

but this was a bit of a shock....

now that you mention it, maybe i will write a story around it.

[Homicidalheathen]

Yah like this sound finally drives you nuts so you go kill your neighbor then you like it so much you keep on killing but you have to find noisey people to get inspired......like construction sites......

[Rivers the Cleric]

i thought more along the lines of someone coming to terms with the fact that he's alive....

that, or as it is the season, maybe something vampire related.