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I will pray that this will all happen with the least amount of discomfort for you both, i also pray that you both are able to express everything you need to each other, and experiance some level of peace in reagrds to those issues, i know how important that is, I have had to make some of these similar decisions and some of the similar things have happened with my mom befor she passed, it was hard......

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i didn't even realize that she didn't post here that much. so "newer" people here might not know her well or at all.

i actually saw this (the live journal) because of another board. i know a lot of people here though know her (maybe even more so from the old dgn). and thought they would appreciate knowing this.

i have never met her but after reading all that i just started to cry and cry and cry.

i have been thinking heavily lately about my own "issues" but after reading that - i realized even more so that my problems are ones that can always be solved. she on the other hand is battling something that is out of her control for the most part.

i'm just sadder than words can express. she is such a beautiful lady who has had many burdens put upon her. things like this i will never understand or come to terms with.

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Very well said Dyno...

I used to speak with her a lot on the old DGn...and my grief cannot be explained. I pray that things will go smoothly for her, as smoothly as can be expected. My heart aches for her at this time and I really don't think that there is anything else that can be said...

*ouch*

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"hijacked" ? as in , posting in oppositon to her wishes?

I was a bit confused as i thought laura was nvayne and it seemed strange that nvaynes journal would be talking about her as a 3rd person. Now i understand.

Seems to posting out of sadness / concern , i see no negative aspects to it. Heartbreaking situation regardless. :unhappy:

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"hijacked" ? as in , posting in oppositon to her wishes?

I was a bit confused as i thought laura was nvayne and it seemed strange that nvaynes journal would be talking about her as a 3rd person.  Now i understand.

Seems to posting out of sadness / concern , i see no negative aspects to it.  Heartbreaking situation regardless.  :unhappy:

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No, I thnk nothing negative about it, I used his term...

This is Daniel. I sort of hijacked Laura's journal
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i am new and i had not known these things but my sentiments are the same,

it is just a hard thing to deal with, i had to do it with my mom, and from that experience i can not imagine having this happen with my spouse, as a child our parents are the most important to us, but as we are older the main person we rely on is our spouse, i can not imagine loosing the one person i rely on the most, and for that reason i will pray that everything that is needed to be said is said between them, and they both part with some type of peace and closure. I wish the least amount of discomfort for them both physically, mentally, and emotionally.

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I've actually been communicating with her via LJ and email for a little while. I know some of what she's suffering. I've been reading this every day, crying my eyes out. Wayne has been following this as well. He's a cancer survivor, and this sort of thing breaks his heart. Laura sort of "held my hand" via email when I was worried about my lump. She actually cheered me on, as if she wasn't going through her own ordeal. Laura is such a beautiful and vibrant woman. A woman who seems to have so much to offer not just Daniel, but the world. Even though I've never met her in person, she has touched my life, our lives. We hurt for Laura, Daniel, and all of their family and friends.

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After realizing what this thread meant, I have to agree that I am devestated. Laura was there for me during a really rough period in my life (before I last lost my internet connection). As with Brenda, she held my hand and gave me so many words of strength. What I would give to be able to return that favor and give her some strength of my own. I hate that this is happening. But as they say, the brightest stars burn out the quickest and the ones that mean the most to us are the ones that have to leave us too soon...

God I feel sick...

How unfair is life that I bitch about petty shit and a person who's worth is probably twice mine is lying in a hospital somewhere sufferring...

I pray for her and her loved ones...I have to stop typing because I am crying to hard...

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This past month I've been dealing with memories of the brother I lost to cancer in 1999. His birthday was the 19th, and he passed somewhere around the 24th (I refuse to 'celebrate' the deaths of people I love). So this struck me VERY close to home, even though I didn't know Laura all that well.

I went back to see things Laura has posted here, to remember and get a feel for who she is, at least on DGN. (In addition to the similarities to my brother), these are the things that made me cry:

"I think meeting people on here is great... you get a chance to talk and explore subjects to see what you have in common. I have had a couple great dates, and one excellent long term relationship from this forum.... not to mention the great friends I now have too."

"From personal experience it's near impossible to get aid for illness... I wouldn't have even had the procedure to save me done if I hadn't had health insurance... how sick is that? We are the richest country yet we have people deal with illness and die when it could be easily cured because they don't have a million dollars, or health insurance. I'm also in financial debt for the rest of my life because the little aid I did get won't cover but three months back of my health care."

"My ears have closed up... not sure if it was from the chemo or I got an infection. Where can you safely and not too expensively get them pierced anymore?" - nvayne, who misses her bobbles

"I love to look at people and it's the unique parts that make everyone beautiful... a slightly too big nose with a lot of their heritage obvious... big back ends... slanted eyes, too small on top ... too big."

"For once in my life I am with someone I'm attracted to on all levels.... physiclly, mentally and spiritually... there are no doubts or insecurities on my part and that's a new one for me. I have found real love."

From the "your theme music" thread (which of these songs are going to remind you of her every time you hear it now?):

"I think I would have to say I would be:

"Fashion" by David Bowie when I was gong to school

"Temple of love" Sisters of Mercy my clubbing days

"Love will tear us apart again" Joy Division dating days

"Prayers for Rain" The Cure soundtrack to my marriage

"My Immortal" Evanescence my divorce(played non-stop when I left)

"Last Night I Dreamt That Somebody Loved Me" The Smiths Dating again

"how soon is now" The Smiths dating my Daniel

"Black Angel" The Cult going though treatment for cancer"

"Makes you want to take belly dancing just to dance to it.(something I will do as soon as I'm well)."

This makes me feel like fighting for healthcare reform, going out and getting my ears pierced again, loving myself & seeing myself as beautiful even though I'm fat, taking belly dancing lessons, and listening to a playlist made up of the above listed songs.

This is just so bad on so many levels. I can't find the words.

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Wayne and I have been talking about this for a few days now. It's amazing how petty and piddly things are when someone is going through what Laura and Daniel are. Why are we fighting over stupid things, things that can be so easily repaired in our lives? Even though we say "I love you" all the time, why not just show it even more? It's so sad how, when someone is dying, we suddenly have the ability to put our own lives into perspective. It's now 7:26a.m., and by now the tube is probably removed. I'm just shaking. I now need to go hug my daughter and my husband. I'll catch my son when he comes back from school.

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as posted on the crypt:

she is/was a wonderful person, from the times we have spoken i did get the sense that she was one of the few genuinely beuitiful people inside.

this is a total shock to me as i spoke to her a month back when she appered on IM briefly. she explained about the BMT and was hopefull that she'd beat it the second time round...

theres just no words for how fucked up this is. or why once again i'm upset by events occouring to people the other side of the pond, except to say that laura was a friend i'd have liked to have.

this just shows my pers issues at the mo look exactly like the bs it is.

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such an angel

At yoga today, I was hoping to find some peace in my mind for a person I've never met. I was doing alright, when "Angels" by Robbie Williams was played at the end. I didn't even care that I lost it in front of a room full of total strangers. Now, every time I hear that song, I'll think of her.

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