TROY - Please talk to us

[Nienna]

Still no word. =(

[Brenda Starrr]

Dammit.

*Hugs for Nienna*

[Nienna]

Dammit.

*Hugs for Nienna*

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Thanks .I'm losing it. really.

[Brenda Starrr]

I'm sorry. I wish I could change it for you......

You're in my thoughts as well, sweetie.

[Nienna]

I'm sorry. I wish I could change it for you......

You're in my thoughts as well, sweetie.

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*cries* nothing anyone can do. we wait...

[Onyx]

Thanks .I'm losing it. really.

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((((hugs))))

Maybe they don't realize how late it is (and that there is a good friend waiting for a phone call and other friends checking the board over and over to see if Troy is doing okay).

I'm sure he is fine, but I do hope they call with an update soon.

[Nienna]

((((hugs))))

Maybe they don't realize how late it is  (and that there is a good friend waiting for a phone call and other friends checking the board over and over to see if Troy is doing okay).

I'm sure he is fine, but I do hope they call with an update soon.

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I've kind of dispaired of hearing anything tonight. I called and left a message though.

[Msterbeau]

*Hugs for all... especially Troy*

Grant me the serenity, to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can.. and the wisdom to know the difference.

[bean]

[Vater Araignee]

I just read his post and I nearly destroyed my key board.

Excuse me.

*BAMF*

[Rayne]

...and now we wait, we wait together. *hugs* to all.

[bean]

I just finished reading his post and I am at a loss for words. :tear

There are so many people that care and hope for the best. I don't even know what to say.

A million hugs to everyone, especially Troy.

[Lilith]

Troy has been weighing heavy on my mind for more then just yesterday. I had no reason why, i just knew it had bothered me i had not seen him really post anything here or the few select times i was at CC i had not seeen him. I Sent him a note a few days prior to this stateing how i missed him and would love to see him out n about, I really hope that did not add to his hurt.

I as many of you dont know Troy very well, just a few hello's and conversations here and there, but he is the kind of guy who Grabs you, You want to be his Friend, You want to help him, you want him to want to be your friend as well etc..... the list of how he grabs your soul is endless. Not to many Amazing people out there like that.

We are Lucky To have YOU among us.

I did send a few im's yesterday pleading with him to reply, i probally sounded crazy.....I know i sounded Crazy....But some how i think he will eventually understand my crazy rambles ...Troy you Just seem to be like, understanding that is, so much more then others whom i know allot about....But i want you and whom ever to know, You are loved even by those who dont know as much as others.

I have been praying my bottom off for you.

YOu still have not left my thoughts and in this house its hard to make things stick in my head.

Troy, you have touched each and every one of us in so many ways.

We all love you, We all miss you, we all understand, and we are all here for you.

Harmony

[Nienna]

As of this morning the only person I've heard from is MY mom. I'll post as soon as someone calls me.

[JaneDead]

i wonder why they won't at least call you and tell you something, anything, at least for peace of mind :(

[Marblez]

Are we sure it was an emergent hospital thing or perhaps it was a more long term committal type hospital visit.

If it is a planned longer term type thing, probably won't hear much right away at all.

[Brenda Starrr]

I have to go to work today. I pride myself on my fairly decent ability to check my "baggage" at the door. It's a new trick I learned, for my own sake. Somehow, I don't think that I can do it today. Troy has been on my mind since I got home last night. Melissa directed me to the thread as soon as I came on, and it's hard not to think of it. But, this isn't about me.....

Nienna, try to have a good day. I know that it's hard, but just keep in mind that he needs you. He needs all of us right now.

[Lilith]

It may also be at a request not to let any one in on the details.....

I have had a time in my life where i did not want any one to know a damn thing about me when i was Under the weather. :blushing

[Onyx]

It may also be at a request not to let any one in on the details.....

I have had a time in my life where i did not want any one to know a damn thing about me when i was Under the weather.  I ran from the Psych Hosp and every one i knew and those who i did not know......

Its not personal its just you may think people will hate you, if they know, then after all is said and done and you are healthy then you think every one wonders if you are okay and you feel people treat you diffrently.  You wonder if they are just waiting for you to become unstable again, then you get people who dont know shit about anything saying things like " I try to put my self in your place and when i was your age i had this n that and i did this or that" and you think to your self What a fuck head, i have been feeling fine and this dumb ass had to bring up something stupid and knock ya back on your ass.  You think That every one thinks you are crazy etc... so in your own mind it is just better that no one sees you  and the things you say or do.........

on one hand you know you should keep your friends  close but yet you feel they would run with fear if they saw you.

There are stil people who had seen me in my lesser states who i cant stand to see because of the way they look at me now. I hate it, its like they cant let it go, but oddly i have.......

You dont want the stigma and it seems atleast with some Friends that you will allways be "unstable" no matter how long you have been such.

Just try ot be understanding, dont avoid the topic, but dont dwell on it either, listen, and try to be as you allways were.

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With some crowds there is a stigma attached to ever being in a psych hospital, but I think if the truth were known there are quite a few who have been. Everyone eventually will come to a time in their life when they need a little help. Everyone on this earth.

It's the people who don't have the guts to go try to get their heads straight who we should *really* worry about.

I was admitted for a week when I was in my 20s for severe depression. There were good things and bad things about it, but I did find a good counselor out of the experience and was able to make some life changes and figure some things out.

People did treat me differently after I got out and I HATED that.

[Lilith]

I Agree 100% those who have the nerve balls guts what ever to regonize they have a problem and they have the strength to try to correct it are not the ones who we need to worry about.

The one running around "with out " problems are the ones to have a general concern over.

I know i am better off, I learned so many thngs and continue to do so, those who are aware are more likley to adjust and correct there behavior more so then those who have no clue.

I appluaded those who have the nerve to at elast try to Heal there minds, it is a very difficult task.

[Msterbeau]

After reading Onyx's last post, I feel compelled to say one very inportant thing:

Not all therapists/psychologists are equal... or even good. I've been very lucky to have been referred to the one I have now. I've also dated a couple in recent years. The common thread between them, and a good thing to look for, is that they've all done considerable work on their own demons either before or as part of the process to becoming a therapist. If you don't feel you're getting the help you need... you probably aren't. Find someone else. Find someone with miles of empathy but also the willingness to call a spade, a spade.

[Lilith]

^agree

[Nienna]

Are we sure it was an emergent hospital thing or perhaps it was a more long term committal type hospital visit. 

If it is a planned longer term type thing, probably won't hear much right away at all.

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he had gone to emergency. This wasn't planned.

I just tried another call. No answer. This sucks.

[Nienna]

Nienna, try to have a good day. I know that it's hard, but just keep in mind that he needs you. He needs all of us right now.

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I'm not ok.. but I'm functioning alittle better. I went to work today though I'm kind of just staring into space.

[The Void]

I don't know what has happened. Only Troy knows- none of us ever could. I hope he is well or gets there when it is his time to do so. He is loved by many, it's obvious here. At least he knows that- he even expressed it in his post. Hopefully it will be good news that we'll hear that he is ok.